I know I am probably the last person you want or expect to hear from. And I know you don\u2019t want anything to do with me and I assume that writing to you is another one of my selfish acts but I just can\u2019t help it.<\/p>\n
I am sorry to reopen your wounds and to remind you of everything you\u2019ve been through. I am sorry that even now I can\u2019t be a better man and just let you be because the truth is that I am not writing this to you to make you feel better\u2014I am writing this for myself. Because I hope it will help me with my conscience and to make myself feel better.<\/p>\n
Yep, I am obviously still the same selfish asshole I\u2019ve always been. But at least I\u2019ve grown enough to realize it, to accept it and to admit it.<\/strong><\/p>\n But that doesn\u2019t make any of it better, does it? It doesn\u2019t make me a better person or a bigger man in your eyes, does it?<\/p>\n I am not writing this to you to get you back, although sometimes I secretly hope that will happen. But I am very well aware that I\u2019ve lost all my chances with you and that something like that is far from possible.<\/p>\n Escrevo-o porque quero, pelo menos, tentar dar-vos uma explica\u00e7\u00e3o de tudo o que se passou. N\u00e3o porque espere que me compreendam, mas para me explicar e tentar compreender-me.<\/strong><\/p>\n I am writing this because I want you to know that I am finally taking all the responsibility for everything I\u2019ve done to you and to us and because I want you to see that I finally realized everything.<\/p>\n I\u2019ve realized I was an psicopata emocional<\/a> who ruined the only good thing I had in life\u2014our relationship.<\/strong><\/p>\n Que eu era um idiota que te afugentava com a minha toxicidade e inseguran\u00e7as.<\/p>\n Que eu era m\u00e1 para ti e que fizeste a escolha certa quando finalmente desististe da luta e quando finalmente desististe de mim.<\/strong><\/p>\n Porque te salvaste a ti pr\u00f3prio.<\/strong><\/p>\n Sim, tamb\u00e9m tentaste salvar-me mas, passados muitos anos, viste que isso era imposs\u00edvel. Viste que eu continuaria a ser a mesma pessoa negativa e destrutiva que sempre fui. Viste que eu s\u00f3 te estava a arrastar para baixo comigo e que n\u00e3o havia mais nada que pudesses fazer para me salvar.<\/p>\n Porque a verdade \u00e9 que I didn\u2019t want to be saved<\/a>. E nunca permiti que me ajudasses a curar.<\/p>\n