I’ve never been someone who was afraid of her feelings. On the contrary, I was always a girl who was very well aware of her emotions and a girl who didn’t have any trouble verbalizing those emotions out loud. I was always someone who knew what she wanted and wasn’t afraid to get it.
And now—you are the one who I want. You are the one I like and the one I care about. I even think I am growing to love you. And that is something I don’t have trouble admitting to myself, telling you or shouting to the entire world.
You know me well enough that you could have concluded that I am not into playing mind games. Instead of playing hard to get or sending mixed signals, I like to keep everything out in the open. And that is exactly why I am telling you how much you mean to me and that is why I am about to tell you this that you will read…
You could say that I am being too picky when it comes to men but I have to tell you that I have some standards which I am not ready to lower for anyone. I have to tell you that I have some deal-breakers and that I am not willing to forget about them, as much as I like you.
It doesn’t mean I will allow you to treat me like shit just because I am crazy for you. Because I won’t. I deserve respect and that is something I expect to receive from my partner in all circumstances and at any cost. Don’t get me wrong—I don’t expect you to pamper me or to blindly agree with everything I have to say. I know that our relationship isn’t perfect and that it never will be but I expect you to respect me as a person and to respect my attitudes and opinions even if you don’t agree with me.
It doesn’t mean I will allow you not to appreciate me just because I care for you. Because I won’t. I don’t expect some special gratitude for the things I’ve been doing for you and for the sake of our relationship. But what I do expect is a little bit of appreciation for all of my sacrifices and efforts.
It doesn’t mean I am ready to be the only one putting all the effort into our relationship just because you mean a lot to me. Because I am not. I need you to understand that every relationship, including a romantic one, is a two-way street. That means that both parties involved in that relationship need to have the desire for things to work out. It means that we both need to try hard to make things work. It means that we both need to be ready to compromise and to meet each other halfway. Everything else is pointless.
It doesn’t mean that I will treat you as a priority while you treat me as one of your options. Because I won’t. Call me self-centered but I expect to be at the top of your priority list because you are always the first on mine. I don’t expect you not to have a life besides me but what I do expect is to have a place in your life.
It doesn’t mean that I am ready to settle for less just because I am growing to love you. Because I won’t. You may think that all of this is too much for you to handle. You may think that I am too much for you to handle and that you don’t need someone like this in your life. And you have the right to think that. But if you are thinking about doing something, if you think that I am someone you can’t imagine yourself being with and if you think about walking away from me, please do it right away, before it’s too late.
But if you think I am someone you can be with and if you think I am someone you want to have in your life, trust me that it will be worth it. Because I am someone who will give you everything back and more.