Continuaste a empurrar-me para baixo para te dares uma desculpa para o teu comportamento rid\u00edculo, para o teu abuso.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\r\n Preferiste deitar-me abaixo sempre que cometias um erro, porque isso era sempre mais f\u00e1cil do que admitir que tamb\u00e9m n\u00e3o eras perfeito, como nenhum de n\u00f3s \u00e9.<\/p>\r\n You were just too much of a coward to accept it. It\u2019s impossible that such perfection as you are could ever make a mistake.<\/p>\r\n It\u2019s always someone else\u2019s fault and in our relationship, it was always me.<\/p>\r\n Mas eu sei que me invejava. Tinhas inveja de tudo o que eu fazia, especialmente das coisas que eu fazia melhor.<\/p>\r\n That\u2019s why you made me feel bad about myself, like I was not good enough, nor would I ever be.<\/p>\r\n You used every chance to try to take me down because you couldn\u2019t accept the fact that I was better than you.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\r\n Sadly for you, you saw our relationship as a competition and what\u2019s even sadder is that you were losing and you couldn\u2019t take it, so you made sure I paid the price for my \u2018success\u2019.<\/p>\r\n The saddest part of all was that it was never a competition but your sorry, narcissistic ass couldn\u2019t realize that you were simply incapable because you\u2019re in love with yourself and you could never love anyone else, not even close to how you love yourself.<\/p>\r\n You always blamed me for your every failure. You called me incapable, stupid. I can\u2019t even remember all the nasty words you called me because I forced myself to forget.<\/p>\r\n Mas lembro-me da for\u00e7a com que gritavas comigo, lembro-me que me fechava dentro de mim e rezava para que tudo acabasse.<\/p>\r\n Now I know it wasn\u2019t my fault. I could have never been guilty of your inability to control yourself, to restrain yourself from hurting others.<\/p>\r\n Gostou e isso deu-lhe um sentido de objetivo. Achavas que eras importante, que eras fant\u00e1stico.<\/p>\r\n Every time there was a problem, I failed to please you. I tried so hard to make you happy. I played by the rules, your rules, and I gave it my best, but even then that wasn\u2019t enough.<\/p>\r\n Querias sempre mais. Isso fez-me afundar cada vez mais no desespero e na depress\u00e3o.<\/p>\r\n No matter what I did, I couldn\u2019t make you satisfied. I was always one step behind.<\/p>\r\n It\u2019s like chasing something that is right in front of you and you see it but you know you\u2019ll never catch it and all your efforts are meaningless.<\/p>\r\n Comecei a odiar-me porque nada do que fazia era suficientemente bom e, ao longo do caminho, apercebi-me de que nunca nada seria suficientemente bom para ti. <\/strong><\/em><\/p>\r\n Pensava que o problema era eu, que eu era o problema, por isso comecei a odiar-me porque pensava que era incapaz de amar.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\r\n Quando come\u00e7\u00e1mos a discutir, eu sabia que o melhor que podia fazer era deixar-te contar tudo \u00e0 minha frente sem dizer uma palavra.<\/p>\r\n I knew it was easier to keep quiet and nod, making you think you were right. There was no point in arguing with you because you always had to win and I didn\u2019t stand a chance from the start.<\/p>\r\n Querias manipular e controlo<\/a> e conseguiste. Fizeste-me pensar que eu estava louca porque, de repente, viravas o jogo e fingias que estavas arrependida, s\u00f3 para me fazeres sentir mal.<\/p>\r\n De cada vez que fazias isto, eu pensava que tinha ganho a batalha, mas era apenas uma t\u00e1tica sorrateira para me culpar e conseguir que as coisas fossem feitas \u00e0 tua maneira. No final, sentia-me orgulhoso de mim pr\u00f3prio.<\/p>\r\n Mas esse orgulho depressa se desvaneceu quando comecei a perceber que estava a ser enganado.<\/p>\r\n Depois odiei-me ainda mais.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\r\n Sometimes you were even good and kind to me. You would do me a favor or you would surprise me by doing something nice that I didn\u2019t expect.<\/p>\r\n What I didn\u2019t know then is that all your kindness and nice gestures were calculated.<\/p>\r\n I didn\u2019t know that right from the start you were planning on using them against me the next time you needed to find a way to manipulate me.<\/p>\r\n
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