After a long list of people who left my life, telling me that I was too demanding, too needy, etc., my high standards became lower and lower. I started to think that the problem was with me, that I needed to change and that’s what happened. I stopped looking for people who treated me like I deserved and I would settle for someone who would say sorry after they made me cry. It was enough to keep me satisfied. Those people really did convince me that I didn’t deserve any of those things I thought myself to be worthy of. They told me that no one could please my high standards, so I started doing things for others without asking for anything in return. In the back of my head, I was always thinking about those words, so I stopped asking for the things that were crucial in any relationship: love, trust and respect.
But after a long period of being taken for granted and putting myself down, I have found love and respect within. I have allowed myself to alter my perception of what I am looking for. I have finally opened my eyes and I can finally see that there is a long list of things I deserve. Nothing much, nothing scary. Just some humane behavior and I will never again settle for anything less!
I deserve something that isn’t boring or mediocre. I want to be treated with passion and love, because I know how much I’m able to give someone else. People seem to forget that I always love to be there for them, so why is it such a problem to want the same thing in return?
I want my tender heart to be treated with respect. It can easily break, and it has been broken before. But it is able to love again, although people can’t seem to realize it is very fragile and very gentle. Why is it so hard to understand that my heart needs to be loved and cared for like any other does?
I want to be treated with care, like I’m going to fall apart if you touch me too rough! I want to be treated like this because I have been too strong for far too long and I need a break. My muscles are tired and I want someone to take care of me for once. To touch me like I’m going to break, to be gentle and never to touch me in anger.
I deserve to be part of a unit, part of something wonderful, where we both give our everything into making our relationship work. I don’t want to be treated like I don’t belong anywhere, like I am not a part of your world. I don’t want secrets, I want honesty and the truth.
I want someone who’s going to be there for me, not only when I need you, but when you think it might be better for you to be around. I am ready to be there for you as well, I want you to be happy and I’m going to do anything that’s in my power to make you feel loved and protected. I hope you can do this for me, too.
I don’t want much. I don’t want you to jump off of buildings or to travel to the other side of the world for me. I simply want to be loved and cared for. I want loyalty and respect. Thinking that I deserve all these things might be a little selfish but it’s OK. I’ve been selfless for far too long and it’s finally my time to embrace my worth. I hope you understand. But don’t be discouraged. Making a long ‘I want’ list doesn’t limit your choices. I am willing to give you everything I am, if you’ll do the same thing for me.