{"id":46080,"date":"2019-11-01T15:52:07","date_gmt":"2019-11-01T15:52:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=46080"},"modified":"2021-08-11T10:08:14","modified_gmt":"2021-08-11T10:08:14","slug":"il-fatto-che-io-vada-avanti-non-significhera-mai-che-ti-ho-perdonato","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/il-fatto-che-io-vada-avanti-non-significhera-mai-che-ti-ho-perdonato\/","title":{"rendered":"Il fatto che io vada avanti non significher\u00e0 mai che ti ho perdonato"},"content":{"rendered":"

Quando mi hai lasciato per la prima volta, stranamente, non avevo alcuna speranza di essere di nuovo tua e di provare a ricostruire il nostro rapporto. <\/span><\/p>\n

Don\u2019t get me wrong, it doesn\u2019t mean I didn\u2019t miss you \u2013 it\u2019s just that you hurt me so badly that I never thought of giving you another chance, despite the fact that I <\/span>ti amava ancora<\/span><\/a>.<\/span><\/p>\n

Invece di spremermi le meningi su come riconquistarti, ho impiegato tutte le mie energie nel tentativo di superare il trauma che mi avevi causato e di superare il fatto che l'uomo a cui avevo dato tutto il mio cuore era pronto a farlo a pezzi senza battere ciglio. <\/span><\/p>\n

Mi sono concentrato sulla ricerca di un modo per smettere di amarti.<\/span><\/p>\n

A dire il vero, nel profondo, pensavo che non ce l'avrei mai fatta. <\/span><\/p>\n

Pensavo che non mi sarei mai liberato di questo folle miscuglio di amore, odio, nostalgia e repulsione che provavo ogni volta che mi passava per la testa. <\/span><\/p>\n

E francamente era praticamente sempre cos\u00ec.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ero convinta che non avrei mai potuto trovare la forza in me stessa per perdonarti per avermi schiacciato. <\/span><\/p>\n

Ero certa che non avrei mai potuto dimenticare tutto quello che mi avevi fatto e tutto il dolore che mi avevi causato.<\/span><\/p>\n

Tuttavia, dopo un po' di tempo, lentamente, mi sono accorta di essere andata avanti, senza nemmeno esserne consapevole. <\/span><\/p>\n

Ho notato che ero <\/span>soffrire e guarire allo stesso tempo<\/span><\/a>Un enorme progresso.<\/span><\/p>\n

Col tempo, passo dopo passo, hai smesso di esistere dentro di me. Contrariamente a tutte le mie aspettative, sei diventato parte del mio doloroso passato.<\/span><\/p>\n

\"donna<\/p>\n

So, I guess I was wrong. I don\u2019t know if I thought I loved you more than I actually did or if I considered myself emotionally weaker than I actually was, but the fact is that, somehow, I managed to stop loving you.<\/b><\/p>\n

However, I was definitely right about one thing: I never forgave you and I don\u2019t plan on doing so. <\/span><\/p>\n

I did move on, but that doesn\u2019t mean I forgot the hell you put me through.<\/span><\/p>\n

Luckily for me, I\u2019m no longer consumed by resentment and hate. <\/b><\/p>\n

However, just because I don\u2019t spend every second of my every day wishing for you to drop dead, doesn\u2019t mean I forgave you.<\/b><\/p>\n

Me getting over you doesn\u2019t mean that I suddenly got amnesia and all the issues and trauma you caused got magically erased. <\/span><\/p>\n

That\u2019s not to say that I managed to wipe out all the days I spent crying for you, all the sleepless nights I struggled to breathe, and all the moments I wanted to die.<\/span><\/p>\n

Il fatto che io <\/b>ha smesso di amare<\/b><\/a> you doesn\u2019t delete the fact that you changed the essence of my being for good. <\/b><\/p>\n

It doesn\u2019t annul the fact that you damaged me beyond repair and I can never be the same girl I was before you stormed through my life.<\/b><\/p>\n

It doesn\u2019t mean I would ever want you back or that I\u2019m okay with all the evil you brought me. <\/span><\/p>\n

It doesn\u2019t make your misdeeds acceptable nor you any less of a douchebag.<\/span><\/p>\n

\"donna<\/p>\n

Me moving on doesn\u2019t imply that I want all the best for you or I don\u2019t wish karma gives you what you deserve. <\/span><\/p>\n

It doesn\u2019t mean that you have my blessing to find your happily ever after and it certainly doesn\u2019t mean I wish you a long, prosperous existence.<\/span><\/p>\n

You see, me choosing to carry on with my life doesn\u2019t give you amnesty for all of your sins and it doesn\u2019t change the fact that you did me wrong. <\/span><\/p>\n

It just signifies that I was wise enough to realize that me remaining in one place, while you\u2019re out there living your life as if nothing\u2019s happened, would be the worst thing I could ever do.<\/span><\/p>\n

So, no, I don\u2019t want you to have a clear conscience. <\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t want you to think that you\u2019re entitled to a peaceful life, just because I found a way to put mine back together.<\/b><\/p>\n

Call me a bad person, but I hope that you\u2019ll spend the rest of your days haunted by each one of my tears. <\/span><\/p>\n

That you\u2019ll never stop regretting everything you made me go through. That you\u2019ll experience all the devastating pain you made me feel.<\/span><\/p>\n

Questo potrebbe farmi sembrare proprio come te, o anche peggio, ma <\/span>I hope that you\u2019ll never be able to forgive yourself<\/b> per avermi trattato in quel modo e avermi perso per sempre. <\/span><\/p>\n

I hope that guilt and remorse will follow you wherever you go, as long as you breathe, because it\u2019s the only way justice can be served.<\/b><\/p>\n

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When you first left me, strangely, I had no hopes of being yours again and no hopes of trying to rebuild our relationship. Don\u2019t get me wrong, it doesn\u2019t mean I didn\u2019t miss you \u2013 it\u2019s just that you hurt me so badly that I never thought of giving you another chance, despite the fact…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":46084,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29618],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-46080","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-moving-on"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29618,"label":"moving on"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/adult-beautiful-beauty-1130624.jpg",800,475,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29618,"name":"moving on","slug":"moving-on","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29618,"taxonomy":"category","description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","parent":38,"count":200,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29618,"category_count":200,"category_description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","cat_name":"moving on","category_nicename":"moving-on","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46080","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=46080"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46080\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/46084"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=46080"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=46080"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=46080"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}