{"id":18447,"date":"2018-05-08T09:53:59","date_gmt":"2018-05-08T09:53:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=18447"},"modified":"2022-01-12T21:13:14","modified_gmt":"2022-01-12T21:13:14","slug":"foi-incrivelmente-dificil-deixar-te-ir-mas-nao-me-deixaste-outra-escolha","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/foi-incrivelmente-dificil-deixar-te-ir-mas-nao-me-deixaste-outra-escolha\/","title":{"rendered":"Foi incrivelmente dif\u00edcil deixar-te ir mas n\u00e3o me deixaste outra escolha"},"content":{"rendered":"

I didn\u2019t want this. I didn\u2019t want to let go of somebody who meant the world to me and whom I loved with all that I am. I didn\u2019t want to let go of somebody I planned my future with, somebody I could never imagine myself without. But here I am. Picking up the pieces and putting myself back together because you left me no other choice but to leave.<\/span><\/p>\n

To be honest, I never thought I could do it. Tears would roll down my face every time I thought of the inevitable end we were headed toward. I just didn\u2019t want to face it. I kept deluding myself, imagining how things were going to get better, how you would change because you would see how much I loved you and how hard I was fighting to make things work. <\/span><\/p>\n

Mas nunca pensaste em mudar, pois n\u00e3o? <\/b>You were just fine with the way things were going. You didn\u2019t mind the fact that I was making all the effort, that I was always dreaming of the good old days and waiting for them to come back around again. You surely didn\u2019t mind me forgiving you for everything you did, sometimes even without you saying you were sorry. <\/span><\/p>\n

No, you didn\u2019t mind and you <\/span>tomou tudo como garantido<\/span><\/a>. Usaste mal o meu amor e a minha bondade. Pensaste que podias fazer tudo o que quisesses e eu seria sempre a tola que ignorou tudo s\u00f3 para te ter por perto. <\/span><\/p>\n

You would inflict wounds on my heart just by using words so nasty I can\u2019t even repeat them; they still hurt. You never had enough time for me, everything else came first. And every time I made a complaint of any sort you would say that I was ungrateful, unreasonable and self-absorbed. Nothing was ever your fault and it was always easier to put the blame on me. <\/span><\/p>\n

We were always moving back and forth. I think that\u2019s what pushed me away the most.<\/b> Estava farta de toda a tristeza. N\u00e3o conseguia lidar com a tua incoer\u00eancia. Um dia davas-me o mundo e no outro voltavas a tir\u00e1-lo. Eras t\u00e3o carinhoso e todo em cima de mim num momento e t\u00e3o frio e distante no outro. Estavas l\u00e1 mas nunca estavas realmente l\u00e1, tinhas sempre um p\u00e9 fora da porta. <\/span><\/p>\n

That\u2019s not how you love, with only half of your heart. Love demands all or nothing, there can\u2019t be any in-between. <\/b>I know you cared, I know you loved me in your own way but it was never enough. You just gave your bare minimum. You invested as much as you needed and nothing more. And when I sum it all up, I spent so much time crying and so little time smiling. Love shouldn\u2019t feel like torture. Love shouldn\u2019t make you this exhausted. Love shouldn\u2019t be begged for. <\/span><\/p>\n

And I did just that, didn\u2019t I? Against my better judgment, I begged for your love.<\/b> Implorei-te que me tratasses melhor. Implorei-te que mudasses. Implorei-te que me desses mais tempo, mais aten\u00e7\u00e3o, mais apre\u00e7o por tudo o que eu estava a fazer, por todas as coisas m\u00e1s que deixei passar em nome da nossa rela\u00e7\u00e3o. Mas a minha <\/span>a mendicidade foi em v\u00e3o<\/span><\/a>. Cansei-me disso. Cansei-me de ser maltratado. Cansei-me de n\u00e3o ser amado. <\/span><\/p>\n

I know you don\u2019t get that I had to leave. You still don\u2019t see all the things you did wrong. You still think you have the right to be in my life when it suits you. You are capable of putting on your best show ever to convince me to let you back in. But I wasted four years of my life waiting for things to change. Holding on to the hope of some distant possibility that we could make things work, that we could be happy. <\/span><\/p>\n

N\u00e3o te deixo ir por falta de amor, deixo-te porque tive demasiado amor; acho que ainda tenho, mas come\u00e7ou a desaparecer porque nunca foi retribu\u00eddo. <\/b>Finalmente percebi que estava a agarrar-me a algo que nunca seria<\/a>. Porque se era suposto acontecer, j\u00e1 teria acontecido. Tivemos tempo mais do que suficiente. Dei-te in\u00fameras oportunidades que nem sequer te deste ao trabalho de usar. S\u00f3 estava a perder o meu tempo com <\/span>algu\u00e9m que nunca me valorizou<\/span><\/a>.<\/span><\/p>\n

That\u2019s why I am done, even though it\u2019s breaking me, even though this is the hardest thing I ever had to do. I have to be stronger than ever this time. Stronger than my feelings because I know that I deserve better. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

N\u00e3o tenho mais hip\u00f3teses para dar. Estou farta de te deixar fazer de v\u00edtima indefesa e de me culpar a mim. Estou farto de ser infeliz. Estou cansada de toda a dor e sofrimento que me fazes passar. Estou farto de estar cansado. <\/span><\/p>\n

Desta vez, estou a ver-te por quem realmente \u00e9s e n\u00e3o pelo que espero que te tornes. Desta vez, estou a escolher-me a mim e \u00e0 minha pr\u00f3pria felicidade em vez de ti. Obrigado por me deixares sem outra escolha que n\u00e3o seja deixar ir. <\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I didn\u2019t want this. I didn\u2019t want to let go of somebody who meant the world to me and whom I loved with all that I am. I didn\u2019t want to let go of somebody I planned my future with, somebody I could never imagine myself without. But here I am. Picking up the pieces…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":13,"featured_media":18448,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29628],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18447","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dealing-with-breakup"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29628,"label":"dealing with breakup"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/05\/riccardo-mion-645216-unsplash-4.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"April Callaghan","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/april\/"},"comment_info":1,"category_info":[{"term_id":29628,"name":"dealing with breakup","slug":"dealing-with-breakup","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29628,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Breakups are painful but worry not; you don't need to go through all of it alone. If you need advice on when and how to break up, you'll find it all here.\r\n","parent":29627,"count":263,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29628,"category_count":263,"category_description":"Breakups are painful but worry not; you don't need to go through all of it alone. If you need advice on when and how to break up, you'll find it all here.\r\n","cat_name":"dealing with breakup","category_nicename":"dealing-with-breakup","category_parent":29627}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18447","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/13"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18447"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18447\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/18448"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18447"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18447"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18447"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}