{"id":49590,"date":"2019-12-11T16:13:48","date_gmt":"2019-12-11T16:13:48","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=49590"},"modified":"2022-03-01T23:35:34","modified_gmt":"2022-03-01T23:35:34","slug":"odeio-o-facto-de-querer-sempre-enviar-te-mensagens-em-dezembro","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/odeio-o-facto-de-querer-sempre-enviar-te-mensagens-em-dezembro\/","title":{"rendered":"Odeio o facto de querer mandar-te sempre mensagens em dezembro"},"content":{"rendered":"

Ca\u00ed na tristeza das f\u00e9rias e n\u00e3o sei como sair dela.<\/p>\n

Sinto que devias estar ao meu lado, mas n\u00e3o est\u00e1s. <\/p>\n

You haven\u2019t been a part of my life for a long long time, and though I am generally fine with all of it, there are days in which I miss you.<\/p>\n

Tenho saudades de n\u00f3s e do que pod\u00edamos ter sido. <\/p>\n

Tenho saudades de te ter por perto.<\/p>\n

Tenho saudades de me envolveres no teu abra\u00e7o.<\/p>\n

Tenho saudades das nossas conversas e da forma como me punhas o cabelo atr\u00e1s da orelha. <\/p>\n

I\u2019m not always this nostalgic.<\/b><\/p>\n

Acho que h\u00e1 qualquer coisa nesta altura do ano que torna as coisas t\u00e3o dif\u00edceis. <\/b><\/p>\n

My life paused the moment you left me, but it didn\u2019t stop.<\/b><\/p>\n

In the beginning, I was broken so hard I thought I would never be fixed again. But as time went by, I decided I\u2019m not going to give up on myself. <\/p>\n

\"mulher<\/p>\n

Desde ent\u00e3o, a minha vida tem sido uma pequena batalha atr\u00e1s de outra, mas estou determinada a ganhar a guerra. <\/p>\n

So, I got up every day, went to work, made plans, hung out with my family and friends, got dressed, and showed up where I was supposed to\u2014even when I didn\u2019t feel like it. <\/p>\n

Acho que sim n\u00e3o me deixaste outra alternativa<\/a>.<\/p>\n

Ou era isso ou passar o dia inteiro na cama, a sentir pena de mim pr\u00f3prio.<\/p>\n

Na minha cabe\u00e7a, isso n\u00e3o era uma op\u00e7\u00e3o, por isso trabalhei em mim e na minha nova vida sem ti.   <\/p>\n

Fiquei destro\u00e7ado, mas continuei a apanhar os peda\u00e7os e a col\u00e1-los de novo.<\/p>\n

Estava assustado, mas estava a seguir em frente.<\/p>\n

Estava t\u00e3o insegura em rela\u00e7\u00e3o a mim pr\u00f3pria, mas reconstru\u00ed a minha confian\u00e7a a partir do zero. <\/p>\n

I kept falling and getting up. I had (and still have) good days and bad days\u2014like estes dias de dezembro<\/a> quando sinto a tua falta mais do que o normal.<\/p>\n

Houve dias em que tive vontade de desistir, mas nunca o fiz. <\/p>\n

\"mulher<\/p>\n

Foi isso que fez toda a diferen\u00e7a: Nunca desisti de mim pr\u00f3prio. <\/b><\/p>\n

Independentemente das lutas, da dor e da m\u00e1goa, continuei a avan\u00e7ar e, a cada passo que dava, tornava-me mais forte, independente, amante de mim pr\u00f3pria e mais confiante. <\/p>\n

You broke my heart, you disarmed me, but you didn\u2019t break my spirit. <\/b><\/p>\n

And though on these days I feel like texting you, I feel like reaching out\u2014I won\u2019t.<\/p>\n

Agora sei melhor. Respeito-me o suficiente. <\/p>\n

Detesto sentir-me assim. <\/b><\/p>\n

Detesto ter de permitir que ainda estejas nos meus pensamentos, mas sei que \u00e9 apenas a tristeza das f\u00e9rias e que o sentimento vai passar.<\/b><\/p>\n

Eu mere\u00e7o algu\u00e9m melhor. Mere\u00e7o ser amada e respeitada, e tu nunca soubeste fazer isso.<\/p>\n

E, embora por vezes te fa\u00e7a perfeito na minha mente, a realidade \u00e9 que estavas longe disso. <\/p>\n

\"mulher<\/p>\n

You see, all those beautiful moments we shared that keep running through my mind can\u2019t make up for the fact that you broke me.<\/p>\n

They can\u2019t undo the damage you have done. <\/p>\n

That\u2019s why I will keep fighting those small battles. <\/b><\/p>\n

Levanto-me, visto-me e apare\u00e7o para mim pr\u00f3prio. <\/b><\/p>\n

Vou continuar a trabalhar nesta nova vida de que j\u00e1 me orgulho. <\/b><\/p>\n

I will keep going one day at the time because I learned by now that healing takes time; it won\u2019t happen overnight. <\/p>\n

I\u2019m not in a rush. I have time to learn to be fully happy without you.<\/p>\n

No entanto, este ano s\u00f3 tenho um desejo de Natal: Espero que<\/a> no pr\u00f3ximo m\u00eas de dezembro.<\/p>\n

I won\u2019t feel the need to text you.<\/p>\n

I hope I won\u2019t miss you. <\/p>\n

\"Odeio<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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