{"id":16051,"date":"2018-03-09T07:59:23","date_gmt":"2018-03-09T07:59:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=16051"},"modified":"2022-02-26T22:50:07","modified_gmt":"2022-02-26T22:50:07","slug":"com-medo-de-sair-agora-tenho-medo-que-voltes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/com-medo-de-sair-agora-tenho-medo-que-voltes\/","title":{"rendered":"Eu tinha medo que tu me deixasses e agora tenho medo que voltes"},"content":{"rendered":"

Enquanto estivemos juntos, o meu maior receio era que te afastasses de mim e nada para al\u00e9m disto poderia ajudar a superar esse medo de abandono que sentia: Ultrapassar o medo do abandono e desfrutar das suas rela\u00e7\u00f5es<\/a><\/p>\n

Estavas sempre a deixar-me e a voltar para mim como querias. E eu estava sempre l\u00e1, esperando pacientemente por ti. Nunca soube porque fazias isto, mas com o tempo, aceitei-o como parte da nossa rela\u00e7\u00e3o. Aceitei-o como uma parte de quem tu eras.<\/p>\n

You were simply like that. I knew that you were free-spirited and that you couldn\u2019t stay in one place for too long. Even when you loved someone, you never allowed yourself to get too attached to that person. You were always afraid to open up to me completely. You always relied on yourself only and you acted like you didn\u2019t need anyone in your life, including me.<\/p>\n

But somehow, you kept coming back to me. And although I accepted this to be our relationship pattern, I was always terrified that one time you wouldn\u2019t come back. I was petrified that one of those times would be the last one.<\/p>\n

E, infelizmente, todos os meus receios tornaram-se realidade. Um dia, tu afastou-se de mim<\/a> sem qualquer aviso ou explica\u00e7\u00e3o. Mas eu tinha a certeza de que era apenas uma das tuas fases e esperei pacientemente que voltasses para mim, como sempre fizeste. E Carreguei no bot\u00e3o de pausa da minha vida<\/a>como sempre fiz.<\/p>\n

Mas os meses estavam a passar e you weren\u2019t coming back.<\/strong><\/p>\n

It was difficult for me to accept but I saw that you\u2019d seguiu em frente<\/a> com a tua vida, como se eu nunca tivesse feito parte dela. Estava determinado a afastar-se para sempre e a nunca olhar para tr\u00e1s.<\/p>\n

The following period was one of the hardest of my life. At first, I refused to accept that you weren\u2019t coming back. But when I couldn\u2019t lie to myself anymore, the truth hit me hard. I just couldn\u2019t accept that you had walked away from me like I never existed, like we never existed. You were the first thing on my mind after I woke up and the last thought before I went to sleep.<\/p>\n

But after some time, I finally realized some things. I accepted that you didn\u2019t have the slightest intention of coming back and for the first time, I was OK with that. It took me a lot of time, tears and patience but I came to the conclusion that I didn\u2019t need you in my life. I didn\u2019t need someone who would constantly leave me and I didn\u2019t want to be the one always waiting for you to come back.<\/p>\n

Eu precisava um homem de verdade<\/a> na minha vida, algu\u00e9m em quem eu pudesse confiar. Precisava de um homem que ficasse sempre ao meu lado, acontecesse o que acontecesse. Precisava de algu\u00e9m que me apoiasse em todos os momentos e n\u00e3o algu\u00e9m que se afastasse assim que as coisas ficassem dif\u00edceis.<\/p>\n

\"Precisava<\/p>\n

Eu precisava de um homem que fosse tudo o que tu n\u00e3o eras.<\/strong><\/p>\n

E isso fez-me compreender que, na verdade, tive sorte por te teres afastado de mim.<\/p>\n

Mas assim que viste que eu estava prestes a seguir em frente com a minha vida, come\u00e7aste a dar-me sinais contradit\u00f3rios e sinais de que n\u00e3o me ultrapassaste<\/a>. Your friends started telling me that you regretted everything you did to me and that you couldn\u2019t live without me. Wherever I\u2019d go, you would be right there. I kept getting drunk phone calls from you in the middle of the night, telling me that you missed me.<\/p>\n

And I wasn\u2019t indifferent. Although I thought I\u2019d completely moved on with my life, every time I\u2019d see you or hear your voice, it reminded me of everything. It reminded me of all the love I used to feel for you and of all the happy memories the two of us shared.<\/p>\n

Mas tamb\u00e9m me fez lembrar de toda a dor que me causaste.<\/strong> Lembrava-me de todas as noites em que adormeci com o telem\u00f3vel na m\u00e3o, toda aperaltada, \u00e0 espera que me ligasses. Lembrou-me de todas as vezes que te afastaste de mim sem qualquer explica\u00e7\u00e3o. Lembrava-me de todas as humilha\u00e7\u00f5es que me fizeste passar, de todas as l\u00e1grimas que chorei, \u00e0 espera que voltasses.<\/p>\n

E mais uma vez, tenho medo.<\/strong> Mas desta vez, n\u00e3o tenho medo que me deixes. Desta vez, estou petrificado que voltar\u00e1s<\/a>.<\/p>\n

E Tenho ainda mais medo de te aceitar de volta.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I am scared that only one look at you will make me want to forgive everything you did to me. I am scared that I will forget all the pain you put me through, the moment you smile at me. I am afraid I won\u2019t be able to stay strong for much longer and that I will fall into temptation.
\nE isso \u00e9 a \u00faltima coisa que quero para mim.<\/p>\n

Por isso, por favor, afasta-te de mim. Se n\u00e3o for por mim, ent\u00e3o por todo o amor que te dei. Isso \u00e9 o m\u00ednimo que eu mere\u00e7o.<\/p>\n

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While we were together, my biggest fear was that you would walk away from me and nothing besides this could help with that fear of abandonment I was feeling: Overcome fear of abandonment and enjoy your relationships You were constantly leaving me and coming back to me as you wished. And I was always there, waiting…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":16053,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29617],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16051","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-heartbreak"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29617,"label":"heartbreak"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/max-rovensky-562056-unsplash.jpg",800,531,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29617,"name":"heartbreak","slug":"heartbreak","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29617,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","parent":38,"count":146,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29617,"category_count":146,"category_description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","cat_name":"heartbreak","category_nicename":"heartbreak","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16051","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=16051"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16051\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/16053"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=16051"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=16051"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=16051"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}