{"id":14669,"date":"2020-08-16T09:59:27","date_gmt":"2020-08-16T09:59:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=14669"},"modified":"2022-03-02T00:00:38","modified_gmt":"2022-03-02T00:00:38","slug":"finalmente-deixar-ir-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/finalmente-deixar-ir-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Estou finalmente a deixar-te ir"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>What you and I had was strong and intense. I know most people think that their love story is different from anyone else\u2019s, but I really do believe that our romance was something special and unique.<\/p>\n<p>Desde o momento em que nos conhecemos, uma voz alta dentro de mim gritava que nunca ir\u00edamos resultar. Apesar de ser uma pessoa que acreditava sempre na sua intui\u00e7\u00e3o, desta vez decidi ignor\u00e1-la.<\/p>\n<p>As minhas emo\u00e7\u00f5es por ti eram mais fortes do que as minhas entranhas e eu tinha de estar contigo.<\/p>\n<p>Tentei lutar contra isso. Tentei lutar contra ti e contra esta paix\u00e3o louca que estava a sentir, mas uma for\u00e7a invis\u00edvel continuava a puxar-me para ti.<\/p>\n<p>In time, I had to accept the fact that I couldn\u2019t control myself around you and that I wasn\u2019t feeling only passion anymore\u2014it had become love.<\/p>\n<p>Although I hated you for the power you had over me, that was also the thing that attracted me to you the most\u2014the fact that you managed to change me.<\/p>\n<p>Sempre fui uma rapariga est\u00e1vel e calma e nada nem ningu\u00e9m conseguia abalar o meu mundo. At\u00e9 tu apareceres.<\/p>\n<p>Mudaste todos os meus princ\u00edpios e, contigo, tornei-me em tudo o que jurei que nunca me tornaria. Enquanto estive contigo, tudo era uma montanha-russa de emo\u00e7\u00f5es.<\/p>\n<p>Entre n\u00f3s os dois, tudo era extraordin\u00e1rio; quando te amava, esse amor consumia-me completamente e quando me fazias sofrer, essa dor devastava-me completamente.<\/p>\n<p>Sentia-me como se estivesse a perder o ju\u00edzo, como se fosse um fantoche das minhas pr\u00f3prias emo\u00e7\u00f5es e, quer gostasse ou n\u00e3o, eram as \u00fanicas coisas que me guiavam na vida.<\/p>\n<p>Fizeste-me sentir viva, como ningu\u00e9m antes de ti, mesmo quando sofria por tua causa e sobretudo nos nossos momentos felizes.<\/p>\n<p>Antes de me aperceber, <a href=\"https:\/\/thoughtcatalog.com\/abbey-adams\/2017\/05\/maybe-i-was-addicted-to-him-and-the-way-he-made-me-feel\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Eu era viciado em ti<\/a> in all ways possible\u2014emotionally, sexually and even physically.<\/p>\n<p>When you weren\u2019t around, besides being an emotional wreck, I was also feeling physical pain because of your absence and that was something I\u2019d never experienced before.<\/p>\n<p>Trouxeste ao de cima o melhor e o pior de mim ao mesmo tempo. Eras o \u00fanico homem capaz de me fazer sentir como uma menina inocente e, ao mesmo tempo, como a mais forte guerreira.<\/p>\n<p>Podias fazer-me sentir como se estivesse no topo do mundo ou como se estivesse a cair no abismo mais profundo. Ao mesmo tempo, eras a minha pior fraqueza e a minha maior for\u00e7a.<\/p>\n<p>E esse contraste foi o que me manteve convosco.<\/p>\n<p>Apesar de toda a dor que me causaste, tamb\u00e9m me proporcionaste alguns dos momentos mais bonitos da minha vida e, no fundo, ainda acredito que me amaste muito.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe you still do. You just didn\u2019t want to or didn\u2019t know how to show that the right way.<\/p>\n<p>All I know is that it wasn\u2019t enough for me.<\/p>\n<p>When you truly love someone, you don\u2019t give that person the crumbs of your love and attention\u2014you give them your whole self.<\/p>\n<p>E isso \u00e9 algo que nunca conseguiste fazer, apesar de todos os meus esfor\u00e7os. Enquanto eu me entreguei completamente a ti, tu mantiveste sempre uma pequena parte de ti escondida de todos, incluindo eu.<\/p>\n<p>E por muito que tentasse, nunca conseguia chegar a essa parte.<\/p>\n<p>Por muito perto que estivesses de mim, sentia sempre que havia uma dist\u00e2ncia entre n\u00f3s. E sempre que sentias que eu me estava a aproximar demasiado de ti, fugias ou afastavas-te de mim.<\/p>\n<p>Before I met you, I was a rock that couldn\u2019t be broken by anything or anyone\u2014or at least that was what I thought. But with your every departure, I became weaker and weaker.<\/p>\n<p>Passei os meus dias \u00e0 espera que voltasses e a aceitar as desculpas que nunca me deste.<\/p>\n<p>I never knew what was going on with you when you weren\u2019t around me. I never asked if you were seeing anyone else, not because I trusted you blindly, but because I was terrified of your answer.<\/p>\n<p>E embora fosse melhor n\u00e3o saber, isso era outra coisa que me estava a matar.<\/p>\n<p>No entanto, pensei que todas as minhas noites sem dormir e l\u00e1grimas eram dignas de que voltasses para mim.<\/p>\n<p>Mas, passado algum tempo, apercebi-me de que os meus momentos de solid\u00e3o dolorosa estavam a tornar-se mais longos e mais frequentes e que os nossos momentos comuns de felicidade se tornaram raridades.