Quindi, non dovrebbe sorprendere che l'uomo con cui ho scelto di passare il mio tempo fosse una persona completamente sbagliata per me. Qualcuno che mi ha fatto passare le pene dell'inferno per scuotermi nel profondo e farmi capire quanto poco pensassi di meritare.<\/p>\r\n
This man saw me at my weakest and decided to take advantage of a girl he knew wouldn\u2019t say no. He didn\u2019t do any physical harm \u2013 just to be clear \u2013 but his abuse was emotional, and it shattered me almost beyond repair.<\/p>\r\n
It sucks that I let anyone come so close to me when I was at my most fragile, but back then, I didn\u2019t know any better. I felt like any attention was better than none.<\/p>\r\n
I was switching from one shitty job to another, I was new in the city and had one friend. I wasn\u2019t on the best terms with my folks, and I didn\u2019t really have anyone to turn to.<\/p>\r\n
Cos\u00ec, quando questo ragazzo ci ha provato con me in un bar che frequentavo tutte le sere, ho sentito un barlume di speranza e una vocina dentro di me ha urlato dall'eccitazione cos\u00ec forte che era quasi come se fosse la prima volta che piacevo davvero a un ragazzo.<\/span><\/i>.<\/span><\/p>\r\n All'inizio sembrava a posto, cos\u00ec l'ho assecondato e abbiamo continuato a parlare per tutta la serata.<\/p>\r\n He was a regular at the bar, so I had no choice but to see him every night, and going on a date with him just felt like the smart thing to do. If I said no, I\u2019d just keep seeing him regardless and it would\u2019ve been so awkward\u2026 so I made myself like him.<\/p>\r\n Abbiamo iniziato a frequentarci. E con il tempo ha iniziato a piacermi davvero.<\/p>\r\n He was thoughtful, kind, and seemed to really care about me at first. And that hadn\u2019t happened in a long, long time, so I was slowly becoming more and more hooked on the feeling.<\/p>\r\n But what I didn\u2019t know was that it was his plan all along. He apparently had a habit of catching young, weak, and fragile women off guard, winning them over with his fake words. Once they were in his web, he\u2019d use them to feed his inflated ego.<\/p>\r\n Ho scoperto il suo modello di comportamento molto tempo dopo aver chiuso con lui, ma improvvisamente tutto ha avuto molto senso.<\/p>\r\n I was nothing but a punching bag to him. When he\u2019d feel like shit, he\u2019d use me to shift the blame on me and make himself feel better.<\/p>\r\n When he felt like it, he\u2019d just yell at me for no reason to get it all out of his system and then be on his best behaviour with his buddies.<\/p>\r\n Nessuno sapeva davvero come fosse a porte chiuse, tranne me e alcune delle sue precedenti fidanzate che si sono confidate con me e mi hanno raccontato le loro esperienze una volta che sono uscita dalla sua vita.<\/p>\r\n![\"A](\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/06\/shutterstock_1010958733.jpg\")
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