{"id":32672,"date":"2019-02-13T08:12:09","date_gmt":"2019-02-13T08:12:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=32672"},"modified":"2022-02-27T13:44:02","modified_gmt":"2022-02-27T13:44:02","slug":"mi-hai-spinto-via-ma-sono-atterrato-sui-miei-piedi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/mi-hai-spinto-via-ma-sono-atterrato-sui-miei-piedi\/","title":{"rendered":"Mi hai spinto via ma sono atterrato sui miei piedi"},"content":{"rendered":"

I should\u2019ve seen through your crap a long, long time ago\u2026 but in a way, I\u2019m kind of glad I didn\u2019t. Because if I had, my life at this very moment would not be the same.<\/em><\/p>\n

Let\u2019s rewind.<\/b><\/p>\n

Meeting you for the first time truly took my breath away\u2026 You were the most charming man I had ever met\u2026 and you looked so good that I wanted to do you there and then, I can\u2019t even lie. You were a walking dream.<\/p>\n

Naturally, I wasn\u2019t immune to your charm or your sweet, sweet lies (unbeknownst to me at the time) so it really didn\u2019t take me long di innamorarsi di te<\/span><\/a> interamente.<\/p>\n

Prima che riuscissi a capacitarmene, eri parte integrante della mia vita e mi sentivo cos\u00ec bene ad avere un uomo bello, spiritoso e affascinante. <\/i><\/b>al mio fianco<\/i><\/b><\/a>che tutti apparentemente rispettavano e che tutte le ragazze volevano avere. Ero infantilmente orgoglioso di essere stato quello che ti aveva afferrato per primo.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

It\u2019s so silly thinking about it now\u2026 but the instant lust I felt for you at the time completely blinded me and it literally weakened my ability to judge character.<\/p>\n

Ho sempre pensato che non sarei mai potuta essere quella ragazza che si innamorava di un parlatore senza peli sulla lingua<\/span><\/a> but there I was\u2026 completely smitten by a man whose touch made me shiver and whose words I believed blindly, like all common sense had vanished from my head.<\/p>\n

You knew the hold you had over me and you didn\u2019t hesitate to use it against me. You knew all you needed to do was tell me what I craved to hear and I was yours from head to toe.<\/p>\n

You knew that your touch made me incapable of thinking soundly\u2026 and that your presence made me weak. You pressed your lips on mine\u2026 and I felt it in my entire body. I was hooked on the way you made me feel.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

You took advantage of my feelings for you. You played with my mind like a toy and my body was your sanctuary that you were allowed in whenever you wanted it and I never complained. I let you play with me, because it made me feel so damn good\u2026 but what it also did was make me look like a complete fool.<\/p>\n

I was never the girl who would let animalistic infatuation take control of her life. I was never the girl who would fall for sweet nothings and who craved a man\u2019s presence to the point of feeling hollow without him.<\/p>\n

Ma l'incontro con te ha cambiato tutto. Ti ho fatto entrare nella mia testa e ho perso il controllo sulla mia vita. Finch\u00e9 mi hai voluto, mi hai avuto, ero tua.<\/p>\n

Finch\u00e9 un giorno hai deciso che ne avevi abbastanza.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

I guess you realized that you had used me in all the ways you possibly could and it was time for your next victim. So you just pushed me out of your life, like we never existed. Like I hadn\u2019t let you inside my mind and my body more times than I wish I had.<\/p>\n

I felt so used, betrayed and shamed… I felt like the biggest fool for letting you inside my life, subconsciously knowing it would never lead to anything good but giving in to lust and temptation.<\/p>\n

I felt like I wasn\u2019t myself anymore. I didn\u2019t recognize the girl in the mirror<\/a>. Come ho potuto andare contro il mio buon senso e dare a uno stronzo connivente accesso alla mia mente e al mio corpo? Come ho potuto essere cos\u00ec superficiale e debole?<\/p>\n

You vanished\u2026 and I all I was left with was pain and regret. And a promise that I would never, ever let myself be so blinded and fooled again.<\/p>\n

It was hell trying to get over you and learning to forgive myself. It was hell knowing I had to continue living my life with this shame\u2026 and finding ways to not resent you for being such a manipulative narcissist.<\/p>\n

Ma l'ho superato. Ho imparato a conviverci e alla fine ho capito che la colpa non era mia. Era lei e solo lei. Cos\u00ec, invece di provare questo perenne rimpianto, vergogna e senso di colpa, l'ho trasformato in qualcosa di positivo per me stessa.<\/p>\n

Ho trasformato questa brutta esperienza con te in una lezione preziosa.<\/p>\n

Non avrei mai conosciuto la mia forza e il mio potere se non ti avessi permesso di usarmi e di prendermi in giro. Ci vuole davvero un'esperienza di merda e dolorosa per rendersi conto di quanto si \u00e8 veramente forti ed \u00e8 proprio cos\u00ec che ho scelto di vederla.<\/p>\n

Now, I think twice before letting anyone close to me. Now, it takes a lot more than a hot body and empty words to win me over. And now, nobody has access to my body unless I can honestly say that there\u2019s a future there.<\/p>\n

You\u2019ve made me so much more careful and if it wasn\u2019t for you, who knows how long it would have taken me to realize what I know now.<\/p>\n

I wish I could see you one more time. But only to make you see that you didn\u2019t break me and you didn\u2019t destroy my faith in love. You didn\u2019t shake me and I\u2019m still standing.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

All you did was teach me a lesson I\u2019ll never forget.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t resent you anymore and I don\u2019t hate myself. That is such a waste of time.<\/p>\n

Invece, ho scelto di credere che ogni esperienza contenga una lezione preziosa e tu sei stata la mia. Nulla di pi\u00f9 e nulla di meno.<\/b><\/p>\n

\"Mi<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I should\u2019ve seen through your crap a long, long time ago\u2026 but in a way, I\u2019m kind of glad I didn\u2019t. Because if I had, my life at this very moment would not be the same. Let\u2019s rewind. Meeting you for the first time truly took my breath away\u2026 You were the most charming man…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":32673,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29618],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-32672","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-moving-on"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29618,"label":"moving on"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/02\/attractive.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29618,"name":"moving on","slug":"moving-on","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29618,"taxonomy":"category","description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","parent":38,"count":200,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29618,"category_count":200,"category_description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","cat_name":"moving on","category_nicename":"moving-on","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32672","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=32672"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32672\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/32673"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=32672"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=32672"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=32672"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}