{"id":22236,"date":"2018-08-24T11:16:38","date_gmt":"2018-08-24T11:16:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=22236"},"modified":"2022-02-26T10:50:07","modified_gmt":"2022-02-26T10:50:07","slug":"a-minha-vida-e-vazia-sem-a-tua-presenca","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/a-minha-vida-e-vazia-sem-a-tua-presenca\/","title":{"rendered":"A minha vida \u00e9 vazia sem a tua presen\u00e7a"},"content":{"rendered":"

Sabes como \u00e9 sentir a falta de algu\u00e9m at\u00e9 aos ossos?<\/b> Sente que quer morrer e que cada respira\u00e7\u00e3o que d\u00e1 lhe causa uma dor enorme.<\/span><\/p>\n

E quando digo dor, estou mesmo a falar de dor. <\/span><\/p>\n

You feel like there is this big knife stabbing the inside of your stomach and you can\u2019t do anything to make things easier for yourself. <\/span><\/p>\n

Sente que algu\u00e9m o est\u00e1 a magoar fisicamente sempre que pensa nessa pessoa.<\/span><\/p>\n

E pensamos neles a toda a hora. Pensamos neles a cada segundo de cada minuto de cada dia.<\/span><\/p>\n

Esta pessoa \u00e9 a primeira coisa que nos passa pela cabe\u00e7a no momento em que acordamos e a \u00faltima imagem que vemos quando estamos prestes a adormecer.<\/span><\/p>\n

And no, time doesn\u2019t make things better for you. Instead, you feel like you miss them more and more with every day that passes without them by your side.<\/span><\/p>\n

E farias literalmente tudo o que estivesse ao teu alcance s\u00f3 para <\/span>t\u00ea-los de volta<\/span><\/a>. S\u00f3 para os beijar mais uma vez ou para os ver sorrir para si.<\/span><\/p>\n

But guess what? I am sure as hell that I miss you but I don\u2019t feel any of these things. Yes, I\u2019ve been through all of this but that period is behind me now.<\/b><\/p>\n

Now I know that the worst is over and I know I won\u2019t die without you in my life. Now I know that I\u2019ve survived you.<\/span><\/p>\n

But the state I am currently in is maybe even more dangerous than this what I\u2019m describing. And it is definitely more permanent.<\/b><\/p>\n

Lembras-te do que mais gostavas em mim? <\/span><\/p>\n

Sabes como eu estava sempre cheio de emo\u00e7\u00f5es? Como me dizias sempre que \u00e0s vezes eu agia como uma crian\u00e7a?<\/span><\/p>\n

Lembras-te de como conseguias ver cada uma das minhas emo\u00e7\u00f5es nos meus olhos? <\/span><\/p>\n

Lembram-se de como chorei? E tamb\u00e9m como me ria? Como me zangava? Ou com medo de acabar por te perder?<\/span><\/p>\n

Lembram-se de como eu n\u00e3o tinha problemas em expressar o que sentia e de como eu era uma rapariga que sabia abra\u00e7ar tanto a sua felicidade como a sua tristeza?<\/b><\/p>\n

Lembra-se de como eu apreciava cada respira\u00e7\u00e3o que fazia? Como estava sempre ansioso por cada novo dia que chegava?<\/span><\/p>\n

Will, sabes que mais? I didn\u2019t die when you left me<\/a> mas a rapariga que eu costumava ser, sim. Ela simplesmente deixou de existir e tu mataste-a.<\/b><\/p>\n

The truth is that I\u2019ve become completely indifferent ever since you left me and ever since my mourning phase ended.<\/b><\/p>\n

And that\u2019s what I\u2019m trying to tell you\u2014<\/span>I don\u2019t feel sadness for your departure anymore.<\/b><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t cry anymore and I don\u2019t feel like I\u2019m going to burst into tears every time someone mentions you.<\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t feel like my heart is breaking all over again every time I think of you. <\/span><\/p>\n

Simplesmente n\u00e3o sinto nada.<\/b><\/p>\n

E algu\u00e9m pode pensar que isso \u00e9 \u00f3timo. Que isto significa que <\/span>Finalmente j\u00e1 te ultrapassei.<\/span><\/p>\n

But the fact is that I don\u2019t feel anything about anything in my life. All I feel is this huge void and emptiness.<\/b><\/p>\n

Sinto que a minha vida n\u00e3o tem cor e que se tornou preta e branca sem a tua presen\u00e7a. <\/b><\/p>\n

Yes, looking from a brighter perspective, nothing can make me sad anymore. I don\u2019t get hurt as easily.<\/b><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t get surprised when someone disappoints me or abandons me. <\/span>Mas, por outro lado, tamb\u00e9m nada me faz feliz como dantes.<\/b><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t get excited about the little things anymore. I forgot how to enjoy the sunset or the smell of the ocean.<\/span><\/p>\n

Esqueci-me de como \u00e9 estar entusiasmado com algo que se conseguiu. <\/span>Esqueci-me de como \u00e9 sentirmo-nos orgulhosos de n\u00f3s pr\u00f3prios.<\/b><\/p>\n

Esqueci-me de como \u00e9 ter esperan\u00e7a.<\/b><\/p>\n

The truth is that this saved me from a lot of emotional pain but it has also made me feel like I am a mechanical creature, doing everyday activities and chores without the slightest sign of any emotion\u2014positive or negative.<\/span><\/p>\n

A verdade \u00e9 que tudo isto me fez esquecer como amar.<\/b><\/p>\n

Sim, ajudou-me <\/span>deixar de te amar<\/span><\/a>. But it has also made me forget how to love others. And most of all\u2014it has made me forget how to love myself. <\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

You know how it feels to miss someone to the bones? You feel like you want to die and like every breath you take causes you enormous pain. And when I say pain, I really mean pain. You feel like there is this big knife stabbing the inside of your stomach and you can\u2019t do…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":22237,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-22236","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/08\/anthony-tran-729792-unsplash.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22236","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=22236"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22236\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/22237"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=22236"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=22236"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=22236"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}