{"id":52641,"date":"2020-02-11T12:37:45","date_gmt":"2020-02-11T12:37:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=52641"},"modified":"2022-02-26T22:18:52","modified_gmt":"2022-02-26T22:18:52","slug":"mi-amo-di-piu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/mi-amo-di-piu\/","title":{"rendered":"Perdonami, ma io mi amo di pi\u00f9"},"content":{"rendered":"

Da piccola credevo nelle favole e guardavo tutte le commedie romantiche.<\/p>\n

Sognare il mio cavaliere dall'armatura splendente e che un giorno verr\u00e0 a salvarmi dalla mia orribile adolescenza. Oggi questo sembra essere un ritorno al passato.<\/p>\n

Ero una ragazza cos\u00ec intelligente, ma insicura, che cercava un ragazzo per colmare le mie insicurezze e rendermi felice.<\/p>\n

\"ragazza<\/p>\n

Growing up without a father, it took me years to become aware that I was looking for him in all my men and relationships. I always had a pattern, finding the ones that were not available, just like my daddy wasn’t available for me and my mom.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I met you and that was so typical of me. I broke every textbook rule for you. I saw from the start that you couldn’t show feelings; you couldn’t express yourself verbally, in that way or be a part of an adult conversation.<\/p>\n

Volevo salvarti per me, cos\u00ec ti ho spinto per anni a diventare ci\u00f2 che volevo da te. Ero cos\u00ec innamorato e avevo paura di perderti. Eri quel tipo di persona non disponibile fin dal primo giorno.<\/p>\n

But my ego and my pattern didn’t allow me to let you go. I should have, but instead I struggled in the battle that was already lost from the start.<\/p>\n

 \"la<\/p>\n

Mi chiedo spesso da dove provenga la mia distruttivit\u00e0, perch\u00e9 non mi permetta di prendermi cura di me per prima. Mi preoccupavo invece delle vostre preoccupazioni. Mi occupavo prima dei vostri problemi. E nel profondo, stavo soffrendo come mai prima d'ora nella mia vita.<\/p>\n

Today I realize that I was blaming myself for my parents\u2019 broken marriage and for the fact that I take the blame for everything that happened between them.<\/p>\n

Solo una ragazzina che doveva prendersi cura del padre, invece che lui della figlia.<\/p>\n

Boy, was I in denial, even though deep inside, I knew I was making a mistake with you. But it didn\u2019t seem like one at the beginning. Beginnings are usually the best form of denial.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\"uomo<\/p>\n

At the beginning, you are mad about each other \u2013 well, mostly, you are head over heels for him. Now, let\u2019s go back to the story of romantic comedies from the 90s.<\/p>\n

Years passed and I got so tired of making all the right choices for us. Asking you if you loved me, putting my needs aside because you have to come first in my life. And the funniest part is, you didn\u2019t even ask me to do all that.<\/p>\n

Per fortuna, sono stata abbastanza intelligente da prendere molto sul serio la mia istruzione, da spingere la mia carriera e le mie conoscenze, da espandere i miei orizzonti.<\/strong><\/p>\n

E questo mi ha portato qui, dove mi trovo oggi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\"donna<\/p>\n

Con i piedi ben saldi a terra e le mani in aria, cercando di conquistare il mio pezzo di paradiso. Mi ci sono voluti anni per lasciarti, ma attraverso questo processo ho finalmente raggiunto me stesso.<\/p>\n

I have started a new chapter of my life, loving myself more than anything or anyone else. And guess what? I\u2019ve let go of the past too.<\/p>\n

Loving my mom and dad, that was one thing, but holding on to their lives and the past didn\u2019t allow me to grab for my future.<\/p>\n

Ho solo una vita e se Posso amare me stesso<\/a> per me, allora non sono in grado di amare un uomo per se stesso.<\/p>\n

I do hope that this will be the next step of my lifelong journey. But I will not hurry to get to him. Like I did with you. I\u2019ve let you go and it was the best decision of my life.<\/p>\n

\"donna<\/p>\n

I can tell you one more beautiful thing \u2013 I didn\u2019t even suffer. I just gave myself the time to walk on the beach alone, eat chocolate, and read a good book.<\/p>\n

I put my phone away and didn\u2019t wait for your message. I decided that the only person I should wait for is me. And for the first time in my life, being alone felt good.<\/p>\n

In quel momento ho capito che lui verr\u00e0 da me e io non sentir\u00f2 il bisogno di cambiare nulla. Sar\u00e0 quello giusto per me e, finalmente, potr\u00f2 essere l'unica per lui.<\/p>\n

Ma prima, non importa quanto tempo mi ci sia voluto per arrivarci, dovevo essere l'unica e quella giusta per me.<\/p>\n

\"Perdonami,<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I used to believe in fairy tales while growing up and watching all those romantic comedies. Dreaming about my knight in shining armor and that one day he will come and save me from my horrible teenage years. Today this seems to be a blast from the past. I used to be such a clever,…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":22,"featured_media":52642,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29644],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-52641","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-self-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29644,"label":"self-love"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/02\/forgive-me-but-i-love-me-more.jpg",800,534,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tina Navarro","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tatiana\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29644,"name":"self-love","slug":"self-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29644,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","parent":29643,"count":290,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29644,"category_count":290,"category_description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","cat_name":"self-love","category_nicename":"self-love","category_parent":29643}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/52641","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/22"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=52641"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/52641\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/52642"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=52641"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=52641"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=52641"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}