{"id":15441,"date":"2020-07-28T11:56:42","date_gmt":"2020-07-28T11:56:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=15441"},"modified":"2021-08-12T08:55:41","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T08:55:41","slug":"querer-primeiro-o-ultimo-tudo","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/querer-primeiro-o-ultimo-tudo\/","title":{"rendered":"Quero que sejas o meu primeiro, o meu \u00faltimo, o meu tudo"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Estou finalmente pronto para o conhecer. Finalmente resolvi tudo o que tinha para resolver. Olhei para os meus olhos de solid\u00e3o e enfrentei-a. Lutei. Sangrei e sobrevivi.<\/p>\n<p>Ele era respons\u00e1vel pela minha dor. Ele era uma pessoa de duas caras <a href=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/relationship\/guy-10-things-hes-serious-narcissist-disguise\/\">narcisista disfar\u00e7ado <\/a>que me enganou e me fez de parvo. Foi por causa dele que perdi a f\u00e9 nas pessoas, nos homens.<\/p>\n<p>My heart was wounded and my soul was hurt. I had no reason to live; I didn\u2019t want to live.<\/p>\n<p>My walls became my sanctuary. I thought as long as I stay in there, no one can hurt me. I\u2019m safe.<\/p>\n<p>A minha vida estava a passar na solid\u00e3o, no desespero, s\u00f3 porque ele decidiu <a href=\"https:\/\/www.hercampus.com\/love\/7-mind-games-he-plays-how-deal\" rel=\"noopener\">jogar um jogo<\/a> comigo. Ele estava aborrecido e eu era um \u00f3timo entretenimento at\u00e9 ele se aborrecer de novo.<\/p>\n<p>Then he tossed me away like a used pair of shoes. You know those \u2018shoes\u2019 he wanted so badly were once brand new. They were shining on a pedestal in a window shop.<\/p>\n<p>Everyone wanted them but couldn\u2019t afford them and no one could get them, except him.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-120465\" src=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/young-woman-walking-on-field.jpg\" alt=\"mulher jovem a caminhar no campo\" width=\"1600\" height=\"1068\" srcset=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/young-woman-walking-on-field.jpg 1600w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/young-woman-walking-on-field-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/young-woman-walking-on-field-1024x684.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/young-woman-walking-on-field-768x513.jpg 768w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/young-woman-walking-on-field-1536x1025.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/young-woman-walking-on-field-150x100.jpg 150w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/young-woman-walking-on-field-720x481.jpg 720w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/young-woman-walking-on-field-1280x854.jpg 1280w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1600px) 100vw, 1600px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Por isso, usava-os todos os dias que lhe apetecia. Arranhava-as; andava na lama; andava com elas quando chovia ou nevava.<\/p>\n<p>Sempre que ele precisava deles, eles estavam l\u00e1 para o ajudar. Nunca o desiludiram.<\/p>\n<p>E quando se cansou delas, deitou-as ao lixo sem remorsos, sem qualquer sentimento.<\/p>\n<p><b><i>Embora o meu esp\u00edrito estivesse quebrado, encontrei for\u00e7as para encontrar uma raz\u00e3o para continuar a viver. Decidi que ningu\u00e9m tem o direito de me dizer o que fazer. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><b><i>I decided I\u2019m the only creator of my happiness. I decided he doesn\u2019t matter. <\/i><\/b>E depois conheci-te.<\/p>\n<p>A partir desse momento, a minha vida passou a fazer sentido. Parece foleiro, eu sei, mas fez mesmo. Tudo era como era suposto ser.<\/p>\n<p>I was looking for flaws. I was looking for those dark traits I always read about, but\u2026no, I found none of them.<\/p>\n<p>I kept waiting for the moment when everything will fall apart, the moment when you\u2019ll show me your real face, but guess what?<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-120466\" src=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/couple-lying-together-on-carpet-at-living-room-floor.jpg\" alt=\"casal deitado na carpete do ch\u00e3o da sala de estar\" width=\"1600\" height=\"1068\" srcset=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/couple-lying-together-on-carpet-at-living-room-floor.jpg 1600w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/couple-lying-together-on-carpet-at-living-room-floor-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/couple-lying-together-on-carpet-at-living-room-floor-1024x684.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/couple-lying-together-on-carpet-at-living-room-floor-768x513.jpg 768w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/couple-lying-together-on-carpet-at-living-room-floor-1536x1025.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/couple-lying-together-on-carpet-at-living-room-floor-150x100.jpg 150w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/couple-lying-together-on-carpet-at-living-room-floor-720x481.jpg 720w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/couple-lying-together-on-carpet-at-living-room-floor-1280x854.jpg 1280w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1600px) 100vw, 1600px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Eu estava sempre a olhar para o teu verdadeiro eu, o teu belo verdadeiro eu.