{"id":9257,"date":"2020-10-29T10:40:32","date_gmt":"2020-10-29T10:40:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=9257"},"modified":"2022-01-09T15:53:04","modified_gmt":"2022-01-09T15:53:04","slug":"odeio-estar-a-afastar-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/odeio-estar-a-afastar-me\/","title":{"rendered":"Eu odeio quem eu sou com voc\u00ea, ent\u00e3o eu estou indo embora"},"content":{"rendered":"

To be honest, I really don\u2019t know why I stayed this long. Maybe it\u2019s because I want to believe you can change, maybe it\u2019s because I refuse to believe that you managed to change me this much. I refuse to accept that I let you ruin everything I worked so hard for. But you did.<\/p>\n

Como pude deixar que me fizesses isto? Obrigaste-me a proteger-me de ti e do resto do mundo. Eu nunca fui medo de ser magoado<\/a>Nunca tive medo de ficar com o cora\u00e7\u00e3o partido. Eu amava e era amada.<\/p>\n

Mas contigo veio o medo de ser quebrado e todos aqueles muros que o teu sil\u00eancio construiu \u00e0 minha volta. Fechaste-me de tal forma que tive de as construir para n\u00e3o me magoar.<\/p>\n

But that\u2019s not how love works. That\u2019s not how a relationship works. I\u2019m not supposed to build walls, I\u2019m supposed to bring them down.<\/b><\/p>\n

Mas como \u00e9 que eu podia? Com as minhas inseguran\u00e7as que trouxeste \u00e0 superf\u00edcie e os muros que tinhas, como era suposto manter-me s\u00e3?<\/p>\n

E todas aquelas perguntas que ficaram sem resposta? E todas as vezes que me excluiu e me deixou \u00e0 beira da nossa rela\u00e7\u00e3o?<\/p>\n

\"a<\/p>\n

Todas as vezes que fui apenas um espetador quando era suposto ser igual a ti.<\/b><\/p>\n

We weren\u2019t like this at the beginning. I sure as hell wasn\u2019t like this. I wasn\u2019t this scared, broken little girl who was trying to earn her man\u2019s love. I was strong, I was fierce and Eu merecia mais<\/a> do que ser amado pela metade.<\/b><\/p>\n

I was much more than just your girlfriend and I miss that old me. I miss that old me who was never afraid, the old me who never ran away from love, but somehow you managed to break me while \u2018loving\u2019 me. I\u2019m sorry darling, but that\u2019s not love.<\/p>\n

Todo aquele sil\u00eancio que me deste afogou-me e nunca aprendi a nadar nos oceanos do teu amor.<\/b> Acho que foi a \u00fanica coisa que fiz bem contigo. Isso, e deixar-te.<\/p>\n

Porque, como v\u00eas, eu recuso-me a ser como qualquer outro ex teu . Recuso-me a ser a tua mulher perfeita se isso significar perder-me.<\/b> I refuse to be your little toy if that means you\u2019ll be playing with my emotions.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m done<\/a> running away from myself. I\u2019m done with looking at myself in the mirror and not recognizing the person I see. I deserve to be more than broken parts of my old self.<\/p>\n

\"uma<\/p>\n

Eu mere\u00e7o aquele tipo de amor que me far\u00e1 sentir quente, n\u00e3o queimar-me por dentro. Eu mere\u00e7o aquele tipo de amor que me faz completa, n\u00e3o que me quebra. Eu mere\u00e7o esse tipo de amor que me d\u00e1 asas, n\u00e3o me afoga.<\/b><\/p>\n

Do you have any idea how long it has been since I smiled last? Do you have any idea how long it has been since the last time I was truly happy? Of course you don\u2019t.<\/p>\n

And I can\u2019t do this anymore. I love you, I do. And I know that, in your own way, you love me too. But I won\u2019t be with you at any cost. I won\u2019t be with you like this.<\/p>\n

I can\u2019t let you change everything that makes me eu. <\/i> I refuse to change for someone who doesn\u2019t even see how much this hurts . Recuso-me a mudar por ti, porque tu nunca mudaste por mim.  <\/b><\/p>\n

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To be honest, I really don\u2019t know why I stayed this long. Maybe it\u2019s because I want to believe you can change, maybe it\u2019s because I refuse to believe that you managed to change me this much. I refuse to accept that I let you ruin everything I worked so hard for. But you did….<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":122794,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29618],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-9257","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-moving-on"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29618,"label":"moving on"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/I-Hate-Who-I-Am-With-You-So-Im-Walking-Away-1024x684.jpg",1024,684,true],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29618,"name":"moving on","slug":"moving-on","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29618,"taxonomy":"category","description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","parent":38,"count":200,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29618,"category_count":200,"category_description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","cat_name":"moving on","category_nicename":"moving-on","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9257","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=9257"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9257\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/122794"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=9257"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=9257"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/pt\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=9257"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}