{"id":19139,"date":"2019-09-28T07:45:02","date_gmt":"2019-09-28T07:45:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=19139"},"modified":"2022-01-19T15:08:26","modified_gmt":"2022-01-19T15:08:26","slug":"depois-de-ti-o-inferno-deve-ser-facil","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/depois-de-ti-o-inferno-deve-ser-facil\/","title":{"rendered":"Depois de ti, o inferno deve ser f\u00e1cil"},"content":{"rendered":"

Durante demasiado tempo, tive vergonha das coisas que deixei que me fizesses. Durante demasiado tempo, tive vergonha de ter sido t\u00e3o cega \u00e0s tuas trai\u00e7\u00f5es, de ter sido t\u00e3o cega a todas as tuas manipula\u00e7\u00f5es e jogos<\/a> brincou comigo e com a minha mente, at\u00e9 ao ponto em que<\/p>\n

J\u00e1 n\u00e3o sabia qual era a verdade real e qual era a SUA verdade.<\/p>\n

But not anymore. Because it\u2019s not my fault I loved you. It\u2019s not my fault I trusted you. That\u2019s the way I am and that\u2019s probably why you choose me.<\/p>\n

And that\u2019s probably why you knew I\u2019ll be silent about all the things that happened behind our closed door.<\/p>\n

Mas n\u00e3o mais.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Recuso-me a continuar a varrer a sujidade para debaixo do tapete. Recuso-me a continuar a esconder a minha dor atr\u00e1s do sorriso.<\/p>\n

Recuso-me a continuar a dizer a toda a gente que termin\u00e1mos porque as coisas simplesmente n\u00e3o funcionaram.<\/p>\n

Acab\u00e1mos porque \u00e9s um grande idiota que s\u00f3 queria um pouco de divers\u00e3o.<\/p>\n

E que divertido que foi. As minhas l\u00e1grimas, a dor e o olhar perdido no meu rosto quando me fizeste questionar a minha sanidade. <\/strong><\/p>\n

As minhas inseguran\u00e7as que me estavam a afogar cada vez mais at\u00e9 me esquecer completamente de todas as coisas que gostava em mim.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Esqueci-me de como posso ser engra\u00e7ado porque contigo j\u00e1 n\u00e3o me ria. Esqueci-me de como sou inteligente porque as tuas palavras t\u00f3xicas fizeram-me sentir a pessoa mais est\u00fapida do mundo.<\/p>\n

Sempre que eu conseguia alguma coisa, tu menosprezavas. Gozavas com isso. Gozaste comigo.<\/p>\n

Every time I busted my ass off for something, you assured me that you could\u2019ve done it with one finger.<\/p>\n

Durante demasiado tempo, tive vergonha de admitir que tinha ficado com algu\u00e9m t\u00e3o t\u00f3xico.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Durante demasiado tempo, tive vergonha de admitir que tinha ficado de bom grado com algu\u00e9m t\u00e3o abusivo.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Mas n\u00e3o mais.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Porque querida, depois de ti, o inferno parece t\u00e3o f\u00e1cil. O inferno parece um campo de flores onde os p\u00e1ssaros est\u00e3o a cantar e onde sopra uma brisa agrad\u00e1vel.<\/p>\n

O inferno parece um sonho tornado realidade, depois de o pesadelo que vivi contigo<\/a>. Pelo menos, quando estamos no inferno, sabemos o que fizemos. Sabes a raz\u00e3o pela qual est\u00e1s l\u00e1.<\/p>\n

Mas nunca soube o que fiz para que me tratasses da forma como o fizeste. Dei-te tudo o que tinha. Dei-te o meu cora\u00e7\u00e3o, a minha alma, a minha mente e o meu corpo.<\/p>\n

You had it all, but it wasn\u2019t enough for you. You weren\u2019t happy until you destroyed every single piece of me. You weren\u2019t happy until you broke me to the point where I couldn\u2019t even breathe in.<\/p>\n

I was silently crying, trying to catch my breath, trying to make you see that I\u2019m the one who loves you. Trying to make you see that I\u2019m better than her.<\/p>\n

But this was never about me or her. This was simply about you finding a new victim for your twisted games. This was simply about you doing what you do best \u2013 fucking people up.<\/p>\n

Durante demasiado tempo, tive vergonha de dizer a verdade aos meus amigos.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Durante demasiado tempo, tive vergonha de dizer a verdade a mim pr\u00f3prio.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Now\u2026 it\u2019s just a distant echo of old pain and embarrassment. There are still flashbacks of the nightmare I lived with you\u2014all the worst ones, of course. You never spared yourself when it came to quebrando-me<\/a>.<\/p>\n

A primeira vez que deixei algu\u00e9m aproximar-se, estava a tremer. A primeira vez que ele tentou abra\u00e7ar-me, eu recuei.<\/p>\n

Eu vacilei, pensando que ele me ia bater. Pensando que ele me faria a mesma coisa que tu fizeste.<\/p>\n

E nesse momento, quando vi o olhar de tristeza no rosto dele, percebi que ainda \u00e9s demasiado forte na minha mente para seguir em frente. Percebi que preciso de te apagar completamente se quiser seguir em frente.<\/p>\n

Ent\u00e3o fiz uma lista de todas as coisas que me fizeste. Todas as vezes que me humilhaste. Cada vez que me fizeste sentir menos digna e cada vez que me tiraste um peda\u00e7o do meu valor.<\/p>\n

Every time your words made me cry and now, once again they did the same. And lastly, every time your action caused pain so strong that I couldn\u2019t breathe in. Pain so strong that it shook me to my core. And it did once again.<\/p>\n

Queimei a lista. Queimei o passado. E queimei a mem\u00f3ria de ti.<\/strong><\/p>\n

And as much as it sounds clich\u00e9, I rose out of that fire like a phoenix. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Brighter and stronger than ever. And more ready to conquer the world, since I\u2019ve already conquered hell.<\/strong><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

For too long, I was ashamed of things I let you do to me. For too long, I was ashamed that I was so blind to you cheating around, that I was so blind to all of your manipulations and games you played with me and with my mind, until the point where I no…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":19140,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-19139","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/05\/caleb-george-144975-unsplash.jpg",800,521,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19139","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=19139"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19139\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/19140"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=19139"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=19139"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=19139"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}