{"id":17245,"date":"2018-04-04T06:52:09","date_gmt":"2018-04-04T06:52:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=17245"},"modified":"2021-08-12T10:30:20","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T10:30:20","slug":"foste-um-pesadelo-do-qual-finalmente-acordei","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/foste-um-pesadelo-do-qual-finalmente-acordei\/","title":{"rendered":"O que \u00e9 que eu quero dizer?"},"content":{"rendered":"

When I look at things from today\u2019s point of view, I see that everything from the beginning was pointing to the disaster waiting to happen. You were a manipulative, idiota ego\u00edsta<\/a> e todos os sinais do seu comportamento t\u00f3xico estavam mesmo \u00e0 minha frente.<\/p>\n

Mas recusei-me a v\u00ea-los durante anos. Recusei-me a ouvir as pessoas que me amavam e que queriam o melhor para mim. E, acima de tudo, fui cego ao teu comportamento em rela\u00e7\u00e3o a mim.<\/p>\n

Desde o primeiro dia, agiste como se fosses algo que nunca foste. Apresentaste-te como o melhor homem, como algu\u00e9m que tornaria todos os meus sonhos realidade. Dizias-me tudo o que eu queria ouvir e, com o tempo, ca\u00ed nas tuas mentiras. Pensei que eras tudo o que eu procurava, pensei que eras a parte do puzzle que faltava. Embora nunca tenha acreditado no conceito de almas g\u00e9meas, convenceste-me de que as nossas almas andavam sempre \u00e0 procura uma da outra e que o nosso encontro era uma quest\u00e3o de f\u00e9.<\/p>\n

With time, I saw that you were becoming obsessed with me. But, I was foolish to believe that your jealousy was a sign of your love for me. I thought you were so in love with me that you were naturally terrified you\u2019d lose me. And although deep down I knew I wasn\u2019t doing anything wrong, you\u2019ve managed to convince me that I was too flirty or too noisy and that I had too many friends. I knew how much I loved you, but you\u2019ve always asking for proof of my love. And for you, the only proof enough was when things were your way.<\/p>\n

After a while, you\u2019ve become so controlling that I became scared to have a different opinion. I thought your way was the only right way. All of my friends and family were good for nothing and you were the only one who wanted the best for me.<\/p>\n

What I didn\u2019t realize was that you were not just manipulating me, you were also abusing me mentally and emotionally. And even when I had rare moments of clarity, I still loved you. Nothing else besides your love mattered to me. And I knew that you would walk away from me the moment I stood up to you.<\/p>\n

So, I\u2019ve started living my life by your rules. You convinced me that you made me a better person and that no other man would ever love me the way you loved me. And although I tried to fight it, I started believing it with time. I thought you would never do anything that would hurt me, without knowing that you were hurting me all along.<\/p>\n

Tudo isto durou at\u00e9 \u00e0 abuso f\u00edsico<\/a> started. That is when I finally had enough. I thought you could never do anything that would make me stop loving you, but when you started physically abusing me, all of a sudden, everything was clear. For the first time ever, I saw you for who you really were\u2014a toxic and a manipulative abuser.<\/p>\n

E eu j\u00e1 estava farta.
\nQuando me bateste, senti como se algu\u00e9m me tivesse acordado de um coma. Senti que tinha estado a dormir todos estes anos e que um milagre me tinha despertado.<\/p>\n

Apercebi-me que tinha estado a viver um pesadelo todos estes anos. Percebi que tinha estado a viver um filme de terror e que tu eras o meu monstro.<\/p>\n

E Fui-me embora<\/a> from you that instant. All of a sudden, I wasn\u2019t afraid anymore. I wasn\u2019t afraid of you doing something to me. I wasn\u2019t afraid of your emotional blackmail. I wasn\u2019t scared if you\u2019d do something to yourself. And most of all, I wasn\u2019t afraid of living my life without you.
\nPorque eu estava liberto. Estava finalmente livre da tua opress\u00e3o. Estava finalmente livre da jaula em que permiti que me pusesses.<\/p>\n

What I couldn\u2019t understand is how I allowed you to do everything you did to me. How come I didn\u2019t see your true colours sooner? How could I love someone who was destroying me for years? From this point of view, I can\u2019t recognize myself from the time I was with you. I was simply enchanted with you and you took complete control over my personality.<\/p>\n

And no, I don\u2019t miss you. I stopped loving you long ago. Sometimes, I wish you had never come into my life.<\/p>\n

Mas, em todas as outras vezes, estou grata. Estou grata porque me ensinaste de que tipo de homem me devo afastar. Mas, acima de tudo, mostraste-me o qu\u00e3o forte eu sou e o qu\u00e3o fraco tu \u00e9s. <\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

When I look at things from today\u2019s point of view, I see that everything from the beginning was pointing to the disaster waiting to happen. You were a manipulative, selfish asshole and all the signs of your toxic behaviour were right in front of me. But, I refused to see them for years. I refused…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":17246,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29618],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17245","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-moving-on"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29618,"label":"moving on"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/04\/pexels-photo-847483.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29618,"name":"moving on","slug":"moving-on","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29618,"taxonomy":"category","description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","parent":38,"count":200,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29618,"category_count":200,"category_description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","cat_name":"moving on","category_nicename":"moving-on","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17245","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=17245"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17245\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/17246"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=17245"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=17245"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=17245"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}