{"id":21752,"date":"2018-08-08T12:47:27","date_gmt":"2018-08-08T12:47:27","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=21752"},"modified":"2021-08-12T06:50:47","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T06:50:47","slug":"ainda-estou-zangado-comigo-mesmo-por-te-ter-amado","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/ainda-estou-zangado-comigo-mesmo-por-te-ter-amado\/","title":{"rendered":"Ainda estou zangado comigo mesmo por te ter amado"},"content":{"rendered":"

When I tell people about all the things you\u2019ve done to me, about all the harm you\u2019ve caused and about all the pain you\u2019ve put me through, everyone blames you for everything.<\/span><\/p>\n

Everyone assumes that I am mad at you and that I could never forgive you for the way you\u2019ve treated me.<\/b><\/p>\n

E foi assim que me senti durante algum tempo, desde que finalmente desapareceste da minha vida para sempre.<\/span><\/p>\n

Estava consumido pela raiva e pelo \u00f3dio contra ti, e pensava que eras o \u00fanico culpado de todas as minhas desgra\u00e7as.<\/span><\/p>\n

Mas, passado algum tempo, todos esses sentimentos desapareceram. E pensei que o fim da minha mis\u00e9ria tinha finalmente chegado.<\/span><\/p>\n

I was convinced that I had finally gotten rid of all these negative emotions that had haunted and caged me. I thought I\u2019d <\/span>decidi seguir em frente com a minha vida<\/span><\/a>da mesma forma que tu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Mas, na verdade, era apenas o in\u00edcio.<\/span><\/p>\n

Yes, the truth is that I\u2019d stopped hating you. I wasn\u2019t angry at you anymore, and I\u2019d even managed to forgive you for everything you did to me.<\/span><\/p>\n

But it didn\u2019t mean my anger and bitterness faded away. Instead, they still remained a huge part of me, and I just rechanneled them.<\/span><\/p>\n

But this time, it was worse than ever. Because this time, I\u2019d become angry at myself. And that is something I still feel and something I don\u2019t know how to overcome.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sei que toda a gente lhe diz que nunca deve guardar rancor, especialmente contra si pr\u00f3prio.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sei que devo encarar a nossa rela\u00e7\u00e3o como uma li\u00e7\u00e3o dif\u00edcil e que n\u00e3o conseguirei nada se continuar a voltar ao passado e a agarrar-me a ele.<\/span><\/p>\n

Mas essa raiva, esse ressentimento e <\/span>\u00f3dio a si pr\u00f3prio<\/span><\/a> are stronger than everything I\u2019ve ever felt, and it is something I can\u2019t control, as much as I\u2019m trying to.<\/span><\/p>\n

The truth is that I became angry at myself the moment I realized you didn\u2019t force me into doing anything I didn\u2019t want to do.<\/b><\/p>\n

You didn\u2019t force me to be with you, to put up with you, to stay with you or to humiliate myself.<\/b><\/p>\n

Sim, tu manipulaste-me. Brincou com a minha mente e o meu cora\u00e7\u00e3o. Chantageaste-me emocionalmente.<\/span><\/p>\n

Mas fui eu que permiti que me fizesses todas essas coisas.<\/span><\/p>\n

Fui eu que sempre tive consci\u00eancia do tipo de homem que tu \u00e9s e fui eu que escolhi ficar ao teu lado, apesar de tudo.<\/span><\/p>\n

I was the one who was too weak, who didn\u2019t have the strength and the power to confront you and to stand up for myself.<\/span><\/p>\n

I was the one who let you into my life and into my heart and the one who didn\u2019t have the courage to walk away from you and to cut you off for good.<\/b><\/p>\n

And that is the main reason of my anger. That is what I can\u2019t forgive myself.<\/b><\/p>\n

I can\u2019t forgive myself for being a fool for so long and for <\/span>believing that you\u2019d eventually change, <\/b>por mentir e convencer-me de que me amavas, quando claramente nunca me amaste.<\/span><\/p>\n

I can\u2019t forgive myself for hoping<\/b> that we\u2019d live a happy life, although there was clearly no room for me to hope, for giving you all those second chances, when you clearly didn\u2019t deserve any.<\/span><\/p>\n

I can\u2019t forgive myself for letting you treat me the way you wanted to<\/b> e por te ter aturado a abusar emocionalmente de mim durante todos estes anos.<\/span><\/p>\n

Por permitir que me diminu\u00edsse<\/b> and for letting you act like I\u2019m beneath you.<\/span><\/p>\n

I can\u2019t forgive myself for always putting you first<\/b>Por nunca me teres dado um lugar especial na tua vida, por seres o \u00fanico que se esfor\u00e7ou na nossa rela\u00e7\u00e3o.<\/span><\/p>\n

I can\u2019t forgive myself for putting aside all of my deal breakers and life principles<\/b> s\u00f3 para poder estar contigo, para mudar, para que gostasses mais de mim.<\/span><\/p>\n

Mas acima de tudo, <\/span>Eu sou<\/b> zangado por te amar mais do que a mim pr\u00f3prio<\/b><\/a>.<\/span><\/p>\n

Na verdade, estou zangado comigo pr\u00f3prio por alguma vez ter cuidado de ti e te ter amado da forma como o fiz.<\/b><\/p>\n

Porque nunca mereceste o meu amor. E tu nunca me mereceste.<\/span> <\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

When I tell people about all the things you\u2019ve done to me, about all the harm you\u2019ve caused and about all the pain you\u2019ve put me through, everyone blames you for everything. Everyone assumes that I am mad at you and that I could never forgive you for the way you\u2019ve treated me. And this…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":21753,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21752","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/08\/christian-fregnan-706748-unsplash.jpg",800,534,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21752","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21752"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21752\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21753"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21752"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21752"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21752"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}