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<\/p>\nDio,<\/p>\n
It\u2019s been a while.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s been much longer than I care to admit or that I want to admit. I remember the relationship we used to have. I remember how I trusted you and trusted you to guide me every step of the road I took.<\/p>\n
Ho sempre avuto fiducia in voi e questa fiducia mi ha sempre fatto andare avanti.<\/p>\n
My mom made us friends and she put in a lot of effort for us to feel close. She told me there isn\u2019t a thing in this world I can\u2019t tell her, but she convinced me that there isn\u2019t a thing I can hide for you.<\/p>\n
Quindi devi sapere quanto mi dispiace di aver preso le distanze da te.<\/p>\n
As you know, I was always the happiest kid in this world. If something didn\u2019t go in the direction I wanted it, I\u2019d just let it go.<\/p>\n
I didn\u2019t cry and I never got mad because I knew you have something better for me. And it turns out you did. Each and every time after a rain, I got to see the rainbow.<\/p>\n
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And that rainbow was a sign you\u2019re there and that you\u2019re watching my back.<\/p>\n
Suddenly, as I grew up, I stopped being your friend. I stopped confiding in you because it just wasn\u2019t cool anymore.<\/p>\n
Ho perso la speranza e ho iniziato a essere scontrosa e a odiare tutto ci\u00f2 che mi circonda.<\/p>\n
Ho iniziato a farmi prendere dal panico e a tenere le cose troppo strette, con la costante paura di rimanere senza.<\/p>\n
I forgot that mantra from my young age: If you don\u2019t get what you wanted, it\u2019s because there is something better awaiting you.<\/p>\n
La verit\u00e0 \u00e8 che, I\u2019m tired of being scared all the time<\/a>. I\u2019m tired of breaking myself down only because I\u2019m scared of everything, literally everything. I need you to be friends with me again.<\/p>\n Caro Dio, so di essere stato il pi\u00f9 coraggioso quando ho creduto di averti al mio fianco.<\/p>\n I believed there isn\u2019t a thing I can\u2019t live through because I\u2019ve been thrown into many burning fires and I walked out of them unburnt.<\/p>\n I know there is always somebody who\u2019s worse off than me. But in the times of my fear, I tend to forget this.<\/p>\n Continuo a rabbrividire ogni volta che mi trovo in una situazione in cui non mi sono mai trovato prima. Mi spavento per aver svoltato per sbaglio in una strada sbagliata o per aver detto qualcosa di sbagliato.<\/p>\n Ho paura di sbagliare, ma soprattutto ho paura di vivere.<\/p>\n I was a challenger, an explorer, a wanderer, and it all got lost when I lost my hope in you. Actually, I didn\u2019t lose hope in you. I remember giving up on you. And I remember exactly when that happened.<\/p>\n I was at an all-time low. I prayed my hardest and I believed you\u2019d get me out of there until I eventually stopped. I stopped praying and I stopped believing in you.<\/p>\n E ho fatto tutto quello che tu dicevi di non fare. Volevo che ti sentissi come mi sentivo io. Da solo. Ho continuato a vivere cos\u00ec per anni.<\/p>\n I lived thinking I don\u2019t have you by my side anymore. But I was wrong, wasn\u2019t I?<\/p>\n![\"giovane](\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/young-woman-sitting-by-the-river.jpg\")
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L'unica cosa che mi sono procurato sono questi pochi capelli grigi sulla testa per essermi preoccupato troppo.<\/p>\n![\"Una](\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/08\/An-Open-Letter-To-God_-Im-Tired-Of-Being-Scared-All-The-Time-pinterest.jpg\")
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