{"id":14100,"date":"2019-04-08T08:03:40","date_gmt":"2019-04-08T08:03:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=14100"},"modified":"2021-08-12T08:22:35","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T08:22:35","slug":"nunca-deixou-nodoas-negras-corpo-coracao","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/nunca-deixou-nodoas-negras-corpo-coracao\/","title":{"rendered":"Nunca deixaste marcas no meu corpo, mas deixaste no meu cora\u00e7\u00e3o"},"content":{"rendered":"

I don\u2019t think that I could have ever imagined myself being broken by someone I was ready to spend my life with. You know, I believed that once you find your other half, that\u2019s it. Everything else falls into place and you\u2019re happy. You have struggles, you have battles to fight, but you\u2019re together and that\u2019s all that matters. You fight together, dream together and breathe together. That\u2019s what love is about, right?<\/p>\r\n

Mas a quest\u00e3o \u00e9 que eu nunca fui o teu verdadeiro amor. O que n\u00f3s tivemos nunca foi amor, para come\u00e7ar.<\/p>\r\n

Nunca me bateste, mas mesmo assim conseguiste magoar-me.<\/strong> Words hurt more than fists. The pain lingers on and on. It comes back and haunts you. Even when you\u2019re far away from the person that hurt you, the pain is still there. You still hear their voice echoing in your mind, screaming at you that you\u2019re not good enough. Screaming how much of a failure you are, how you will never make it on your own.<\/p>\r\n

Nunca me bateste, mas as tuas palavras eram mais afiadas do que qualquer faca, mais fortes do que qualquer punho.<\/strong> All those times you would make fun of my body, of my silly little mind, of my gentle heart; they\u2019re all engraved in my soul. They were weight that was pinning me to the ground, but now I wear them like badges of honor.<\/p>\r\n

Nunca me partiste nenhum dos ossos, mas conseguiste partir-me o esp\u00edrito.<\/strong> Estava sempre a dizer a mim pr\u00f3prio, \u2018He never hit you, this is not what you think it is.\u2019<\/em> I was trying to convince myself that what we had was not abuse\u2014it was just a rough patch on the road. How sad it was that I had to convince myself that you love me. How sad it was that I had to justify your behavior to the point where I no longer knew what was the truth.<\/p>\r\n

Sempre que pedia desculpa por algo de que me acusava, perdia uma parte de mim. Cada vez que calava a boca, os meus gritos de socorro ensurdeciam-me. Cada vez que obedecia aos teus desejos, os meus desapareciam. J\u00e1 n\u00e3o tinha esperan\u00e7a, j\u00e1 n\u00e3o acreditava e j\u00e1 n\u00e3o sonhava. Perdi tanto, mas continuava a acreditar que tinha tudo.<\/strong><\/p>\r\n

Nunca me magoaste o corpo, mas magoaste o meu cora\u00e7\u00e3o.<\/strong> What you did to me, how you treated me is indescribable. How your toxic love intoxicated me, how your greed took away pieces of me, not because you needed them, just because you could. How your manipulations made me think that this is what love looks like, only to find myself all alone once you\u2019d had enough. How hopeless I was once you left because I believed every single word you said to me. I believed that I was not enough and that I\u2019d never find anyone like you.<\/p>\r\n

God help me, right now that\u2019s all I\u2019m asking for. I never want to feel the way I felt with you. I never want to feel like an extra in my own movie. I never want to feel insignificant in my own relationship. I never want to feel lonely next to the person I love. Never again.<\/p>\r\n

Nunca usaste os punhos, mas as tuas palavras foram mais do que suficientes.<\/strong> Your words broke me from the inside. Body can heal, but the soul takes time and it takes love. It took me every single ounce of strength I had just to stand up. It took me years to undo the damage you\u2019ve done. It took me years to stop hearing your voice in my head, to stop seeing your smirking face behind me, whenever I look in the mirror; to stop seeing the person you wanted me to see and instead see me for who I really am.<\/p>\r\n

Because, I\u2019m not weak. I\u2019m not too much nor I\u2019m too little. I refuse to give in to your words once more. I refuse to let you bruise me anymore. Because, finally, I know who you are and I know who I am. You\u2019re just an insecure man who needs abuse to feel significant. And I\u2019m a hell of a warrior with her own survival story. And what a fierce story that is.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n

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I don\u2019t think that I could have ever imagined myself being broken by someone I was ready to spend my life with. You know, I believed that once you find your other half, that\u2019s it. Everything else falls into place and you\u2019re happy. You have struggles, you have battles to fight, but you\u2019re together and…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":14103,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29617],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-14100","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-heartbreak"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29617,"label":"heartbreak"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/thought-catalog-546041.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29617,"name":"heartbreak","slug":"heartbreak","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29617,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","parent":38,"count":146,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29617,"category_count":146,"category_description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","cat_name":"heartbreak","category_nicename":"heartbreak","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14100","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=14100"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14100\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/14103"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=14100"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=14100"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=14100"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}