<\/p>\n<p>Da \u00faltima vez que voltaste, prometeste-me que finalmente ter\u00edamos uma vida feliz e calma.<\/p>\n<p>Prometeste-me que tinhas acabado com as tuas d\u00favidas e que tinhas a certeza de que eu era a pessoa certa. Fal\u00e1mos do nosso futuro.<\/p>\n<p>And everything seemed perfect for a while. But then you did it again. I don\u2019t know if you got scared of opening up too much to me or if you had found someone else. Actually, now that I think about it, it doesn\u2019t matter. The only thing that matters is that you have left me again.<\/p>\n<p>Only this time, something broke deep inside of me. If someone asked me why this time was different, I wouldn\u2019t know the answer. I guess I\u2019ve finally had it.<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019ve realized that I\u2019ve spent years waiting for you to leave me and waiting for you to come back. I\u2019ve spent years living your life, trying to fix your problems and trying to fix you.<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019ve spent years craving your complete love and<a href=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/cansado-de-implorar-por-atencao\/\"> a implorar a vossa aten\u00e7\u00e3o.<\/a><\/p>\n<p>Your final departure was the last nail in the coffin. I am out of time, energy and patience and I think I\u2019ve reached my personal emotional bottom. Although someone may think this is a bad thing, it actually isn\u2019t\u2014there is no way but up to go from down here.<\/p>\n<p>Ent\u00e3o, <a href=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/amor\/deu-oportunidades-merecidas-agora-estou-farto\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Estou farto<\/a>. I am not done because I\u2019ve decided it\u2019s time for me to stop fighting you, I\u2019m done because I\u2019ve decided it\u2019s time for my reasoning and heart to stop fighting.<\/p>\n<p>My emotions had their chance, but they brought me nowhere, so it\u2019s about time for my reasoning to prevail.<\/p>\n<p>I think this is the hardest thing I ever had to do, but I am finally letting you go. I am letting you go, even though I don\u2019t know if you even planned on coming back to me or not.<\/p>\n<p>Seja como for, j\u00e1 n\u00e3o tem algu\u00e9m que estar\u00e1 \u00e0 sua espera, aconte\u00e7a o que acontecer.<\/p>\n<p>And I am not saying this just to scare you and make you come back to me. I know you probably don\u2019t believe me, but I am really letting you go and with you, I am also letting go the person you made me become.<\/p>\n<p>Estou a livrar-me de tudo o que me faz lembrar de ti. Estou a deitar fora todas as nossas mem\u00f3rias. Estou a queimar todas as fotografias de n\u00f3s os dois a sorrir e estou a deitar fora todos os teus presentes.<\/p>\n<p>Not because these things don\u2019t mean anything to me, but because I could never move on with my life while stumbling on fragments of you.<\/p>\n<p>Acima de tudo, estou a deixar ir todos os meus sonhos e esperan\u00e7as ligados a ti. Estou a esquecer o futuro que pod\u00edamos ter tido juntos.<\/p>\n<p>Estou a abandonar a ideia de que alguma vez poder\u00e1s encontrar paz ao meu lado. Estou a abandonar a ideia de que n\u00f3s os dois somos almas g\u00e9meas que envelhecer\u00e3o juntos.<\/p>\n<p>E estou a deixar de lado a possibilidade de te salvar porque agora sei que preciso de me salvar primeiro. Eu quero mesmo ser feliz, sabes.<\/p>\n<p>E tudo o que fiz contigo e por ti foi porque ansiava por essa felicidade. Pensei que a podia ter contigo, mas agora sei que era imposs\u00edvel. E j\u00e1 era altura de eu aceitar isso.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/relationship\/13-razoes-pelas-quais-as-boas-raparigas-se-afastam\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Afastar-se<\/a> de ti \u00e9 algo que pensei que nunca iria conseguir fazer. Mas, ao mesmo tempo, \u00e9 algo que tenho de fazer se me quiser salvar.<\/p>\n<p>If I stay in this never-ending circle with you, I will break completely. And I will become just like you\u2014cold, distant and emotionally unavailable and that is the last thing I want.<\/p>\n<p>And I wouldn\u2019t have you to help me glue myself back together.<\/p>\n<p>Quero aprender a ser uma pessoa completa de novo, sem ti na minha vida. E quero tentar encontrar a felicidade com algu\u00e9m novo.<\/p>\n<p>You shouldn\u2019t think I am holding any grudges. Despite all the pain you\u2019ve caused me, I really do forgive you, because I know you just didn\u2019t know any better.<\/p>\n<p>E desejo-vos tudo de bom, do fundo do meu cora\u00e7\u00e3o.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>What you and I had was strong and intense. I know most people think that their love story is different from anyone else\u2019s, but I really do believe that our romance was something special and unique. From the moment we met, a loud voice inside of me was yelling that we would never work. 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