I don’t get attached anymore because I learned that people will leave me no matter how good I was to them. Sooner or later they will make a problem out of nothing and because of their pride, they will just cross me off the list of their friends. And I will end up in tears again, cursing my bad luck for not being able to be happy.
I don’t get attached anymore because I learned that sometimes it is better to let go of the toxic people. Because of them, I was putting myself last and that is something I don’t want to do anymore. This time, I want to put myself first because I deserve that. And the ones who enter my life need to prove to me that they are worthy of being there.
I don’t get attached anymore because I don’t want to be the only one who is attached. I don’t want a friendship or love where I will be the only one trying. I don’t want to be the only one making an effort for things to work. I want others to show me that they love me the way I am and that they want me to be a part of their lives.
I don’t get attached anymore because I suffered every time a person abandoned me. And that is something I don’t want to feel anymore. No matter how much I like something that someone does, I will never fully reveal my emotions. I will instead look like a cold-blooded bitch because nobody wants to hurt a person like that. Everybody thinks that she is too strong and that they can’t do any harm to her.
I don’t get attached anymore because I finally learned to move on. I don’t need people to complete me because I am enough for myself. They can just be a part of my life but I will never give myself all in. And it is not because I don’t want to but because I am too scared to get hurt again.
I don’t get attached anymore because I learned to feel good in my own skin. I don’t need people to make me happy because if I had to depend on them, I would always be sad. I learned that the only one who should run my life is me and that I can just listen to people’s suggestions but in the end do things my way.
I don’t get attached anymore because I don’t have any more tears to cry. Before this decision, I was a girl who blindly loved all people not even knowing that some of them wanted to do her harm. I thought that all people were good because I am like that. I couldn’t believe that someone could sit with you and drink coffee one day and the next day gossip about you behind your back. And every time that happened I would cry myself to sleep, asking myself why things like that happened to me when I never wanted something bad to happen to them. I kept asking myself if there were good people like me who just wanted to live and let others do the same. But unfortunately I never got an answer.
I don’t get attached anymore because I learned to love myself. I don’t need anyone to give me the love I deserve because I will give it to myself. That will be the best gift I ever gave to myself and I am very proud of that. This time, I truly feel that I am worthy and that I am enough.
I don’t get attached anymore because I finally realized that you cannot force love to stay. If it is destined, love will leave you, not because you don’t deserve that kind of love but because you deserve a better one. Now I know that I can’t have everything just because I want it but there are other people who have an effect on that. And I just hope that one day, heaven will bless me with the kind of love I crave so much—the one that feels like home.