It\u2019s been quite a ride. I\u2019ve been through so much you can\u2019t even start to imagine. I think if you had to live in my mind for even a day, you wouldn\u2019t make it. You wouldn\u2019t be able to endure all the pain I\u2019ve felt.<\/p>\n
But, you know what? That passes. First it consumes you. You don’t have the will to live. You don\u2019t have any strength to get up in the morning.<\/p>\n
O teu mundo inteiro simplesmente desaparece. Tudo o que conhecias e em que confiavas desapareceu de repente.<\/strong><\/p>\n Then you\u2019re faced with survival. Then you have to learn to deixar as coisas correr<\/a> e seguir em frente. Para o teu pr\u00f3prio bem. Para o bem da sua sanidade e do seu bem-estar emocional e f\u00edsico.<\/p>\n It\u2019s been quite a ride as I\u2019ve already said. It took me so long to get to the point where I am now. And I want you to know that my heart moved on. I want you to know that we are okay.<\/p>\n Perdoei-te, mas n\u00e3o quero voltar a ver-te.<\/em><\/p>\n It still hurts, and it will for much longer. But I\u2019m at peace now, and there is nothing in this world that can bring me down, that can disturb the serenity I\u2019ve created for myself.<\/p>\n I\u2019m finally ready to take all the anger and bitterness I\u2019ve felt for you and put it behind me.<\/strong><\/p>\n I didn\u2019t like myself when I was sad and angry. It changed me, and it made me do and feel things I would never do and feel. The anger I felt for you pulled out the worst in me.<\/p>\n I\u2019m glad that I shook it off because my life is at stake. With that much bitterness inside me, I actually chased away people that cared for me, people that wanted me to get better.<\/p>\n I didn’t see that then. I was blinded by the pain, by the sadness and loneliness.<\/em><\/p>\n Back then, I blamed myself for the downfall we went through. But, today I realize that it was never all my fault. Of course, it takes two to tango, and it\u2019s never just one person’s fault.<\/p>\n Talvez eu devesse ter sido mais razo\u00e1vel. Talvez devesse ter-te dado mais compaix\u00e3o. Mas, para qu\u00ea? Nunca mostraste que te importavas. Nunca fizeste qualquer esfor\u00e7o ou tentaste convencer-me de que as coisas iam melhorar.<\/p>\n I mean, you did try, but that was only when I had had enough. That was only when I was about to leave, so you lied, saying you were going to change, but you knew that you wouldn\u2019t. You did it just to make me stay.<\/p>\n I know now that I deserve better. Huh, isn\u2019t this a total cliche? But you know what, it\u2019s true. There is no better way to put how I feel than to say, \u201cI deserve better!\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n I didn\u2019t deserve how you treated me, but I blame myself for not putting a stop to it. I could have sobered up a long time ago. But, what\u2019s done is done. I\u2019m looking forward now.<\/p>\n I don\u2019t hate you because I don\u2019t have to. Hating you won\u2019t erase all the bad memories. It won\u2019t change you or make anything better. It will only make me feel worse than I already do. It can only change me and turn me into a person I don\u2019t want to be.<\/p>\n So, no, I don\u2019t hate you.<\/em><\/p>\n I don\u2019t resent you for anything. I realized that by turning you into the center of my attention by being angry and bitter, I\u2019m giving you the attention and power you don\u2019t deserve.<\/p>\n Por isso, a melhor coisa que podia fazer era simplesmente deixar-te ir e perdoar-te todas as pequenas coisas que me fizeste.<\/strong><\/p>\n If I kept thinking about you, I would have never found closure. This way, I sleep peaceful at night. This way I don\u2019t have to feel guilty about anything.<\/p>\n O meu cora\u00e7\u00e3o est\u00e1 em paz porque I\u2019ve moved on<\/a> without anyone\u2019s help. I gave myself the closure I needed.<\/strong><\/p>\n A \u00fanica coisa que eu quero mais na minha vida \u00e9 nunca mais te ver. I don\u2019t want you to be any part of my life<\/a>. I don\u2019t want to see you. I don\u2019t want to hear from you. In my mind, you\u2019ve never existed, and I\u2019d like to keep it that way.<\/p>\n I\u2019m not doing this because I\u2019m scared that I\u2019ll get back together with you. I\u2019m doing this because I\u2019m scared I might hate you, and I don\u2019t want that. We\u2019re perfectly fine\u2014just go away.<\/p>\n Let me build the life I want to live. Leave me alone, and don\u2019t mess up everything I\u2019ve worked so hard for\u2014my peace, my self-respect and my love for myself.<\/p>\n