{"id":3862,"date":"2020-06-25T10:25:30","date_gmt":"2020-06-25T10:25:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=3862"},"modified":"2021-08-11T12:06:55","modified_gmt":"2021-08-11T12:06:55","slug":"mi-dispiace-non-lasciarmi-andare","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/mi-dispiace-non-lasciarmi-andare\/","title":{"rendered":"Mi dispiace di non averti lasciato andare"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Voglio liberarmi dal mio passato<\/a>, from my fears. I want to forgive myself for all the mistakes that have been done\u2014although none of them were mine.<\/p>\n

I want everyone to understand me when I say that I can\u2019t give myself to anyone completely.<\/p>\n

I want to admit I\u2019m not strong. I want to admit I\u2019m vulnerable. I want to admit that I\u2019m completely fine with that.<\/p>\n

Voglio continuare ad andare avanti e a lottare senza quelle catene di ferro avvolte intorno al mio cuore e alla mia mente.<\/p>\n

The least I can tell you is\u2026<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry I tried so hard.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry that I let so many things slide.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry that I forgave you the first time.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry that you forgave me.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry that I stayed for such a long time.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry that I didn\u2019t see what was at stake\u2014at least a bit earlier\u2026<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry that I let that toxic relationship have such an impact on me that I was unable to think or to get myself together for months.<\/p>\n

For so long, I\u2019ve been putting up with your frustrations and the fact you were unhappy with your life. And now, when I\u2019m finally free, I can\u2019t find the right path to walk on because of my own frustrations\u2014because you saw things that weren\u2019t there and because I\u2019m unable to trust anyone.<\/p>\n

Time is a b**ch. So much time has passed and it\u2019s going to pass\u2014but still, my wounds won\u2019t heal so easily. They won\u2019t heal because I, unfortunately, loved you.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry that you emotionally broke me. I\u2019m sorry that I started trusting every word you said.<\/p>\n

Ho iniziato a credere alle cose che dicevi di me, a ci\u00f2 che significavo per te e alla povera e debole sagoma di donna che ero per te.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry you said only the worst about me while I did the exact opposite.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry others bought your story. I\u2019m sorry I didn\u2019t do anything about it because I only wanted your friends to like me.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry you over-exaggerated every single one of our stories.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry I didn\u2019t let you run in the arms of another woman.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry that I didn\u2019t put up with your threats.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry I let you set boundaries.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry I didn\u2019t allow you to hide me and make me a prisoner in my own house.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry I didn\u2019t see that you were bad for me.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry that you found the strength to keep insulting me. Day after day, again and again\u2026<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry for letting your words hurt me.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry I was coming home beaten and tired.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry I didn\u2019t text you back right that second you texted me.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry I didn\u2019t answer the phone right that second you called me to check with whom and where I am.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry that it made you angry.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry that you yelled at me every day because I did something wrong. Something you thought was wrong. Something that didn\u2019t suit you.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry you didn\u2019t find what you were looking for.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry I made myself believe everything will go away\u2014that we\u2019re going through a rough patch.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry I let you treat me like that.<\/p>\n

I struggle every day. I fight with my own thoughts. I don\u2019t want to think of you and all the people I lost when I lost you.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m done lying to myself that everything is fine and that I\u2019m not hurting. And believe me, I am\u2014I\u2019m hurting hard.<\/p>\n

I guess all I wanted to say is that I\u2019m sorry I didn\u2019t realize earlier I\u2019m allowed to say \u2018NO\u2019 to you. I\u2019m allowed to walk away<\/a> da te e non guardarti mai indietro.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\"MI<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

  I want to break free from my past, from my fears. I want to forgive myself for all the mistakes that have been done\u2014although none of them were mine. I want everyone to understand me when I say that I can\u2019t give myself to anyone completely. I want to admit I\u2019m not strong. I…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":3863,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3862","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/dineslav-roydev-198714.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3862","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3862"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3862\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/3863"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3862"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3862"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3862"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}