{"id":9257,"date":"2020-10-29T10:40:32","date_gmt":"2020-10-29T10:40:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=9257"},"modified":"2022-01-09T15:53:04","modified_gmt":"2022-01-09T15:53:04","slug":"odio-mi-allontano","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/odio-mi-allontano\/","title":{"rendered":"Odio chi sono con te, quindi mi allontano"},"content":{"rendered":"

To be honest, I really don\u2019t know why I stayed this long. Maybe it\u2019s because I want to believe you can change, maybe it\u2019s because I refuse to believe that you managed to change me this much. I refuse to accept that I let you ruin everything I worked so hard for. But you did.<\/p>\n

Come ho potuto permetterti di farmi questo? Mi hai costretto a proteggermi da te e dal resto del mondo. Non sono mai stata paura di essere feriti<\/a>Non ho mai avuto paura di avere il cuore spezzato. Ho amato e sono stata amata.<\/p>\n

Ma con te \u00e8 arrivata la paura di essere spezzata e tutti quei muri che il tuo silenzio ha costruito intorno a me. Mi hai escluso cos\u00ec tanto che ho dovuto costruirli per non essere ferito.<\/p>\n

But that\u2019s not how love works. That\u2019s not how a relationship works. I\u2019m not supposed to build walls, I\u2019m supposed to bring them down.<\/b><\/p>\n

Ma come potevo? Con le mie insicurezze che hai portato in superficie e i muri che avevi, come potevo rimanere sano di mente?<\/p>\n

E tutte quelle domande rimaste senza risposta? E tutte quelle volte in cui mi hai escluso e mi hai lasciato ai margini della nostra relazione?<\/p>\n

\"la<\/p>\n

Tutte quelle volte che sono stata solo una spettatrice, mentre avrei dovuto essere alla tua altezza.<\/b><\/p>\n

We weren\u2019t like this at the beginning. I sure as hell wasn\u2019t like this. I wasn\u2019t this scared, broken little girl who was trying to earn her man\u2019s love. I was strong, I was fierce and Meritavo di pi\u00f9<\/a> che essere amati a met\u00e0.<\/b><\/p>\n

I was much more than just your girlfriend and I miss that old me. I miss that old me who was never afraid, the old me who never ran away from love, but somehow you managed to break me while \u2018loving\u2019 me. I\u2019m sorry darling, but that\u2019s not love.<\/p>\n

Tutto quel silenzio che hai dato mi ha annegato e non ho mai imparato a nuotare negli oceani del tuo amore.<\/b> Credo che sia stata l'unica cosa giusta che ho fatto con te. Quella, e lasciarti.<\/p>\n

Perch\u00e9, vedi, mi rifiuto di essere come tutti gli altri tuoi ex. . Mi rifiuto di essere la vostra donna perfetta se questo significa perdere me stessa.<\/b> I refuse to be your little toy if that means you\u2019ll be playing with my emotions.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m done<\/a> running away from myself. I\u2019m done with looking at myself in the mirror and not recognizing the person I see. I deserve to be more than broken parts of my old self.<\/p>\n

\"una<\/p>\n

Merito quel tipo di amore che mi far\u00e0 sentire caldo, non mi brucer\u00e0 dentro. Merito di quel tipo di amore che mi rende completa, non mi spezza. Merito di quel tipo di amore che mi mette le ali, non mi fa annegare.<\/b><\/p>\n

Do you have any idea how long it has been since I smiled last? Do you have any idea how long it has been since the last time I was truly happy? Of course you don\u2019t.<\/p>\n

And I can\u2019t do this anymore. I love you, I do. And I know that, in your own way, you love me too. But I won\u2019t be with you at any cost. I won\u2019t be with you like this.<\/p>\n

I can\u2019t let you change everything that makes me me. <\/i> I refuse to change for someone who doesn\u2019t even see how much this hurts . Mi rifiuto di cambiare per te, perch\u00e9 tu non sei mai cambiato per me.  <\/b><\/p>\n

\"Odio<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

To be honest, I really don\u2019t know why I stayed this long. Maybe it\u2019s because I want to believe you can change, maybe it\u2019s because I refuse to believe that you managed to change me this much. I refuse to accept that I let you ruin everything I worked so hard for. But you did….<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":122794,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29618],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-9257","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-moving-on"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29618,"label":"moving on"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/I-Hate-Who-I-Am-With-You-So-Im-Walking-Away-1024x684.jpg",1024,684,true],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29618,"name":"moving on","slug":"moving-on","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29618,"taxonomy":"category","description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","parent":38,"count":200,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29618,"category_count":200,"category_description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","cat_name":"moving on","category_nicename":"moving-on","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9257","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=9257"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9257\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/122794"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=9257"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=9257"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=9257"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}