{"id":26059,"date":"2018-10-17T08:06:59","date_gmt":"2018-10-17T08:06:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=26059"},"modified":"2021-08-11T12:00:57","modified_gmt":"2021-08-11T12:00:57","slug":"mi-hai-prosciugato-emotivamente-ma-ho-imparato-a-rimettermi-insieme","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/mi-hai-prosciugato-emotivamente-ma-ho-imparato-a-rimettermi-insieme\/","title":{"rendered":"Mi hai prosciugato emotivamente, ma ho imparato a rimettermi insieme"},"content":{"rendered":"

Sono sempre stata quella ragazza che aveva sempre tutto sotto controllo.<\/p>\n

Non c'era molto che potesse influenzarmi e sapevo sempre cosa fare, indipendentemente da ci\u00f2 che la vita mi riservava.<\/p>\n

Probabilmente \u00e8 per questo che molti dei miei amici si rivolgevano sempre a me quando si trovavano ad affrontare qualche difficolt\u00e0 o erano semplicemente infelici per qualche motivo.<\/p>\n

I was so used to being everybody\u2019s rock, including YOURS, that I forgot how to be my own.<\/p>\n

At first, I didn\u2019t mind it that much. I guess that\u2019s what happens when you get used to a certain way of life.<\/p>\n

I loved that I was the one everybody turned to, and that I could help someone I love in any way. That\u2019s what you do for people you love, right?<\/p>\n

You\u2019re there for them.<\/p>\n

Ma solo quando ho incontrato Lei, mi sono reso conto di quanto fosse grande il tributo che mi stava imponendo e di quanto cominciassi a sentirmi oppresso.<\/p>\n

It was like my world was slowly starting to crumble under my feet, and I didn\u2019t know how to stop it.<\/p>\n

Sei entrato nella mia vita come un uragano e hai iniziato a trasformarmi lentamente in quello che avevi bisogno che fossi.<\/p>\n

I didn\u2019t realize this at first because you knew just how to do it, without me noticing. You were so smooth with your words and charmed the hell out of me, so much so that I felt like I was under your spell at times.<\/p>\n

But that\u2019s what every master manipulator does. I only wish I had been able to see through your disguise back then.<\/p>\n

Pensavo di essere innamorata.<\/p>\n

A volte mi hai fatto sentire come se fossi in cima al mondo!<\/p>\n

Parlavi del nostro futuro insieme e io ero al settimo cielo. Mai e poi mai avrei pensato che fosse solo un tuo gioco malato ed egoista, un mezzo per raggiungere un fine.<\/p>\n

Ma almeno ho imparato molto.<\/p>\n

Quando sei stato sicuro che mi fossi innamorato di te completamente, hai iniziato a portarmi via pezzi di felicit\u00e0, svuotandomi di tutto ci\u00f2 che sapevo e di tutto ci\u00f2 che ero.<\/p>\n

Te l'ho permesso perch\u00e9 eri tutto ci\u00f2 che volevo e ti credevo.<\/p>\n

Credevo che non avresti mai fatto nulla per ferirmi o cambiarmi. Ero cos\u00ec sicura che tu mi amassi quanto io amavo te, che ti ho dato la mia anima senza chiedere nulla in cambio.<\/p>\n

Stupid, I know. But back then, I didn\u2019t know any better.<\/p>\n

Dalla ragazza sicura di s\u00e9 che aveva il controllo della sua vita e delle sue emozioni, mi sono trasformata in una mera ombra di me stessa. Mi sentivo come se dovessi chiedere il permesso per qualsiasi cosa.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know how, but You managed to make me sentirsi cos\u00ec piccoli e insicuri<\/a> that my friends didn\u2019t recognize me anymore.<\/p>\n

I was not the girl they all knew, and I should\u2019ve listened. But your power over me was so strong, how could I?<\/p>\n

I never thought I would be THAT girl. The girl who would let a scheming conniver enter her life and change her so profoundly that she couldn\u2019t look at herself in the mirror anymore. The girl who was now ashamed of what had become of her. The girl who gave her all and got nothing in return but shame and regret.<\/p>\n

Mi direbbe che l'amore richiede sacrifici. S\u00ec, ma non se fossi l'unico a sacrificarsi!<\/p>\n

You would also tell me that it\u2019s normal for a person to change (\u2018adapt\u2019 was your exact word) when in a serious relationship. Sure, but I was the only one left completely changed!<\/p>\n

Once I realized that I was no longer the person I was before you came into my life, I decided that I\u2019d had ENOUGH of You. I had taken it for too long, and it was time I took back control of my life.<\/p>\n

Una volta capito che mi ero perso in te, e non in senso positivo, mi sono guardato a lungo allo specchio e mi sono detto che mi merito di pi\u00f9.<\/p>\n

Questo NON era ci\u00f2 che volevo, e qualsiasi amore potessi provare per te, non valeva la lotta costante e l'infelicit\u00e0 che provavo ogni giorno.<\/p>\n

Avevo smesso di mettermi al secondo posto e di passare in secondo piano nella mia vita!<\/p>\n

I mattered. My emotions mattered. My sanity MATTERED. You \u2013 not so much. Not anymore! And once I realized that, everything else was so easy.<\/p>\n

I will never allow myself to experience such profound emptiness and loss of identity for a guy who is not worth another thought. So this is my goodbye. I am back to my old self, and You can\u2019t do anything about it anymore.<\/p>\n

I have found and regained my peace of mind again, and I\u2019m never giving it back.<\/p>\n

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I was always that girl who had her shit together at all times. Not much could affect me, and I always knew what to do, no matter what life threw at me. That is probably why many of my friends would always turn to me when they were facing any difficulties or were just unhappy…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":26061,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-26059","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/10\/lydz-leow-1075298-unsplash-1.jpg",800,546,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26059","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=26059"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26059\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/26061"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=26059"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=26059"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=26059"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}