{"id":49590,"date":"2019-12-11T16:13:48","date_gmt":"2019-12-11T16:13:48","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=49590"},"modified":"2022-03-01T23:35:34","modified_gmt":"2022-03-01T23:35:34","slug":"odio-il-fatto-che-voglio-sempre-mandarti-un-messaggio-a-dicembre","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/odio-il-fatto-che-voglio-sempre-mandarti-un-messaggio-a-dicembre\/","title":{"rendered":"Odio il fatto di volerti mandare sempre un messaggio a dicembre"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Sono caduta nella depressione da vacanza e non so come uscirne.<\/p>\n<p>Sento che dovresti essere al mio fianco, ma non ci sei.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>You haven\u2019t been a part of my life for a long long time, and though I am generally fine with all of it, there are days in which I miss you.<\/p>\n<p>Mi mancano noi e quello che avremmo potuto essere.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Mi manca averti vicino.<\/p>\n<p>Mi manca che tu mi avvolga nel tuo abbraccio.<\/p>\n<p>Mi mancano le nostre chiacchierate e il modo in cui mi tiravi i capelli dietro l'orecchio.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><b>I\u2019m not always this nostalgic.<\/b><\/p>\n<p><b> Credo che questo periodo dell'anno renda le cose cos\u00ec difficili. <\/b><\/p>\n<p><b>My life paused the moment you left me, but it didn\u2019t stop.<\/b><\/p>\n<p>In the beginning, I was broken so hard I thought I would never be fixed again. But as time went by, I decided I\u2019m not going to give up on myself.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-49603\" src=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/shutterstock_6646208711.jpg\" alt=\"donna con telefono in mano\" width=\"800\" height=\"534\" srcset=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/shutterstock_6646208711.jpg 800w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/shutterstock_6646208711-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/shutterstock_6646208711-768x513.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Da allora, la mia vita \u00e8 stata una piccola battaglia dopo l'altra, ma sono determinata a vincere la guerra.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>So, I got up every day, went to work, made plans, hung out with my family and friends, got dressed, and showed up where I was supposed to\u2014even when I didn\u2019t feel like it.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Immagino <a href=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/e-stato-incredibilmente-difficile-lasciarti-andare-ma-non-mi-hai-lasciato-altra-scelta\/\">non mi hai lasciato altra scelta<\/a>.<\/p>\n<p>O questo o passare l'intera giornata a letto a compiangermi.<\/p>\n<p>Nella mia mente, questa non era un'opzione, cos\u00ec ho lavorato su me stesso e sulla mia nuova vita senza di te.&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Ero distrutta, ma ho continuato a raccogliere i pezzi e a reincollarli.<\/p>\n<p>Avevo paura, ma andavo avanti.<\/p>\n<p>Ero cos\u00ec insicura di me stessa, ma ho ricostruito la mia fiducia da zero.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>I kept falling and getting up. I had (and still have) good days and bad days\u2014like<a href=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/che-lultimo-mese-del-2020-sia-il-colpo-di-scena-che-stavate-aspettando\/\"> in questi giorni di dicembre<\/a> quando mi manchi pi\u00f9 del solito.<\/p>\n<p>Ho avuto giorni in cui avevo voglia di arrendermi, ma non l'ho mai fatto.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-49604\" src=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/shutterstock_51966644231.jpg\" alt=\"donna seduta sul pavimento\" width=\"800\" height=\"534\" srcset=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/shutterstock_51966644231.jpg 800w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/shutterstock_51966644231-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/shutterstock_51966644231-768x513.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/p>\n<p><b>Questa \u00e8 stata la cosa che ha fatto la differenza: Non ho mai rinunciato a me stesso.&nbsp;<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Nonostante le lotte, il dolore e le ferite, ho continuato ad andare avanti e a ogni passo sono diventata pi\u00f9 forte, indipendente, amante di me stessa e pi\u00f9 sicura di me.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><b>You broke my heart, you disarmed me, but you didn\u2019t break my spirit.&nbsp;<\/b><\/p>\n<p>And though on these days I feel like texting you, I feel like reaching out\u2014I won\u2019t.<\/p>\n<p>Ora lo so meglio. Mi rispetto abbastanza.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><b>Odio sentirmi cos\u00ec. <\/b><\/p>\n<p><b>Odio che tu sia ancora nei miei pensieri, ma so che \u00e8 solo la tristezza delle vacanze e che la sensazione passer\u00e0.<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Merito qualcuno di meglio. Merito di essere amata e rispettata, e tu non hai mai saputo farlo.<\/p>\n<p>E anche se a volte ti rendo perfetto nella mia mente, la realt\u00e0 \u00e8 che eri ben lontano da questo.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-49606\" src=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/shutterstock_111535793911.jpg\" alt=\"donna preoccupata\" width=\"800\" height=\"534\" srcset=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/shutterstock_111535793911.jpg 800w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/shutterstock_111535793911-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/shutterstock_111535793911-768x513.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>You see, all those beautiful moments we shared that keep running through my mind can\u2019t make up for the fact that you broke me.<\/p>\n<p>They can\u2019t undo the damage you have done.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><b>That\u2019s why I will keep fighting those small battles. <\/b><\/p>\n<p><b>Mi alzer\u00f2, mi vestir\u00f2 e mi presenter\u00f2 a me stesso. <\/b><\/p>\n<p><b>Continuer\u00f2 a lavorare su questa nuova vita di cui sono gi\u00e0 orgogliosa.&nbsp;<\/b><\/p>\n<p>I will keep going one day at the time because I learned by now that healing takes time; it won\u2019t happen overnight.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m not in a rush. I have time to learn to be fully happy without you.<\/p>\n<p>Tuttavia, quest'anno ho un solo desiderio natalizio:<a href=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/cosa-spero-per-voi-nel-2019\/\"> Spero che<\/a> il prossimo dicembre.<\/p>\n<p>I won\u2019t feel the need to text you.<\/p>\n<p>I hope I won\u2019t miss you.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-large wp-image-49609\" src=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/organized-by-St.-Jude-Chapel178-724x1024.jpg\" alt=\"Odio il fatto di volerti mandare sempre un messaggio a dicembre \" width=\"724\" height=\"1024\" srcset=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/organized-by-St.-Jude-Chapel178-724x1024.jpg 724w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/organized-by-St.-Jude-Chapel178-212x300.jpg 212w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/organized-by-St.-Jude-Chapel178-768x1086.jpg 768w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/organized-by-St.-Jude-Chapel178-1086x1536.jpg 1086w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/organized-by-St.-Jude-Chapel178.jpg 1414w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 724px) 100vw, 724px\" \/><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019ve fallen into the holiday blues, and I don\u2019t know how to snap out of them. I feel like you should be by my side, but you are not here.&nbsp; You haven\u2019t been a part of my life for a long long time, and though I am generally fine with all of it, there are&#8230;<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":49602,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29617],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-49590","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-heartbreak"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29617,"label":"heartbreak"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/shutterstock_7351402542.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29617,"name":"heartbreak","slug":"heartbreak","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29617,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. 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