{"id":28329,"date":"2018-11-23T13:41:57","date_gmt":"2018-11-23T13:41:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=28329"},"modified":"2021-08-11T10:59:13","modified_gmt":"2021-08-11T10:59:13","slug":"deixaste-me-sozinho-so-para-me-lembrares-que-nunca-estiveste-realmente-la","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/deixaste-me-sozinho-so-para-me-lembrares-que-nunca-estiveste-realmente-la\/","title":{"rendered":"O que \u00e9 que eu quero dizer com isso?"},"content":{"rendered":"

Deixaste-me sozinha, s\u00f3 com recorda\u00e7\u00f5es de momentos felizes, com l\u00e1grimas no rosto e com esta dor que n\u00e3o quer ir embora.<\/p>\n

Quando fecho os olhos, ainda sinto o cheiro da tua col\u00f3nia, sinto os teus l\u00e1bios encostados aos meus, recordo os momentos em que me senti invadida pela alegria.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s like I am an masoquista emocional<\/span><\/a> e continuo a magoar-me intencionalmente. Continuo a recordar o que \u00e9 bom, todos os momentos divertidos, ternos e emocionantes e continuo a esquecer-me de que o mau aconteceu.<\/p>\n

Esque\u00e7o-me sempre de que me deixaste sozinha antes de te afastares fisicamente de mim. A verdade \u00e9 que mesmo quando estavas ao meu lado, senti-me t\u00e3o s\u00f3.<\/p>\n

Nunca me deste o que eu precisava, nunca me deste a ti pr\u00f3prio, nunca me deste o teu cora\u00e7\u00e3o. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Estaria eu a pedir demasiado? Teria eu expectativas pouco razo\u00e1veis?<\/em><\/p>\n

Tudo o que eu queria era tu, a tua presen\u00e7a. Mas tu s\u00f3 me deste um pouco de aten\u00e7\u00e3o. Queria que me abra\u00e7asses com for\u00e7a sem que eu tivesse de pedir um abra\u00e7o.<\/p>\n

Queria que planeasses com anteced\u00eancia e me pedisses para ir a algum lado contigo e n\u00e3o apenas que aparecesses no meu apartamento e sa\u00edsses sempre que fosse conveniente.<\/p>\n

S\u00f3 quando era conveniente. S\u00f3 quando estava de bom humor. S\u00f3 quando a situa\u00e7\u00e3o lhe conv\u00e9m.<\/p>\n

You never cared for my tears. You never cared about why I was upset or stressed out. You never wanted to know the \u2018difficult\u2019 stuff, you were only there while the sunshiney days lasted. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Mesmo assim, mesmo quando eu era algu\u00e9m que significava tanto para ti, deixaste-me em paz.<\/p>\n

E eu fiquei, apesar disso. Apesar do facto de sempre me ter faltado apoio e de ter de ser eu a segurar toda a nossa rela\u00e7\u00e3o nos meus ombros.<\/p>\n

I tried. I kept on giving as much as I could and even more than that. I invested everything I had, put my heart and my soul into our relationship and it wasn\u2019t enough.<\/p>\n

I wasn\u2019t enough, or at least you never made me feel that way. You never said aloud that I should change but you did everything in your power to make me feel that way.<\/p>\n

Encheste a minha mente de medos e inseguran\u00e7as enquanto eu te mantinha num pedestal. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

There was nothing I wouldn\u2019t do for you.<\/p>\n

Respondi \u00e0 tua frieza com calor e do\u00e7ura. Abracei a dist\u00e2ncia entre n\u00f3s e continuei a puxar-te para mais perto.<\/p>\n

Queria que sentisses o meu amor. Queria mostrar-te que n\u00e3o estavas sozinho. Que tinhas algu\u00e9m que gostava muito de ti.<\/p>\n

And you\u2026 as always\u2026 did nothing\u2026<\/p>\n

You didn\u2019t even lift your little finger. I guess you felt entitled to all that I was giving you and you took it for granted. You knew I wouldn\u2019t stop making an effort, no matter how lousy you treated me.<\/p>\n

