{"id":11062,"date":"2017-12-27T09:20:09","date_gmt":"2017-12-27T09:20:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=11062"},"modified":"2022-02-23T11:19:23","modified_gmt":"2022-02-23T11:19:23","slug":"tenho-medo-amor","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/tenho-medo-amor\/","title":{"rendered":"Por tua causa, tenho medo de voltar a amar"},"content":{"rendered":"

Even the sky has another color for me now. After you left, it changed and it seems like it won’t be the same ever again. Just like me.<\/span><\/p>\n

Era como qualquer outra hist\u00f3ria protagonizada por um homem que estava mais apaixonado por si pr\u00f3prio do que por uma mulher.<\/span><\/p>\n

If you were wondering, yes, I’m talking about you.<\/span><\/p>\n

I know that I’m not at the right place to say this, but I’ve always thought that men were all the same. You need to be extremely lucky in order to find that one guy who will treat you the way you deserve. I guess I have never had that kind of luck.<\/span><\/p>\n

But, I’ll give you this much, you did make me feel special. In the beginning, you were always there for me, always buying me expensive gifts and in return, you would get all the attention you needed. It does sound silly, but that’s the only thing you actually needed, wasn’t it?<\/span><\/p>\n

I was so happy to finally meet someone who would put some effort into looking after me, because I was always the one who was running after others. I didn’t want you to think that I was needy but I did want you to take care of me when I didn’t know como tomar conta de mim pr\u00f3prio.<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n

It’s really not easy for me to remember all those things we went through. Probably because I don’t want to remember. It makes my heart break every time.<\/span><\/p>\n

\"Mulher<\/p>\n

You must know that I have been trying my best to recover from you. Not to forget you, as I don’t want to forget you. But I don’t want to feel this amount of pain every time I think of you. <\/span><\/p>\n

I want to think about the old me and how I’ve been transformed into someone smarter and stronger. But no. I always think about the things you said, the ways you made me feel insecure and all those times you tried to convince me that I was worthless. <\/span><\/p>\n

Those memories aren’t helping me to get over you. Not even in the slightest way.<\/span><\/p>\n

I guess you can’t remember anything. It’s not like I meant something to you. Can you even recall my voice? I can recall your voice, your touch, your smell. Everything. It’s like poison in my veins. Killing me softly.<\/span><\/p>\n

De alguma forma, posso at\u00e9 acreditar que te farias de parvo se te pedisse para me explicares porque \u00e9 que fizeste tudo aquilo que fizeste. <\/span><\/p>\n

Why did you make out with my friend knowing I would catch you? Why did you slap me every time I wouldn’t want to do something? Why was I so worthless to you?<\/span><\/p>\n

I guess those things don’t matter anymore.<\/span><\/p>\n

The flashbacks are still there, in the back of my head, if you were wondering. They are the true reason why I’m so com medo de amar de novo.<\/a> <\/span><\/p>\n

Lembram-me, a cada minuto de cada dia, que a pessoa que eu pensava ser o meu \u00fanico e verdadeiro amor era, na verdade, um grande cabr\u00e3o que n\u00e3o tinha nada melhor para fazer do que gozar com a \u00fanica mulher que sempre esteve l\u00e1 para ele. <\/span><\/p>\n

Esses flashbacks continuam a perguntar-me: o amor existe?<\/span><\/p>\n

Talvez at\u00e9 o fa\u00e7a, mas n\u00e3o estou preparado voltar a apaixonar-se<\/a>. Tenho medo das palavras, tenho medo do contacto f\u00edsico, tenho medo das emo\u00e7\u00f5es. <\/span><\/p>\n

All of those things made me go through so much pain that I don’t know how to trust anyone ever again.<\/span><\/p>\n

And it’s all because of you.<\/span><\/p>\n

Est\u00e1s arrependido? S\u00f3 um bocadinho?<\/span><\/p>\n

It’s not like it could change anything, but telling me that you’re sorry would mean that you have enough courage to apologize and it would mean that you’re not that big of an asshole.<\/span><\/p>\n

I<\/span>t would mean that I didn’t make that much of a mistake, just learned a lesson.<\/span><\/p>\n

I am so sorry for all the girls you’ll meet and seduce with your charm. I am sorry for all the girls who have experienced this as well. <\/span><\/p>\n

I would have never believed that love could hurt this much. It probably wasn’t even love. If it hurts, it’s not love.<\/span><\/p>\n

Talvez um dia eu encontre a for\u00e7a para sair e encontrar algu\u00e9m digno de amar e algu\u00e9m que pense em mim como algu\u00e9m digno de amor. <\/span><\/p>\n

Mas, por agora, estou demasiado quebrado para isso. <\/span>Quebraste-me ao ponto de n\u00e3o saber como me recompor.<\/b><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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