{"id":13755,"date":"2019-12-02T13:38:46","date_gmt":"2019-12-02T13:38:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=13755"},"modified":"2021-08-12T13:30:00","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T13:30:00","slug":"so-lamento-ter-demorado-a-deixar-ir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/so-lamento-ter-demorado-a-deixar-ir\/","title":{"rendered":"S\u00f3 me arrependo de ter demorado tanto tempo a deixar-te ir"},"content":{"rendered":"

Admito-o! Dei-te todo o poder sobre mim, pensando que me irias amar tal como eu te amei. Pensei que eu era tudo o que procuravas e que, finalmente, irias acalmar-se<\/a> nos meus bra\u00e7os.<\/p>\n

Mas eu estava t\u00e3o enganado. E sabes qual foi a pior parte? No fundo, eu tinha uma sensa\u00e7\u00e3o estranha de que n\u00e3o eras o homem dos meus sonhos.<\/p>\n

Senti que estava l\u00e1 apenas por um curto per\u00edodo de tempo e que se ia embora quando encontrasse algu\u00e9m novo.<\/p>\n

Mas no mesmo momento em que me abra\u00e7avas pelas costas e cheiravas o meu cabelo, dizendo-me que me amavas, eu esquecia tudo o que tinha pensado antes.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I just told myself that I was probably overanalyzing things and that I shouldn\u2019t think about the bad things. I wanted to finally be happy so I just went with the flow.<\/p>\n

So our story began and even if I was happy, from time to time you would do things that bothered me. And over the years, there were so many things that I couldn\u2019t put up with anymore.<\/p>\n

Because every time I said that you hurt me, you promised that you wouldn\u2019t do that anymore and said that you were sorry. And me, totally blind in love, bought all your shit.<\/p>\n

Aguentei as tuas tretas durante tanto tempo, pensando que ias mudar por minha causa.<\/p>\n

I thought that you just needed more time to see how amazing I was and that you didn\u2019t have to seek out anyone else because I was a woman to love.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Mas apesar do facto de eu desejar tanto uma mudan\u00e7a, nada aconteceu. Continuava a ser a rapariga que ficava acordada toda a noite \u00e0 espera que chegasses a casa, sentada sozinha e a olhar pela janela.<\/p>\n

Os meus \u00fanicos amigos eram todas aquelas manh\u00e3s cinzentas em que eu esperava sozinha e com sono.<\/p>\n

Ainda queria que me perseguisse, que me mostrasse que eu era suficiente e digna e que me dissesse que era o homem mais feliz do mundo porque me tinha encontrado. Mas isso nunca aconteceu.<\/p>\n

Com cada palavra que sa\u00eda da tua boca, as minhas esperan\u00e7as de amor e de um futuro melhor afundavam-se. E, num momento, apercebi-me que esta hist\u00f3ria se repetia vezes sem conta e que j\u00e1 nada fazia sentido.<\/p>\n

E tu fingiste que estava tudo bem e eu fiquei a pensar no que poderia ter feito melhor. Mas agora, quero dizer-te uma coisa que te quis dizer durante todo este tempo.<\/p>\n

Foste tu que desperdi\u00e7aste esta oportunidade, foste tu que cometeste um erro e foste tu que estragaste tudo.<\/strong><\/p>\n

N\u00e3o sou eu, como estavas sempre a dizer. Eu sei que isto parece uma dura verdade vinda da minha boca, mas \u00e9 tudo o que te queria dizer.<\/p>\n

I know that you like it when things go your way and I also know that you don\u2019t like the person I transformed into. But you know what? This is the woman you made.<\/p>\n

A woman with so many scars and cracks on her heart but one who is still standing on her own two feet because she didn\u2019t let an asshole destroy her.<\/p>\n

Because of you, I am like this and I won\u2019t let you lead me on anymore. I just regret that it took me so long to let you go but it is better late than never.<\/p>\n

Now I understand that we weren\u2019t a perfect match and that I was always the one with a lot of sympathy and love for others while you were the one who cared about your needs only.<\/p>\n

Talvez n\u00e3o seja capaz de amar, talvez j\u00e1 tenha sido magoado antes e por isso tenha erguido muros emocionais \u00e0 sua volta, mas isso n\u00e3o \u00e9 raz\u00e3o suficiente para magoar outro ser humano, especialmente aquele que diz amar.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t want you to think that tu quebraste-me<\/a> so much that I won\u2019t be able to pick myself up again; you didn\u2019t. This letter is just something that I wanted to write for me.<\/p>\n

Quando o ler, terei a certeza de que fiz a coisa certa ao deixar-te ir. Por vezes, \u00e9 melhor lermos algo porque acreditamos mais num peda\u00e7o de papel do que na nossa pr\u00f3pria cabe\u00e7a.<\/p>\n

S\u00f3 espero que um dia te apercebas do que tinhas e do que perdeste. E espero que isso te magoe, tal como me magoou sempre que me negligenciaste.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t want you to be hurt more or less, but just to feel the same dose of pain that I felt.<\/strong> E acreditem em mim, ser\u00e1 o suficiente para vos partir o cora\u00e7\u00e3o.<\/p>\n

Nesse momento, vais perceber que perdeste a melhor coisa da tua vida e que me vais encontrar em todas as mulheres que conheceres depois de mim, mas nenhuma delas ter\u00e1 o mesmo brilho nos olhos.<\/p>\n

With these lines, I am finishing my story and once and for all telling myself that in fact, you don\u2019t matter to me at all anymore.<\/strong><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I admit it! I gave you all the power over me, thinking that you would love me just like I loved you. I thought that I was everything that you were looking for and that you would finally settle down in my arms. But I was so wrong. And you know what the worst part…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":13757,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29618],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-13755","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-moving-on"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29618,"label":"moving on"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/larm-rmah-49587.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29618,"name":"moving on","slug":"moving-on","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29618,"taxonomy":"category","description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","parent":38,"count":200,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29618,"category_count":200,"category_description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","cat_name":"moving on","category_nicename":"moving-on","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13755","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=13755"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13755\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/13757"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=13755"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=13755"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=13755"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}