{"id":19478,"date":"2020-02-05T08:49:34","date_gmt":"2020-02-05T08:49:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=19478"},"modified":"2021-08-12T12:33:32","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T12:33:32","slug":"odeio-te-por-agires-como-se-nao-me-tivesses-feito-mal-nenhum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/odeio-te-por-agires-como-se-nao-me-tivesses-feito-mal-nenhum\/","title":{"rendered":"Odeio-te por agires como se n\u00e3o me tivesses feito mal nenhum"},"content":{"rendered":"

A verdade \u00e9 que pass\u00e1mos momentos muito bonitos e que partilh\u00e1mos mem\u00f3rias fant\u00e1sticas. <\/span><\/p>\n

Mas quando olho para a nossa rela\u00e7\u00e3o passada deste ponto de vista, vejo que esses momentos eram de facto raros, embora eu tentasse agarrar-me a eles.<\/span>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>Quando olho para as coisas desta perspetiva, <\/span>Vejo que a maior parte da nossa rela\u00e7\u00e3o foi marcada pelo facto de eu me sentir mal comigo mesmo, de eu chorar at\u00e9 adormecer, de eu me perguntar o que fiz de errado e de eu esperar que tu recuperasses o ju\u00edzo.<\/b>
\n<\/b>
\n<\/span>At the same time, you lived your life as if the things that were going on in our relationship never affected you, as if you weren\u2019t a part of it. <\/span>You lived your life as if your actions weren\u2019t hurting anyone and as if they weren\u2019t causing me any pain. <\/b>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>E foi exatamente isso que continuou a fazer depois de se ter afastado de mim.<\/span>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>Seguiste com a tua vida como se nada entre n\u00f3s tivesse acontecido. Como se nunca <\/span>partiu-me o cora\u00e7\u00e3o<\/span><\/a> into pieces and as if you hadn\u2019t changed the essence of who I was. <\/span><\/p>\n

Como se nunca me tivesses mentido, como se nunca me tivesses tra\u00eddo e como se nunca tivesses abusado emocionalmente de mim. <\/span>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>You continued living your life as if you hadn\u2019t ruined me. As if you hadn\u2019t disappointed me and made me a bitter and negative person with deep trust issues.<\/span>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>As if you hadn\u2019t destroyed my self-confidence, trying to put all the blame on me for everything wrong in our relationship. <\/span><\/p>\n

Como se nunca me tivesses feito questionar a minha sanidade mental e todos os meus passos e pensar se seria eu a t\u00f3xica.<\/span>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>Seguiste em frente como se nunca me tivesses feito questionar o meu valor ou <\/span>pergunto-me porque \u00e9 que nunca fui suficiente<\/span><\/a> por ti. Como se nunca tivesses tentado fazer-me sentir culpada por todas as coisas que estavas a fazer.<\/span>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>And the worst part is that I\u2019ve spent years trying to figure out what was wrong with me and what my mistakes were. I\u2019ve spent years replaying every moment of our relationship in my head, trying to find the answers to my questions.<\/span><\/p>\n

Imaginei todos os cen\u00e1rios poss\u00edveis em que tentei encontrar formas de justificar as suas palavras e ac\u00e7\u00f5es.<\/span>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>Mas como eu estava a ir cada vez mais fundo,<\/span> Apercebi-me de que nunca poderia existir uma desculpa para todas as coisas que me fizeste durante anos. <\/b><\/p>\n

I\u2019ve realized that although I made my share of mistakes, you were the real cause and reason for all of my misfortune.<\/b><\/p>\n

And that I couldn\u2019t do anything to justify you for this, as much as I would like to.<\/span>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>E odiei-te durante muito tempo. <\/span>Odiava-te por tudo o que me tinhas feito e odiava-te por me teres deixado num s\u00edtio enquanto tu te tinhas ido embora h\u00e1 muito tempo.<\/b>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>Mas, passado algum tempo, consegui perdoar-te por tudo o que me fizeste. Embora pensasse que isso nunca aconteceria, encontrei a <\/span>for\u00e7a para vos perdoar<\/span><\/a> por me ter causado uma dor inimagin\u00e1vel e por me ter destru\u00eddo e devastado. <\/span><\/p>\n

And together with forgiveness, somehow I\u2019ve also stopped hating you for everything you made me go through.<\/b><\/p>\n

To be honest, I didn\u2019t do it because of you. I did it for my own good<\/span>\u2014<\/span>because I couldn\u2019t live with this negativity that was eating me from the inside out.<\/span>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>Mas h\u00e1 uma coisa que nunca te poderei perdoar. Embora n\u00e3o seja algo de que me orgulhe, <\/span>existe uma parte de mim que ainda o odeia. <\/b><\/p>\n

And the reason I feel this way is not all the harm you\u2019ve done to me<\/span>\u2014<\/span>it\u2019s the fact that you never took any responsibility for your words and actions.<\/span>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>It\u2019s the fact that you always behaved as if my devastation had nothing to do with you and as if you didn\u2019t even take part in damaging and breaking me.<\/b>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>E, infelizmente, isso diz mais sobre si do que o facto de ter feito todas essas coisas. <\/span><\/p>\n

Isto mostra que \u00e9 um narcisista t\u00f3xico e ego\u00edsta, sem qualquer vest\u00edgio de consci\u00eancia. E mostra-me que nunca amou ningu\u00e9m a n\u00e3o ser a si pr\u00f3prio.<\/span><\/p>\n

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