<\/p>\n<p><b><i>Eu sei que te quero dizer o quanto te amo. Quero dizer-te porque quero que sejas o meu primeiro, o meu \u00faltimo, o meu tudo.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Quero que sejas o meu \u00faltimo tudo <\/i><\/b>because I don\u2019t want to spend any more nights with no one else but you. I want to wake up to your adorable face.<\/p>\n<p>Quero sentir-te ao meu lado quando durmo.<\/p>\n<p>I want you to hug me and hold me in your arms when I have nightmares, when I sweat in horror when my past haunts me and I don\u2019t want to live anymore.<\/p>\n<p>Quero acordar a cent\u00edmetros da tua boca, sentir o teu h\u00e1lito quente no meu rosto.<\/p>\n<p><b><i>Quero que sejas o meu \u00faltimo tudo<\/i><\/b> porque mais ningu\u00e9m se diverte s\u00f3 para me fazer rir quando tenho um dia mau.<\/p>\n<p>Mais ningu\u00e9m me vai deitar no ch\u00e3o e fazer-me c\u00f3cegas at\u00e9 eu lhes pedir para pararem.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-120476\" src=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/stylish-young-couple-in-the-autumn-park.jpg\" alt=\"jovem casal elegante no parque de outono\" width=\"1600\" height=\"1068\" srcset=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/stylish-young-couple-in-the-autumn-park.jpg 1600w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/stylish-young-couple-in-the-autumn-park-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/stylish-young-couple-in-the-autumn-park-1024x684.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/stylish-young-couple-in-the-autumn-park-768x513.jpg 768w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/stylish-young-couple-in-the-autumn-park-1536x1025.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/stylish-young-couple-in-the-autumn-park-150x100.jpg 150w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/stylish-young-couple-in-the-autumn-park-720x481.jpg 720w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/stylish-young-couple-in-the-autumn-park-1280x854.jpg 1280w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1600px) 100vw, 1600px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Mais ningu\u00e9m far\u00e1 caras de parvo e vozes est\u00fapidas s\u00f3 para me animar. Mais ningu\u00e9m me far\u00e1 rir de piadas hilariantes e est\u00fapidas.<\/p>\n<p><b><i>Quero que sejas o meu \u00faltimo tudo<\/i><\/b> because I\u2019m always the one who laughs the loudest when you tell jokes.<\/p>\n<p>Por vezes nem sequer t\u00eam muita piada, mas t\u00eam piada para mim e ter\u00e3o sempre. Ningu\u00e9m tem o poder de me fazer<a href=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/life\/fazer-rir-a-rapariga-4-situacoes-funcionam-com-charme-evitar-grandes-desvios\/\"> rir<\/a> como tu.<\/p>\n<p><b><i>Quero que sejas o meu \u00faltimo tudo<\/i><\/b> porque ningu\u00e9m fala comigo quando estou a dormir. Nunca ningu\u00e9m fez isso; nunca ningu\u00e9m reparou que eu falo enquanto durmo.<\/p>\n<p>But, you did because every night we go to bed, you make sure that I fall asleep first. You watch over me, you make sure that I\u2019m safe.<\/p>\n<p>No one ever did that. No one knew I\u2019m a sleep talker, but you did. No one ever talked to me while I sleep, but you did.<\/p>\n<p><i>Quero que sejas o meu primeiro, o meu \u00faltimo, o meu tudo.&nbsp; <\/i>Quero que sejas o meu primeiro amor verdadeiro.<\/p>\n<p>Quero que sejas o \u00faltimo suspiro que dou. Quero que sejas o meu tudo.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-120549\" src=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/I-Want-You-To-Be-My-First-My-Last-My-Everything-pinterest.jpg\" alt=\"Quero que sejas o meu primeiro, o meu \u00faltimo, o meu tudo\" width=\"1000\" height=\"1500\" srcset=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/I-Want-You-To-Be-My-First-My-Last-My-Everything-pinterest.jpg 1000w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/I-Want-You-To-Be-My-First-My-Last-My-Everything-pinterest-200x300.jpg 200w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/I-Want-You-To-Be-My-First-My-Last-My-Everything-pinterest-683x1024.jpg 683w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/I-Want-You-To-Be-My-First-My-Last-My-Everything-pinterest-768x1152.jpg 768w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/I-Want-You-To-Be-My-First-My-Last-My-Everything-pinterest-150x225.jpg 150w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1000px) 100vw, 1000px\" \/><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019m finally ready to meet you. I finally solved everything I had to deal with. I stared into my loneliness eyes and I faced it. I fought. I bled and I survived. He was responsible for my pain. He was a two-faced narcissist in disguise who tricked me and made a fool out of me&#8230;.<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":120468,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15441","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/I-Want-You-To-Be-My-First-My-Last-My-Everything-1024x684.jpg",1024,684,true],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15441","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=15441"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15441\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/120468"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=15441"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=15441"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=15441"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}