{"id":39901,"date":"2019-07-05T07:07:47","date_gmt":"2019-07-05T07:07:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=39901"},"modified":"2021-08-12T06:52:56","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T06:52:56","slug":"la-verita-e-che-non-sarai-mai-luomo-che-voglio-tu-sia","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/la-verita-e-che-non-sarai-mai-luomo-che-voglio-tu-sia\/","title":{"rendered":"La verit\u00e0 \u00e8 che non sarai mai l'uomo che voglio che tu sia"},"content":{"rendered":"

Volevo tanto che funzionasse. Volevo che tu fossi il mio \"per sempre felice e contento\".<\/span><\/a>Il mio migliore amico e l'uomo su cui posso contare. Volevo che mi guardassi come se fossi la cosa pi\u00f9 preziosa che hai nella vita.<\/p>\n

Volevo che tu impazzissi per me, che avessi bisogno di me come hai bisogno dell'aria nei polmoni. Avevo bisogno che mi mettessi al primo posto, che chiedessi la mia opinione e che mi ricordassi di tanto in tanto quanto sono brava.<\/p>\n

But none of that happened. I gave you my everything and you didn\u2019t reciprocate. You didn\u2019t even try; I was the one who was keeping us alive.<\/p>\n

You probably thought, \u201cWhy bother over someone who is already mine?\u201d Right?<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know if you ever loved me or just pretended to get things you wanted from me. If you were pretending, then I must say that you did it perfectly well. I never doubted anything you told me or did for me.<\/p>\n

You knew the perfect way to deceive me and get all that you wanted from me, while I was always at your disposal trying to satisfy you. I couldn\u2019t recognize that you were just taking advantage of me. I believed all that you told me; I believed that you love me and that you can\u2019t live without me.<\/p>\n

Ma in realt\u00e0 era il contrario. Potevi vivere senza di me perch\u00e9 non ho mai significato molto per te. Ero buono solo perch\u00e9 ti conoscevo cos\u00ec bene. Ero buono perch\u00e9 sapevo che tipo di caff\u00e8 ti piaceva, cosa mangiavi a colazione e come ti piaceva organizzare i tuoi vestiti nel guardaroba in modo da poter trovare facilmente quello che ti serve.<\/p>\n

You didn\u2019t need a lover. You needed a housekeeper. Someone to clean, iron, and cook. Then someone you could take to bed from time to time when you want it.<\/p>\n

Qualcuno che vi guardasse e ammirasse tutti i vostri successi commerciali. Avevate bisogno di qualcuno che obbedisse a tutto quello che dite e che rispettare la tua opinione<\/span><\/a> pi\u00f9 di quanto loro rispettino i loro.<\/p>\n

Avevi bisogno di una vittima che fosse tutto ci\u00f2 che avevi sempre desiderato, qualcuno che sacrificasse la propria vita e il proprio tempo per farti stare bene. E volevi che tutto questo accadesse in nome dell'amore.<\/p>\n

E sapete qual \u00e8 stata la cosa peggiore?<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

I accepted to be that woman. I accepted to put myself second, to obey all your rules, and to be the woman you would like. I changed so much just so you would like me more. I still don\u2019t know why I did it, but I finally know that you weren\u2019t worth it. No man is worth it, in fact.<\/p>\n

\"La<\/p>\n

And the one who is will never make you go through something like that. In trying to impress you, I lost myself completely. All my days were focused on you and on what you wanted. I didn\u2019t even care about myself because you were the one who was more important.<\/p>\n

I gave myself to a man who couldn\u2019t care less for me. I thought that I found real love, where in the end, it was everything but love. It was a period in my life that cost me my nerves, well-being, and peace.<\/p>\n

Non avrei mai pensato che una donna forte e indipendente come me si sarebbe innamorata di uno come te. Non avrei mai pensato che un uomo sarebbe stato in grado di ingannarmi e di farmi fare tutto quello che vuole. Non avrei mai pensato che avrei messo qualcun altro al primo posto. Ma tutte queste cose sono successe. E sono state peggiori di quanto avrei mai potuto immaginare. Ti ho amato come una pazza e alla fine ho finito per essere chiamata pazza da te.<\/p>\n

I wanted my peace so much, but you wouldn\u2019t have it, telling me that I was weird for wanting to be alone all the time. And the truth is that I didn\u2019t want to be alone, I just wanted to be saved from you.<\/p>\n

When you told me you don\u2019t like me spending time with my friends, at first I thought that it\u2019s just because you love me so much and kind of sweet for not wanting to share me with other people.<\/p>\n

Ma quando si \u00e8 trasformato in controllo ossessivo e gaslighting<\/span><\/a>, I knew I should do something about that. I couldn\u2019t lose my identity so easily. That should never happen. I couldn\u2019t let you take my life into your hands. And even though I gave you plenty of opportunities to change, that never happened. And it never will.<\/p>\n

That\u2019s why this time, I am giving up on everything. I am giving up on your fake love, on your empty words, and on your actions you never took to show me your love. Your pseudo-love is killing me and it is time to finally save myself.<\/p>\n

Staying with you will just hurt me more and I am already destroyed from all your lies and cheating. I am leaving because you never were, you aren\u2019t, and you never will be the man worthy of me.<\/p>\n

Spero solo che tutti questi anni passati con me siano serviti a qualcosa e che tu abbia imparato come non si tratta una donna. Spero anche che ti dispiaccia per tutto quello che mi hai fatto.<\/p>\n

And what\u2019s most important, I hope that one day, you will forgive yourself for all the torture you put me through. Because the truth is, I have no intention of doing that.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

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