{"id":21885,"date":"2020-02-15T09:06:32","date_gmt":"2020-02-15T09:06:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=21885"},"modified":"2021-08-12T11:43:02","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T11:43:02","slug":"o-dia-em-que-me-apaixonei-por-mim-proprio","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/o-dia-em-que-me-apaixonei-por-mim-proprio\/","title":{"rendered":"O dia em que me apaixonei por mim mesmo"},"content":{"rendered":"

Sempre foste a minha prioridade, mas desta vez escolhi-me a mim pr\u00f3pria.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Eu dei-te tudo.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Eras o centro do meu mundo. Dei-te tudo o que podia e muito mais.<\/p>\n

I gave you second chances, I believed in your lies. I wanted us to last, so I trusted you, although I knew I shouldn\u2019t.<\/p>\n

I stood by your side even when things couldn\u2019t get any worse. When any sane person would scream in horror and pain and beg to leave, I stayed.<\/p>\n

Eu queria estar l\u00e1 para ti. Queria tornar as coisas mais f\u00e1ceis para ti. Mas nunca tive consci\u00eancia de que me estava a destruir.<\/p>\n

I couldn\u2019t just let you go. There was so much love and time spent to be with you and I couldn\u2019t throw all of that away. I really wanted to fight to make something of us.<\/p>\n

Optei por suportar a dor durante o m\u00e1ximo de tempo poss\u00edvel porque, secretamente, esperava que mudasses.<\/p>\n

I was hoping that you\u2019d see what I was doing and how much I was sacrificing just to be with you.<\/p>\n

I knew that you were a nice guy deep down. But that niceness of yours was so deeply buried that I didn\u2019t see it anymore.<\/p>\n

Maybe you\u2019d chosen to change. Maybe you did it on purpose. Maybe it was easier for you that way.<\/p>\n

Nesse dia, apercebi-me tristemente de que nunca mais ias trazer o teu antigo eu de volta. Nesse dia percebi que estava a lutar por nada.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Eu sabia que se te deixasse ir embora e me afastasse, seria eu a ficar com o cora\u00e7\u00e3o partido.<\/p>\n

That\u2019s why I tried so badly\u2014because despite the fact that I loved you, I was so scared of getting hurt once again.<\/p>\n

Deep inside, I knew what I was doing for you. I knew I shouldn\u2019t do any of those things but I kept trying to fix what was broken beyond repair.<\/p>\n

Vi a forma como se comportou e o que estava a fazer e justifiquei-o.<\/p>\n

As pessoas vinham ter comigo, perguntando-me qual era o teu problema e porque \u00e9 que estavas a ser um completo idiota e eu inventava desculpas para ti, embora soubesse que elas tinham raz\u00e3o. Estavas a ser um idiota.<\/p>\n

I knew that you\u2019d changed completely and that you didn\u2019t treat anyone with any respect, including me, and I stayed despite it all.<\/p>\n

I had so much understanding and no one could figure out why. My friends tried to talk me into leaving you, they were asking me why I put up with all of that and all I had to say every time was: \u201cI love him.\u201d<\/p>\n

I ignored everything around me. I ignored all the warnings because I didn\u2019t want to believe it. I didn\u2019t want to believe that this was happening to me.<\/p>\n

E sempre que me vi confrontado com uma escolha, escolhi amar-te a mim pr\u00f3prio.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ao escolher-te, perdi-me. Mudei por ti, agi como querias porque tudo o que sempre quis foi a tua aprova\u00e7\u00e3o. Tudo o que eu sempre quis foi que fosses feliz comigo e ao p\u00e9 de mim.<\/p>\n

Mas tudo o que eu fazia nunca era suficiente. Querias sempre que eu desse um passo em frente.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Escolhi-te a ti em vez dos meus amigos, escolhi-te a ti em vez da minha carreira, em todas as ocasi\u00f5es, escolhi-te a ti.<\/p>\n

Passado algum tempo, eras a \u00fanica coisa que me restava. Por isso, agora que penso nisso, fiquei ao teu lado porque tinha medo de te perder tamb\u00e9m.<\/p>\n

Perdi tudo o resto. Tu eras o \u00fanico lugar seguro que eu conhecia. Infeliz, mas seguro.<\/p>\n

Fiquei contigo naquele casulo seguro que criei e tu sabias que eu me sentia assim, por isso aproveitaste-te disso. Usaste-me da forma mais degradante, mexeste com a minha mente.<\/p>\n

You could manipulate me because I became frightened and lost, so naturally I listened to the only thing I had left in my life\u2014you.<\/p>\n

Nesse dia apaixonei-me por mim pr\u00f3prio.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I\u2019d given up. I\u2019d left and deleted every memory of you in my life and it was the hardest thing that I ever had to do. I\u2019m not over you and God knows when I will be.<\/p>\n

But there are so many mixed memories in my mind right now. I don\u2019t know whether to love or hate you.<\/p>\n

Fico deprimido e solit\u00e1rio e penso em n\u00f3s. Penso em todos os momentos bonitos que pass\u00e1mos juntos.<\/p>\n

Penso nas nossas idas ao rio, nas nossas corridas \u00e0 chuva. Penso na altura em que me empurraste para a relva encharcada enquanto a chuva ca\u00eda.<\/p>\n

Est\u00e1vamos os dois encharcados. Est\u00e1vamos ambos a rir. Est\u00e1vamos ambos felizes.<\/p>\n

That\u2019s when I fall apart\u2014when I think of the good things. But, then comes the horror. Then my mind takes me on a hell journey through my memories.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Depois penso na altura em que me arrastaste para o ch\u00e3o porque est\u00e1vamos a discutir. Penso na altura em que puseste as duas m\u00e3os \u00e0 volta do meu pesco\u00e7o, com um olhar selvagem e louco nos olhos.<\/p>\n

Depois lembro-me de todas as coisas horr\u00edveis que fizeste e disseste. Depois fico zangado.<\/p>\n

I know it\u2019s stupid but even now that I\u2019ve left, I still hope that we will be together.<\/p>\n

I still hope that we will laugh and be happy. I hope that you\u2019ll once again become the man you were.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know how long this is going to last. All I know is that it has to stop.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s for the best, I understand that. I chose my destiny the day I left you. I chose to love myself instead of you.<\/strong><\/p>\n

S\u00f3 preciso de encontrar essa raz\u00e3o para voltar a amar-me.<\/p>\n

Preciso de aprender a viver sozinha, escrever, cantar, pintar e fazer todas as coisas de que gosto. Preciso de voltar a p\u00f4r a minha vida nos eixos. Tenho de o fazer em passos de beb\u00e9.<\/p>\n

I will love myself more each day that I\u2019m not close to you. I just have to be strong enough not to go back to that something I ran away from.<\/p>\n

One day you\u2019re just going to be a memory but now, me leaving is still the day I wish had never happened.<\/p>\n

\"O<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

You were always my priority but this time I chose myself. I gave you everything. You were the center of my world. I gave you everything I could and way beyond. I gave you second chances, I believed in your lies. I wanted us to last, so I trusted you, although I knew I shouldn\u2019t….<\/p>","protected":false},"author":22,"featured_media":21886,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29644],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21885","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-self-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29644,"label":"self-love"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/08\/artem-bali-776386-unsplash.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tina Navarro","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/tatiana\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29644,"name":"self-love","slug":"self-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29644,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","parent":29643,"count":290,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29644,"category_count":290,"category_description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","cat_name":"self-love","category_nicename":"self-love","category_parent":29643}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21885","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/22"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21885"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21885\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21886"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21885"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21885"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21885"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}