{"id":8047,"date":"2019-05-06T14:35:38","date_gmt":"2019-05-06T14:35:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=8047"},"modified":"2021-08-12T08:01:13","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T08:01:13","slug":"sto-lentamente-iniziando-a-capire-che-non-me-ne-frega-piu-un-cazzo","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/sto-lentamente-iniziando-a-capire-che-non-me-ne-frega-piu-un-cazzo\/","title":{"rendered":"Sto lentamente iniziando a rendermi conto che non me ne frega pi\u00f9 un cazzo"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’m slowly starting to realize I shouldn’t think twice about the people who don\u2019t care about me. I won\u2019t go an extra mile for anyone who doesn\u2019t deserve it. Up until now, I did the opposite\u2014every time.<\/p>\r\n

Ho dato il mio tempo e il mio amore alle persone sbagliate. Quando i tempi erano duri per me e avevo bisogno del loro aiuto, tutto ci\u00f2 che ricevevo in cambio era solo rifiuto.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\r\n

I realized I shouldn\u2019t have wasted my time on one-sided love and unhealthy relazioni tossiche<\/a>. Quelle relazioni mi hanno distrutto. Le persone dall'altra parte di quella storia mi hanno usato e mi hanno gettato come uno straccio usato dopo aver finito.<\/p>\r\n

I\u2019m done making everyone a priority while I\u2019m in the second place all the time. Those people won\u2019t get another chance with me\u2014not anymore. I gave others all I\u2019ve got and now I\u2019m left with nothing. That is not the life I want for myself and I\u2019m slowly starting to realize that.<\/p>\r\n

I realized I want to be what I am and not what others want me to be. I want to break rules. I want to defy everything I don\u2019t accept as right. I want to break all those stupid rules someone made up so it could be easier on them. Well, it\u2019s not easier for me that way. I\u2019m going to do it my way.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\r\n

I want to show my feelings to the world and not conceal them like they are something I must be ashamed of. I want to show to the world that I have a strong and determined mind but a soft and loving heart. I don\u2019t want to hide behind my harsh exterior just because someone told me it\u2019s easier that way\u2014that I won\u2019t get hurt.<\/p>\r\n

Well, I want to be hurt. I want to make mistakes. I want to live through stupid relationships, silly mistakes. I want to make mistakes because otherwise, I will never learn from them. I would be ignorant of life and that\u2019s not me.<\/p>\r\n

I want to cry because I\u2019m sad and I want to smile because I\u2019m happy. I don\u2019t want to pretend I\u2019m something that I\u2019m not. I\u2019m slowly starting to realize I don\u2019t give a fuck for any of that stuff anymore.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\r\n

\"Sto<\/p>\r\n

I\u2019m done stressing over things that are not important to me. <\/a>I realized that I wasn\u2019t brought to this world to make all the wrongs into rights for other people\u2019s sakes. That isn\u2019t my mission. Every time I did that, somehow I got screwed over.
I\u2019ve realized I\u2019m not responsible for other people\u2019s lives. No one cares for mine, why should I care for others? The only thing I got from making others happy all the time\u2014and their lives as livable as possible\u2014was ignoring my own life.<\/p>\r\n

I\u2019ve decided I\u2019ll cut off anyone who makes me unhappy and dissatisfied. I know that won\u2019t be as easily done as said at the beginning, but I\u2019m sure I\u2019ll be getting a thank you note from my future self.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\r\n

I\u2019m slowly starting to realize I deserved everything I got. No one gave it to me for no particular reason. I worked hard my whole life and I\u2019ve tried to be the best version of myself. Now, I\u2019m starting to realize, without any fake modesty, that I succeeded in my plan.<\/p>\r\n

I\u2019ve realized that my opinion matters. I\u2019ve realized that I\u2019m not a lost and invisible face in the crowd. I\u2019m the one you will notice first.<\/p>\r\n

I know what I want to be. I know in which direction I want to go. There is literally no one who can make me go astray me from my path. I know how to work on my career and how to achieve things I\u2019ve dreamt of my whole life. I know I\u2019m not getting there overnight. It takes hard work and persistence to achieve all the things you want.<\/p>\r\n

I\u2019m slowly starting to realize I\u2019m surrounded by assholes. I\u2019m surrounded by people who don\u2019t care for anyone or anything. I want to be spared their poisoning me with their toxic thoughts and them saying that I\u2019m not good enough, that I can\u2019t make it.<\/p>\r\n

I\u2019m done lying and pretending that I\u2019m fine when I\u2019m not. I want to be my authentic self. If I\u2019m feeling like crap, I want to be able to feel like crap without anyone judging me. I want to be what I am.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\r\n

The most important thing I\u2019ve realized is that I have to limit my forgiveness because some people don\u2019t deserve to be forgiven, some people don\u2019t deserve to get a second chance. I\u2019ve realized I\u2019m allowed to be disappointed and I\u2019m allowed to write bitter texts like this one. I\u2019m allowed to lash out the pain or keep it inside. I\u2019m allowed to do whatever I think is right.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n

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