{"id":3260,"date":"2017-08-07T08:14:53","date_gmt":"2017-08-07T08:14:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=3260"},"modified":"2021-08-31T07:30:29","modified_gmt":"2021-08-31T07:30:29","slug":"non-riesco-a-trattenermi-dallamare-il-tuo-tossico","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/non-riesco-a-trattenermi-dallamare-il-tuo-tossico\/","title":{"rendered":"Non riesco a trattenermi dall'amare il tuo tossico"},"content":{"rendered":"

I remember the first time we met. I didn’t like you so much. I thought you were weird because you were quiet. I didn’t like people who were quiet because I didn’t trust them. I thought to myself: \u201c Why the hell do you need to be so mysterious?\u201d<\/p>\n

Maybe I should have listened to my first instinct. Maybe I should have gone with my first impression. But, I didn\u2019t after all. We were forced to spend time together and somehow, along with the way, I have started to like you.<\/p>\n

I noticed that we had similar tastes in stuff. I don’t know why, but that mysteriousness of yours was drawing me closer to you. Maybe I couldn’t resist scratching underneath your harsh and icy surface. To me, you were a challenge and I don’t run away from challenges\u2014I never did.<\/p>\n

After some time passed by, we started seeing each other on regular basis. I would be lying if I said that I didn’t enjoy it. Heck, no one forced me to be with you. But there is one thing that I didn’t know then, but I realize now\u2014I had my ticket out. I was free to go anytime I liked. Every time we had a fight, I could have turned the other way and gone home. Things are different now.<\/p>\n

I suppose you were toxic even then, but I didn’t notice it\u2014maybe I’m that selfish. I remember the time when you pissed me off so hard that I even left you. But, that didn’t last for long. Some kind of a weird force was drawing me back to you.<\/p>\n

Sometimes, I have a feeling that God is playing jokes on me\u2014He\u2019s testing me. He gave me a dose of good and a dose of bad. And then, he is mixing it all up, leaving me confused. I think that no one can explain that\u2014and neither can I. I can only try.<\/p>\n

It’s not that you didn’t love me or that you don’t love me\u2014it\u2019s just that you have no idea how to love me. That is the biggest problem. That is the reason why I’m with you even today because I have faith you will learn how to.<\/p>\n

It’s easy to leave someone who is causing you pain\u2014someone who is doing it on purpose. You are not like that. I think that you have no idea that you’re toxic. This is yet another reason why I can’t leave you <\/a>perch\u00e9 credo di poter forzare la tossicit\u00e0 a uscire da te. Il problema \u00e8 che non ho idea di quanto queste cose negative mi stiano influenzando.<\/p>\n

Now that we are together and that we live together, there is no more running away from our problems. Now it’s time to play for the Big Leagues. Now, I have nowhere to go. I am forced to listen to your s**t and you are forced to listen to mine. We have to manage somehow or we are done and after we reach that point, there is no turning back.<\/p>\n

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\"Uomo<\/p>\n

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After being surrounded with your toxicity (which you are totally unaware of), I seriously think that I have become toxic as well. Maybe my love for you made me toxic\u2014I don’t know anymore. I’ve lost my ability to see what is wrong and what is right. The only thing I know is that I still love you.<\/p>\n

Vedi anche:<\/strong>\u00a0You Should Choose The Person You LOVE Every Single Day \u2013 Or LEAVE<\/a><\/p>\n

Each time we have an argument, I promise myself I won’t let this happen ever again. But then, somehow, we kiss and make up, and we start the vicious circle all over again\u2014only because I can’t help myself from loving you. It’s like I’m hooked on you. It’s like I need a dose of you every day. It\u2019s like you are my drug and visa-versa. Is it possible that we love each other that much that we are causing each other pain? I believe it is.<\/p>\n

I’m not pitying myself. I just can’t comprehend why am I doing this to myself. Is it out of fear? Am I too much of a coward to admit I have made a mistake with you? Or is it that I just like living this hot \u2018n\u2019cold life? Are you having the same doubts as I am?<\/p>\n

I want you to know that I really don’t blame you because we are in this together. We made all the choices together. All that is left is for us to fight to make it. Also, I want you to know that I understand you are what you are and I should have known that from the start.<\/p>\n

I also admit that I am not an easy person to live with. I have my quirks and I have my crazy outbursts. But, don’t we all? You need to learn how to handle me and I need to learn how to handle you and we won’t be toxic. We need to learn how to compromise\u2014and that is a never-ending battle, but I believe we will come out as winners.<\/p>\n

Please, I’m begging you, if you ever read this, find yourself in my words and most importantly, find me. Find your strength to fight your toxic side because I know there is a lot of good hiding deep inside of you. I know it because I’ve seen it. Spare me from leading this toxic life\u2014spare yourself from being toxic. You’re better than that.<\/p>\n

Then, my love for you won’t go to waste; then we can finally be happy as I know we deserve to be.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I remember the first time we met. I didn’t like you so much. I thought you were weird because you were quiet. I didn’t like people who were quiet because I didn’t trust them. I thought to myself: \u201c Why the hell do you need to be so mysterious?\u201d Maybe I should have listened to…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":3261,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3260","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/StockSnap_FANV4J04RX.jpg",800,512,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3260","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3260"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3260\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/3261"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3260"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3260"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3260"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}