I feel emotionally, mentally and even spiritually disemboweled. It is far more than simple heartbreak. Somewhere in that relationship I lost myself. I lost myself to someone who didn\u2019t give two shits about me. Now, I\u2019m dealing with the pain of a relationship gone bad and trying to discover myself all over again.<\/p>\n
Isto \u00e9 mais do que um simples desgosto<\/strong>. It\u2019s much worse. It\u2019s a disease you try to cure but somehow always comes back to haunt you. It\u2019s a scar that no cosmetic placed over your heart can cover. The damages are there, just below the surface barely visible, but there.<\/p>\n To be honest, I have no idea how in the hell this all happened. I assumed after the year of us dating, you were someone whom I could trust\u2014after all I loved you.<\/p>\n Presumi que eras algu\u00e9m que se preocupava verdadeiramente com o meu bem-estar. N\u00e3o fazia ideia de que pegavas nos meus medos e nas minhas maiores preocupa\u00e7\u00f5es e os usavas para petiscar, pois puxavas constantemente por esses gatilhos para conseguires o que querias. Usaste o meu maior medo, que era a comida, e usaste-o para controlar o que entrava e sa\u00eda da minha boca. Quase tive de fazer uma transfus\u00e3o de sangue porque permiti que me fizesses sentir culpada por comer um hamb\u00farguer em vez de uma salada.<\/p>\n Permiti que usasses o meu medo, que o pegasses e o transformasses numa calamidade.<\/strong> What\u2019s worse is that I never understood what was wrong with me in the first place. And what was even worse, was the tears that fell from my face were silently done.<\/p>\n Feito em sil\u00eancio, onde ningu\u00e9m podia ver. Feito em sil\u00eancio porque me recusei a acreditar que eras a pessoa que realmente eras.<\/p>\n What’s even more heartbreaking is that friends and family suspected what was going on, and while they were ready to defend me by packing up my belongings, I was always ready trying to defend you. Defend you because I loved you and defend you because I thought there was an ounce of tenderness left in your heart.<\/p>\n Infelizmente, estava terrivelmente enganado, e Infelizmente, n\u00e3o existe um guia para ultrapassar os danos que me causou.<\/strong> The only thing that seems to ease my pain is crying and I\u2019m not ashamed to mention that either. The only thing I can tell you is I wish I had listened to myself more and gotten out of this toxicity sooner.<\/p>\n Compreendo que tenho de escalar uma montanha alta para ultrapassar isto. I understand that in this journey of self-discovery a part of me will have to die\u2014like <\/strong>um cancro needs to die in order for the body\u2019s survival. I understand that it’s only for the better.<\/strong> Compreendo que \u00e9 uma quest\u00e3o de tempo e compreendo que o novo eu ser\u00e1 muito mais forte<\/a> do que o meu antigo eu. There are many horrors in the world in which we live. Never in my wildest dreams did I think you would be classified as such. You see, the trauma you caused has impacted my life in many ways. The shadow you cast has caused some strange and painful illness that is silently killing me. 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