{"id":17588,"date":"2020-08-13T06:46:03","date_gmt":"2020-08-13T06:46:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=17588"},"modified":"2021-08-12T06:39:44","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T06:39:44","slug":"espero-que-o-facto-de-me-magoar-te-assombre-para-sempre","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/espero-que-o-facto-de-me-magoar-te-assombre-para-sempre\/","title":{"rendered":"Espero que o facto de me magoar te assombre para sempre"},"content":{"rendered":"

I\u2019ve never been a vengeful type of gal. Even when someone would hurt me, I would always try to inventar desculpas<\/a> para eles.<\/p>\n

Tentaria justific\u00e1-los aos meus pr\u00f3prios olhos e faria o meu melhor para os perdoar.<\/p>\n

When I think about it now, it didn\u2019t make me perfect. I don\u2019t know if I was doing it because of them or because it was easier for me that way.<\/p>\n

Forgiveness always felt liberating and it always helped me move on. I thought there was nothing I couldn\u2019t forgive after the right amount of time.<\/p>\n

At\u00e9 tu apareceres.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Mudaste muita coisa em mim. Influenciaste a minha vis\u00e3o do mundo, a minha opini\u00e3o sobre os homens e sobre as pessoas em geral. Distorceste a minha autoimagem e arruinaste a minha f\u00e9 no amor e na humanidade.<\/p>\n

But that is something I\u2019ve learned to live with. After a lot of hard work, I\u2019ve accepted this person you\u2019ve made me become.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve accepted the new me. But what I can\u2019t seem to accept is that you\u2019ve destroyed my ability to forgive.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\"mulher<\/p>\n

Porque o que me fizeste \u00e9 imperdo\u00e1vel.<\/strong> \u00c0s vezes penso que estavas numa miss\u00e3o para me destruir desde o momento em que nos conhecemos.<\/p>\n

I will never know what made you cause me this much pain but that is not important anymore. The fact is that you\u2019ve hurt me to the bones.<\/p>\n

You\u2019ve wounded and scarred me for life. And you didn\u2019t do this just when you left me.<\/p>\n

Toda a nossa rela\u00e7\u00e3o foi um inferno para mim. Claro que tamb\u00e9m houve momentos felizes. E eu continuei a agarrar-me a esses momentos felizes.<\/p>\n

Foram elas que me fizeram ficar ao teu lado durante anos. Mas todas as coisas m\u00e1s que me fizeste anularam tudo de bom que me fizeste.<\/p>\n

Agora, s\u00f3 me lembro das coisas horr\u00edveis.<\/p>\n

S\u00f3 me lembro da dor, da humilha\u00e7\u00e3o, das l\u00e1grimas. Lembro-me de pensar que estava a enlouquecer. Lembro-me da forma como me manipulaste.<\/p>\n

Lembro-me dos teus ci\u00fames e do teu comportamento possessivo. Lembro-me de me controlares. Lembro-me de pedires tudo e n\u00e3o dares nada em troca.<\/p>\n

\"mulher<\/p>\n

I remember all the sleepless nights I spent praying you\u2019d change. I remember all the abuso emocional<\/a> you were putting me through and all the mornings I wished I hadn\u2019t woken up.<\/p>\n

Lembro-me de como me sentia desamparado e sem esperan\u00e7a. Lembro-me de como n\u00e3o via qualquer sa\u00edda para ti.<\/p>\n

E, acima de tudo, lembro-me que foste tu que te afastaste depois de tudo o que me fizeste.<\/p>\n

Lembro-me de como queria que voltasses, embora soubesse que me destruirias completamente se o fizesses.<\/p>\n

I remember how I felt used and unwanted, how I was drained and exhausted from all the pain you\u2019ve caused me.<\/p>\n

How I felt I would never be good enough for any man because I obviously wasn\u2019t good enough for you whom I had given everything I had.<\/p>\n

Lembro-me de como estava destro\u00e7ado e de como pensava que j\u00e1 n\u00e3o tinha raz\u00e3o para viver. Lembro-me do desespero que via nos meus olhos sempre que me olhava ao espelho.<\/p>\n

Although I am way better now, you\u2019ve left a stamp on my mind and soul.<\/p>\n

\"jovem<\/p>\n

And that is why I don\u2019t want you to live your life as if nothing has happened, as if you hadn\u2019t caused me any harm. <\/strong><\/p>\n

That is why I don\u2019t want you to be guilt-free and to ever be peaceful. And that is why you can\u2019t have my forgiveness.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I am sorry, but I can\u2019t be the bigger man and wish you all the best. I don\u2019t want you to live felizes para sempre.<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n

Em vez disso, quero que sejas consumido pela culpa enquanto eu for consumido por esta dor e desespero.<\/p>\n

Quero que passes por tudo o que me fizeste passar e quero que sintas tudo o que senti por tua causa.<\/p>\n

Mesmo quando estiveres feliz, espero que exista uma voz na tua cabe\u00e7a que te lembre de tudo o que me fizeste. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Mesmo quando te esqueces de mim, gostava que acordasses a meio da noite consumido pela culpa, sem sequer saberes porque te sentes assim. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Mesmo que alguma vez mudes, quero que tenhas sempre em mente que existe uma mulher cuja vida destru\u00edste e quero que nunca sejas <\/strong>em paz consigo mesmo por causa disso.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Call me a bad or a vengeful person, but I hope I\u2019ll haunt you for as long as you breathe because that is the least you deserve.<\/p>\n

\"Espero
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