{"id":13268,"date":"2018-01-26T10:41:22","date_gmt":"2018-01-26T10:41:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=13268"},"modified":"2021-08-12T11:54:55","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T11:54:55","slug":"suficientemente-confiavel-para-destruir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/suficientemente-confiavel-para-destruir\/","title":{"rendered":"Confiei em ti o suficiente para te deixar destruir-me"},"content":{"rendered":"

Quero que imaginem uma rapariga destro\u00e7ada, sentada sozinha no seu quarto, a altas horas da noite. Imaginem as l\u00e1grimas a descerem-lhe pela cara, misturadas com o r\u00edmel. Imaginem o corpo dela com c\u00e3ibras sempre que tenta acalmar os seus solu\u00e7os.<\/p>\r\n

Agora imaginem a minha cara, porque essa rapariga era eu.<\/strong> Gostas do que v\u00eas? Est\u00e1s feliz agora que arruinaste-me<\/a>? Se querias destruir-me totalmente, podes estar orgulhoso de ti mesmo porque o conseguiste fazer.<\/p>\r\n

Tu sugaste de mim. Sugaste-me at\u00e9 \u00e0 exaust\u00e3o. Espancou-me at\u00e9 \u00e0 morte emocional. E depois passou para outra v\u00edtima.<\/p>\r\n

With you, I always felt that I wasn\u2019t good enough. And even though I knew I would never be truly happy with you, I was satisfied with the crumbs from your table. You were the person who could make me feel high in one second and the person who could make me fall to the ground in the next.<\/p>\r\n

Eras a pessoa com quem eu era mais feliz e que mais me fazia chorar. Mas algures no caminho, aprendi a viver assim. Pensei que s\u00f3 precisavas de algum tempo para perceberes que eu era suficientemente boa para ti.<\/p>\r\n

Fui paciente, esperando que esse momento chegasse, mas ele nunca chegou.<\/strong>
Then I realized that it wasn\u2019t me who was the one not good enough for you, but you weren\u2019t good enough for me.<\/p>\r\n

It is true that I suffered for a long time, trying to get back on my feet again but in the end, it paid off. I don\u2019t think that I am not worthy anymore because I know that I am. I don\u2019t listen to your toxic stories about your eternal love for me because I know that you never loved me.<\/p>\r\n

Culpo-me apenas por te ter dado tanto poder sobre mim para me poderes destruir.<\/strong> I gave you all my trust, thinking that you wouldn\u2019t take advantage of it. But you did. And that partiu-me o cora\u00e7\u00e3o.<\/a> But you know what? Even if I am a little bit broken, I will be someone\u2019s perfect woman. I tell that to myself every single day.<\/p>\r\n

Maybe I wouldn\u2019t know how strong I was if you hadn\u2019t broken me. Maybe I would never have admitted to myself that I am worthy and that I am more than enough. Maybe I would never seek someone who is better than you. But I am happy that I did.<\/p>\r\n

So, no matter how badly you want it, don\u2019t you dare ask me to come back into your life again.<\/strong> Quando desejares isso, lembra-te de todas as coisas m\u00e1s que me fizeste. Imagina quantas noites sem dormir passei a listar todos os teus textos de amor, onde me prometias o amor sobre o qual as pessoas escrevem livros.<\/p>\r\n

Imaginem que eu n\u00e3o comia porque o meu est\u00f4mago era como um buraco vazio que n\u00e3o deixava entrar comida por causa de todo o stress e ansiedade acumulados que causaram.<\/p>\r\n

Just think about how many times I would stand in front of the mirror hating my face and my body because you didn\u2019t like them, with me wishing that I was prettier and more attractive because then you would have stayed with me.<\/p>\r\n

Pensem em quantos colapsos silenciosos tive, sozinho, e a meter a cabe\u00e7a debaixo da almofada para que ningu\u00e9m me ouvisse.<\/strong> Pensa em todas as coisas pelas quais uma mulher com o cora\u00e7\u00e3o partido passa. E quando pensares em todas elas, pensa novamente se queres mesmo voltar para mim?<\/p>\r\n

Se mesmo a mais pequena parte do teu cora\u00e7\u00e3o tiver alguma compaix\u00e3o, vais simplesmente afastar-te e deixar-me ser feliz com outra pessoa. Vais admitir para ti mesmo que tiveste a tua oportunidade e que a desperdi\u00e7aste.<\/p>\r\n

E eu?<\/strong><\/p>\r\n

Vou portar-me bem. Vou juntar todos os peda\u00e7os do meu cora\u00e7\u00e3o despeda\u00e7ado e vou recompor-me. Sei que vai levar algum tempo, mas essa \u00e9 a \u00fanica forma de curar um cora\u00e7\u00e3o partido. E quando me recuperar completamente de ti, estarei pronta para amar algu\u00e9m novamente.<\/p>\r\n

Sei que o pr\u00f3ximo homem da minha vida ver\u00e1 todas as coisas boas que tu nunca pudeste ver. Sei que ele me vai dar o amor com que sonhei toda a minha vida. E sei que ele me vai perguntar como \u00e9 que eu pude alguma vez pensar que n\u00e3o sou suficientemente boa.<\/p>\r\n

Um dia, algu\u00e9m vai agradecer-te por me teres deixado ir.<\/strong><\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n

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I want you to imagine a broken girl sitting all alone in her room, late at night. Imagine tears coming down her face, mixed with her mascara. Imagine her body cramping every time she tries to calm down her sobbing. Now imagine my face, because that girl was me. Do you like what you see?…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":13280,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29617],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-13268","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-heartbreak"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29617,"label":"heartbreak"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/portrait-2218882_1920.jpg",800,522,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29617,"name":"heartbreak","slug":"heartbreak","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29617,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","parent":38,"count":146,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29617,"category_count":146,"category_description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","cat_name":"heartbreak","category_nicename":"heartbreak","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13268","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=13268"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13268\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/13280"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=13268"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=13268"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=13268"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}