{"id":17557,"date":"2018-04-12T10:46:38","date_gmt":"2018-04-12T10:46:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=17557"},"modified":"2021-08-12T10:13:02","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T10:13:02","slug":"quando-partiste-fiquei-devastada-mas-agora-estou-aliviada","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/quando-partiste-fiquei-devastada-mas-agora-estou-aliviada\/","title":{"rendered":"Quando partiste, fiquei devastada, mas agora estou aliviada"},"content":{"rendered":"

When you left me, you brought to life one of my biggest fears. I didn\u2019t know what to do with my life, thinking it had come to its end. I had no purpose and no meaning left. I was completely consumed by this pain you caused me and <\/span>I couldn\u2019t move from the spot where you left me.<\/b><\/p>\n

Se algu\u00e9m, nessa altura, me tivesse perguntado qual era uma das coisas mais dolorosas de se viver, o desgosto de amor estaria sem d\u00favida no topo da minha lista.<\/span><\/p>\n

I felt like I couldn\u2019t breathe without you by my side. <\/span>A tua partida deixou-me de rastos de tantas maneiras. <\/b><\/p>\n

E isso magoou-me at\u00e9 aos ossos.<\/b> Pensei que nunca mais seria a mulher que costumava ser e que nunca recuperaria de toda a dor que me causaste.<\/span><\/p>\n

Tinha a certeza de que ia morrer.<\/b><\/p>\n

And then, with time, it got a lot easier. I don\u2019t know how it happened or when it happened but I just know <\/span>I woke up one morning without the feeling that my chest would burn out. I didn\u2019t have the feeling I would break into pieces every second and I could finally breathe properly.<\/b><\/p>\n

It didn\u2019t mean I was completely over you but it was definitely something. It was the beginning of my recovery. It was when I realized that time would heal my wounds and when I became determined that there would come a moment when I\u2019d be over you.<\/span><\/p>\n

E depois de muito tempo, esse momento finalmente chegou. Levei muito tempo e muita paci\u00eancia para chegar aqui, mas consegui. Posso finalmente dizer que sou <\/span>finalmente, verdadeiramente para al\u00e9m de ti<\/span><\/a>. I don\u2019t love you nor do I hate you<\/span>\u2014<\/span>Sou completamente indiferente.<\/span><\/p>\n

But what is even more important is that I feel like I\u2019ve gotten rid of this huge burden. When you first left me, I felt like the entire world\u2019s weight had fallen on my shoulders, and now I feel like I\u2019ve gotten rid of it. I feel relaxed, liberated and free.<\/b><\/p>\n

Sinto-me aliviado.<\/b><\/p>\n

And I am not only relieved because I surpassed the pain I was feeling all along. I never thought I\u2019d be the one to say it but I am relieved you are in not in my life anymore.<\/b><\/p>\n

Finalmente apercebi-me de como me trataste mal enquanto estivemos juntos. Finalmente percebi o quanto me influenciavas negativamente.<\/span><\/p>\n

Apercebi-me de que, na verdade, eu era seu prisioneiro. <\/span>Although you didn\u2019t keep me physically locked inside, you caged my mind and soul.<\/b> Os teus jogos mentais eram t\u00e3o fortes que senti mesmo que estavas dentro da minha cabe\u00e7a.<\/span><\/p>\n

I didn\u2019t know it back then but I see it now. <\/span>Vejo como era controlador e manipulador. Finalmente vejo a tua toxicidade.<\/b><\/p>\n

I see how you ruined years of my life and how you could\u2019ve ruined the rest of it, if you\u2019d stayed by my side.<\/span><\/p>\n

I see that I was actually afraid of you. I didn\u2019t <\/span>sobreviver a maus tratos f\u00edsicos<\/span><\/a> de ti, mas de alguma forma conseguiste fazer-me viver com medo. Independentemente do que eu fizesse, a tua poss\u00edvel rea\u00e7\u00e3o era o \u00fanico pensamento que me passava pela cabe\u00e7a. Agora, sei que nunca estive completamente relaxada enquanto estive contigo.<\/span><\/p>\n

And since you left, all of this stopped. Yes, you left me alone but that actually meant I didn\u2019t have anyone to judge every move I made, to constantly try to put me down and criticize me. I didn\u2019t have anyone to patronize me and to feed my insecurities. I didn\u2019t have anyone ruining my confidence and holding me back.<\/span><\/p>\n

Agora, sem ti ao meu lado,<\/span> Posso finalmente ser livre<\/b> and I don\u2019t have to be afraid of anything anymore.<\/span> Now that I\u2019ve finally gotten out of this mental cage you put me in<\/b>Posso tomar as minhas pr\u00f3prias decis\u00f5es, sem me preocupar com o que possam pensar delas. <\/span><\/p>\n

Posso finalmente desfrutar de cada respira\u00e7\u00e3o que fa\u00e7o e posso finalmente <\/b>viver a minha vida ao m\u00e1ximo<\/b><\/a>sem ser abusado emocionalmente, manipulado e chantageado.<\/b><\/p>\n

And that is the most liberating and relieving feeling there is. Even though I thought I\u2019d never say this<\/b>\u2014<\/b>Ainda bem que te foste embora.<\/b> <\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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