{"id":7589,"date":"2019-05-27T10:14:47","date_gmt":"2019-05-27T10:14:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=7589"},"modified":"2022-02-27T12:50:56","modified_gmt":"2022-02-27T12:50:56","slug":"prometti-che-ti-manchera","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/prometti-che-ti-manchera\/","title":{"rendered":"Prometto che ti mancher\u00f2"},"content":{"rendered":"

Ho chiuso!<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\r\n

Ho smesso di cercare di farmi amare da te.<\/a> I am totally drained from all your excuses and bad treatment. I don\u2019t want to be a victim anymore. What I thought was that I was in love with the man of my dreams but it turned out that you were anything but that.<\/p>\r\n

Lei \u00e8 stato il mio abusatore. Eri il mio male necessario<\/a>. You broke me and I didn\u2019t know to tell you to stop. You continued with your game, on and on, never thinking about how I felt.<\/p>\r\n

And I felt devastated. I was so broken and lost in my own world of sorrow. I couldn\u2019t recognize myself in the mirror anymore. I was just a skeleton of the girl who was once cheerful and happy.<\/p>\r\n

Ora sono completamente diversa e tutto questo grazie a voi.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\r\n

Anche se ti ho lasciato da tempo, ti penso ancora. Penso a tutti quei bei giorni che abbiamo trascorso insieme e mi chiedo perch\u00e9 sia dovuta finire cos\u00ec. Perch\u00e9 sei cambiato in peggio? Perch\u00e9 hai dovuto trattarmi di merda, quando tutto quello che volevo era amarti?<\/p>\r\n

And then in all those memories that are swimming around my head, I forget where I am and I start crying. I don\u2019t see the people around me, looking at me all confused, and I just keep crying and asking myself what I did wrong.<\/p>\r\n

Ogni giorno ho in testa lo stesso scenario. Immagino di essere felice con te. Immagino che abbiamo una bella casa e dei bambini che giocano in giardino.<\/p>\r\n

Immagino che tu mi voglia bene e che mi ami.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\r\n

But then an ambulance horn brings me back to reality and I find myself sitting in my room and staring at a blank space. I feel like all my boats have sunk and that I will never be happy again. I feel that you broke me so hard that I will never be able to pick myself up. I feel all that and I cry myself to sleep. And when I wake up I don\u2019t want to spend that day the same as yesterday. I don\u2019t want to be a sad person anymore.<\/p>\r\n

I am just a girl who had bad luck in love but I know that doesn\u2019t mean that every single guy after you will be a dick. Next time, I will choose wisely and if I see even one characteristic in someone new that reminds me of you, I will leave him right away. Because I don\u2019t want the past to repeat itself. Un uomo tossico nella mia vita era sufficiente.<\/a><\/p>\r\n

E quando mi rimetter\u00f2 in sesto, sar\u00f2 di nuovo forte.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\r\n

\"Prometto<\/p>\r\n

I will be happy again and you won\u2019t be able to change that. Another man will hug me and kiss me like you used to but this time I won\u2019t have to leave him for him to realize my worth.<\/p>\r\n

Prometto ti mancher\u00f2<\/a>. I promise you will be crying just to try and bring me back. I promise that one day I will be everything that you want to have. But you won\u2019t have it. Because you don\u2019t deserve me. And I finally realize that now.<\/p>\r\n

You don\u2019t deserve me for a bunch of reasons.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\r\n

You don\u2019t deserve me because you are stupid for letting me go. And I don\u2019t want to spend my life with someone who can\u2019t decide what he wants. You don\u2019t deserve me because you have psychological issues and you need some professional help.<\/p>\r\n

You need to finally realize that you did a bad thing to your loved one and that was not the treatment she deserved. And most of all, you don\u2019t deserve me because you weren\u2019t able to give me the love I needed.<\/p>\r\n

Spero solo che la nostra relazione sia stata il tuo campanello d'allarme.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\r\n

Spero solo che tu abbia imparato come non trattare una donna che ami.<\/a> And I hope that once you forgive yourself, you will give yourself a second chance, because you can be sure that I won\u2019t!<\/p>\r\n

I will just let you \u2018enjoy\u2019 your pain. I will let you miss me like crazy. I will never pick up the phone when you call and I will never text you back. I want you to feel the same pain as me. I want you to have the same amount of sorrow in your soul.<\/p>\r\n

E spero che alla fine vi rendiate conto di che tipo di donna avevate accanto.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\r\n

I hope that your guilt will eat you alive. I hope that you will wake up at night screaming my name, but I won\u2019t be on the other side of your bed there to tell you that everything will be okay.<\/p>\r\n

You should have listened to me when I was leaving your house in tears, swearing to you that you would miss me one day. I remember you laughing, telling me that something like that wouldn\u2019t ever happen. So, I am asking you: \u201cWhy aren\u2019t you laughing now?\u201d Is it too much to laugh and cry at the same time? Just give it a shot; I did it many times and it is not as difficult as it seems.<\/p>\r\n

But the biggest difference between you and me is that I was the one who could bring you back, but unfortunately there\u2019s no chance of that now. All you can do is ask God to send you a woman like me, but don\u2019t think that she will love you like I did.<\/p>\r\n

Only one fool was willing to do that for you – the one you will miss every single day for the rest of your life!<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\r\n\r\n

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