{"id":10739,"date":"2017-12-21T09:33:29","date_gmt":"2017-12-21T09:33:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=10739"},"modified":"2022-02-27T02:00:12","modified_gmt":"2022-02-27T02:00:12","slug":"destruido-agora-ver-prosperar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/destruido-agora-ver-prosperar\/","title":{"rendered":"Destru\u00edste-me, agora v\u00ea-me prosperar"},"content":{"rendered":"

Estive a olhar para p\u00e1ginas em branco durante horas.<\/a> Depois, as horas transformaram-se em dias.<\/p>\n

Os dias transformaram-se em semanas.<\/p>\n

Depois, finalmente, reuni for\u00e7as suficientes para me levantar e apercebi-me de que n\u00e3o me saiam palavras.<\/p>\n

No emotions are leaving my mind and heart. I\u2019m not ready yet.<\/p>\n

I wasn\u2019t ready to accept the truth. I wasn\u2019t ready to move on because the pain was pinning me down to the bed.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Estava a drenar a minha energia, a sugar-me a vida. Porque o que me fizeste, o que nos fizeste, foi para al\u00e9m da minha imagina\u00e7\u00e3o. E acredita em mim, como escritora, eu tenho uma grande imagina\u00e7\u00e3o.<\/p>\n

Nunca pensei que levantar-me da cama fosse o meu maior feito do dia. Nunca pensei que tomar o pequeno-almo\u00e7o fosse algo que tivesse de colocar na minha lista de tarefas.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I never thought I\u2019ll be that woman, broken and hopeless, locked up inside her own hell. But I was.<\/p>\n

Manh\u00e3 ap\u00f3s manh\u00e3, sair da cama tornou-se mais f\u00e1cil.<\/p>\n

Dia ap\u00f3s dia, a sa\u00edda do meu inferno estava cada vez mais pr\u00f3xima. Sentia-o a chegar. Sentia-me a regressar.<\/p>\n

Demorei meses a reconstruir o que tu partiste, mas consegui. Levei meses a preparar-me para finalmente sair e enfrentar a possibilidade de te ver na rua.<\/p>\n

It took me months to rebuild myself only to realize that I\u2019m over you. Levei meses a cuidar de mim para perceber que j\u00e1 n\u00e3o me importava contigo.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Fizeste-me sentir in\u00fatil.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Gozaste tanto comigo que nunca me apercebi que isso me estava a tirar partes de mim. Gozaste com o meu corpo, por isso comecei a odi\u00e1-lo.<\/p>\n

Gozaste com o meu sucesso, por isso I started believing that I\u2019m not good enough.<\/a> Gozaste com a minha mente, por isso acreditei que era est\u00fapido.<\/p>\n

Voc\u00ea made me feel like I\u2019m not enough<\/a>.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Tu namoriscavas com mulheres mais magras e mais elegantes, por isso comecei a passar fome e a comprar roupas novas para que tu namoriscasses comigo.<\/p>\n

You would leave me all alone while you were drinking at the bar. I thought I wasn\u2019t funny enough. I thought I wasn\u2019t interesting enough. I always thought I wasn\u2019t enough.<\/p>\n

Fizeste-me sentir inam\u00e1vel.<\/strong><\/p>\n

All those times when you would turn your head away, all those times when you would leave my bed not wanting to make love to me, all those times you preferred TV over me\u2014all those times I believed I was to blame.<\/p>\n

I believed I was unlovable\u2014how could you even love me? Boring, ugly, stupid me?<\/p>\n

Destruiu-me.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Destru\u00edste tudo aquilo por que trabalhei t\u00e3o arduamente. Tiraste-me a paix\u00e3o. Tiraste-me o amor. Tiraste-me tudo o que me fez ser como sou.<\/p>\n

Quando partiste, eu n\u00e3o era mais do que uma concha cheia de dor e l\u00e1grimas<\/a>. N\u00e3o havia qualquer vest\u00edgio do meu antigo eu.<\/p>\n

Destru\u00edram-me, agora vejam-me prosperar.<\/strong><\/p>\n

You made me feel worthless, but now I know my worth. Now I know that you were the lucky one to love me\u2014it was never the other way around.<\/p>\n

Now I know that I\u2019m smart, funny and hot. You made me feel like I\u2019m not enough, but I\u2019m more than enough. Maybe I was never perfect for you, but I\u2019m perfect for myself. I love my small boobs and stretch marks. I love my frizzy hair and sweatpants. I love my imperfect body perfectly.<\/p>\n

You broke me, but I\u2019m now stronger than ever. You beat me to an emotional death, but I rose up. You took away the words from my mind, but now I\u2019m writing goddamn novels.<\/strong> Destru\u00edram-me, agora vejam-me prosperar.<\/p>\n

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\"Destru\u00edste-me,<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I was staring at blank pages for hours. Then hours turned into days. Days turned into weeks. Then I finally gathered enough strength to get up and realize that no words are coming out of me. No emotions are leaving my mind and heart. I\u2019m not ready yet. I wasn\u2019t ready to accept the truth….<\/p>","protected":false},"author":22,"featured_media":10755,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29644],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-10739","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-self-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29644,"label":"self-love"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/image.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tina Navarro","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/tatiana\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29644,"name":"self-love","slug":"self-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29644,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","parent":29643,"count":290,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29644,"category_count":290,"category_description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","cat_name":"self-love","category_nicename":"self-love","category_parent":29643}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10739","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/22"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10739"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10739\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/10755"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10739"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10739"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10739"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}