{"id":3521,"date":"2017-08-14T12:57:12","date_gmt":"2017-08-14T12:57:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=3521"},"modified":"2021-08-12T13:13:38","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T13:13:38","slug":"lamore-non-dovrebbe-mai-essere-come","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/lamore-non-dovrebbe-mai-essere-come\/","title":{"rendered":"A colui che mi ha fatto capire che l'amore non dovrebbe MAI essere cos\u00ec"},"content":{"rendered":"

I never thought I\u2019d be talking to you ever again. I thought once I got far away from you, I\u2019d be saved, and that\u2019d be the last time we hear from each other, but life has its way of showing me I should switch up and start looking the bigger picture.<\/span><\/p>\n

I was thinking if I should introduce myself, but then it hit me that a predator always knows his pray, and I know you\u2019d recognize me no matter where. You\u2019d differ my \u2018handwriting\u2019 from somebody else’s everywhere because you know me perfectly well, don\u2019t you?<\/span><\/p>\n

You remember this insecure girl who needed somebody to love her because she wasn\u2019t strong enough to love herself? Yeah, I knew you\u2019d recognize me. <\/span><\/p>\n

There are things that I haven\u2019t told you and I have this skin-itching desire to give myself closure to our story. I need it so I can move on. I need it so I don\u2019t grant you the last word in what happened between us. <\/b><\/p>\n

I had no idea how weak I was, but you did. I was a perfect victim for your games and I was just the one you could manipulate,\u2014so naive and so pure-hearted it would be a sin not to use me and satisfy your narcissistic ego, right? Boy, I was such a good catch to you. <\/span><\/p>\n

Ho abbassato la guardia. <\/b><\/span><\/h1>\n

Perch\u00e9 I didn\u2019t know how to love myself<\/a>, I needed somebody else to love me instead. I needed to have somebody by my side because I had no idea how it feels to feel good about yourself. That was so wrong. Whenever something bad happened, I guessed I was the one to be blamed, I thought it was my fault. I always thought I was the guilty one\u2014what else is new? <\/span><\/p>\n

Ti ho fatto entrare. <\/b><\/span><\/h1>\n

You taught me it\u2019s not OK to let people in. <\/span><\/p>\n

I never trusted someone like I trusted you. I believed you\u2019ll be good to me and that you\u2019d never hurt me. When I showed you my deepest feelings, when I poured my heart out in the open, when I whispered my fears the quietest I could, you showed me I should\u2019ve kept them to myself. <\/span><\/p>\n

Sei tu che mi hai insegnato a non amare.<\/b><\/span><\/h1>\n

I thought you\u2019d taken care of me, but I survived every downfall alone. Every setback I had, you pretended you didn\u2019t see. But it made you feel good, didn\u2019t it\u2014to see me at my lowest? That\u2019s exactly where you needed me in order to feel better about yourself. <\/span><\/p>\n

I was drowning and I was hoping you would be the one to save me. You would have pulled my hand if you were one of the good guys. But you weren\u2019t. Now I know, you\u2019d stretch your hand towards the water but not to save me\u2014, it\u2019d be just to push me in deeper.<\/b><\/p>\n

Voglio che pensiate alla ragazza che avete usato nel momento in cui era pi\u00f9 vulnerabile. Voglio che pensiate alla ragazza che vi ha dato il suo amore senza ricevere nulla in cambio. Voglio che pensiate alla ragazza che ha ricevuto solo lividi al cuore dall'uomo di cui si fidava di pi\u00f9. <\/span><\/p>\n

Ora, voglio che pensiate alla ragazza che meritava di meglio.<\/span><\/p>\n

Voglio che pensiate alla ragazza che meritava di meglio che essere ignorata.<\/span><\/p>\n

Voglio che pensiate alla ragazza che meritava di meglio che essere manipolata.<\/span><\/p>\n

Voglio che tu pensi alla ragazza che meritava qualcuno migliore di te.<\/b><\/p>\n

Questa ragazza vuole ringraziarvi<\/b>. I am grateful to you for treating me like I didn\u2019t deserve a place in this world. I thank you for manipulating me, ignoring me, and playing me. I am grateful for each and every emotional beating you put me through. I want to thank you for not loving me. Because you made me love myself.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Quando non c'era nessun altro ad amarmi, mi sono affidato a me stesso. Quando non c'era nessun altro a salvarmi, mi sono salvato da solo. Quando non c'era nessuno a tirarmi su quando mi hai buttato a terra, mi sono tirato su da solo. Forse non l'hai voluto, ma sei tu che devo ringraziare per avermi reso cos\u00ec forte. <\/b><\/p>\n

I learned to walk alone in this world. I realized that the love I deserve was never gonna come from you. I learned I am good enough for somebody else. I don\u2019t need to be good for you\u2014I am good enough for myself. I deserve all the love in this world because that\u2019s all I was giving to others as well. I realized Mi meritavo qualcuno migliore di te<\/a> and that\u2019s what gave me the strength to leave you just when I thought I could never live without you. <\/span><\/p>\n

Lo sai,<\/span> Ora sono pronto.<\/b> I am the healthy soul that\u2019s finally ready to let somebody else in. That\u2019s why I gave myself permission to think of you again. I\u2019m doing it so I could say goodbye to you. <\/span>I realize it\u2019s not me that wasn\u2019t good enough for you, but it was you that wasn\u2019t good enough for me. <\/b><\/p>\n

Potreste pensare di conoscermi perfettamente, ma vi sbagliate di grosso. Ti sbagli su di me come io mi sbagliavo su di te all'inizio della storia. Eri la mia oscurit\u00e0 e ti ho lasciato andare. <\/span><\/p>\n

I am finally ready to move on and we\u2019re finally done. You won\u2019t recognize my scrittura a mano<\/em> anymore because it\u2019s a happy person that\u2019s writing from now on. It\u2019s this lucky person who learned to love herself and found somebody to give her the love she deserves.<\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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