Maybe you were right, I don\u2019t know, I never did get the chance to find out. All I know is that I thank God every single day because you walked away. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Deixaste-me sozinho e eu encontrei-me a mim pr\u00f3prio.<\/p>\n

Because with you, I was lost. I was a shadow of the person that I used to be. I became somebody who didn\u2019t have her voice anymore, I became someone under your control.<\/p>\n

Negligenciei os meus amigos, a minha fam\u00edlia, os meus objectivos e interesses e tornei-me co-dependente<\/span><\/a>. Em vez de viver a minha vida, vivi a tua.<\/p>\n

Fiz o meu melhor para te acomodar e fazer com que te sentisses feliz e, no meio de tudo isso, esqueci-me que eu tamb\u00e9m merecia ser feliz.<\/p>\n

Amar-te fez-me esquecer que tamb\u00e9m preciso de me amar a mim pr\u00f3prio. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Precisava que me lembrassem disso e acho que n\u00e3o havia outra maneira sen\u00e3o chegar ao fundo do po\u00e7o. Tinha de ser quebrado para poder voltar a erguer-me.<\/p>\n

Tive de reconstruir a minha vida a partir do zero. Por isso, comecei pelas pessoas que s\u00e3o importantes para mim e pedi-lhes perd\u00e3o. A culpa foi minha por ter permitido que nos afast\u00e1ssemos. Estava t\u00e3o concentrada em ti que perdi a no\u00e7\u00e3o da realidade.<\/p>\n

I almost lost the ones who love me unconditionally. I know you don\u2019t know what that means, you never knew how to love that way.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve changed. But not the way you wanted me to. I still wouldn\u2019t fit your ideals even if I tried. I did it because I felt that inner desire for change. It was time I made myself happy. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

You wouldn\u2019t recognize me now. I am fearless now. I finally left that comfort zone that was suffocating me. I travel now. There are a lot of places to see and they are all on my list.<\/p>\n

Agora corro todas as manh\u00e3s antes de ir para o trabalho. O pregui\u00e7oso de que sempre gozaste. Estou a suar o teu corpo e todo o stress acumulado do meu sistema.<\/p>\n

I even dyed my hair and it\u2019s a bit shorter. I want to look in the mirror and love the woman staring back at me. I know that new hair isn\u2019t everything but it\u2019s a start and I already feel a whole lot better.<\/p>\n

Concentrei-me em tornar a minha vida mais rica, frequentei um curso de fotografia, nadei, estou a remodelar o meu apartamento e aprendi a arranjar algumas coisas sozinha. Eu leio. Vejo filmes. Arranjo tempo para mim e todos os s\u00e1bados \u00e0 noite arranjo tempo para os meus amigos e cocktails tamb\u00e9m.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m more ambitious now, I am not burdened by you anymore, by your desires or your self-doubts telling me I can\u2019t make it.<\/p>\n

Consigo faz\u00ea-lo, por mais vezes que caia; volto sempre a levantar-me e isso faz-me crescer, faz-me mais forte, faz-me uma mulher de que me orgulho.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m more independent and more satisfied with life in general. I am finally breathing easy.<\/p>\n

A ironia de tudo isto \u00e9 que \u00e0s vezes sinto a tua falta. N\u00e3o tanto de ti, mas daqueles momentos perfeitos e emocionantes que partilh\u00e1mos.<\/p>\n

But I snap out of those fantasies really quickly because they come with a price I\u2019m not willing to pay. They come with the price of my happiness, my inner peace, and my self-love.<\/p>\n

E n\u00e3o h\u00e1 nada neste mundo, nem mesmo tu, pelo qual eu trocaria isso.<\/p>\n

\"O<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

You left me alone, all alone with just memories of happy times, with tears on my face and with this pain that doesn\u2019t want to leave. When I close my eyes, I can still smell your cologne, I can feel your lips pressed against mine, I can go back to moments when I was overwhelmed…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":28332,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-28329","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/11\/finn-hackshaw-400201-unsplash.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28329","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=28329"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28329\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/28332"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=28329"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=28329"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=28329"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}