Uma carta aberta ao homem que magoei

Eu sabia que este momento chegaria mais cedo ou mais tarde. Eu sabia que não era suficientemente forte para lutar por ti, mas de alguma forma negligenciei esse sentimento.

Pensei que o facto de lutou por mim tão duro era suficiente.

But it wasn’t. It takes two to tango and I was the one who messed up things here. And I am sorry for that.

I am sorry that I let you go all in, without any intention to reciprocate in the same way. But just know it wasn’t because I didn’t want to, it was because I couldn’t.

You know, you can’t just tell your heart what to do. It is not a machine so you can’t turn it on and off.

The heart is a complicated thing and you need to be careful when dealing with it. Too bad I wasn’t careful with yours. I never thought that you would fall so hard for me.

Pensei que ficarias por cá pouco tempo e que te irias embora, como o resto dos rapazes com quem namorei.

Mas tu tinhas planos diferentes. Decidiste ficar comigo, com alguém que estava magoado, partido e completamente lixado. Ficaste e esperaste por mim para me recompor.

You held me while I was fixing myself, telling me that I could do it and that I shouldn’t give up. But too bad that I gave up on love a long time ago. I gave up on you a long time ago.

Querida, eu desisti de nós há muito tempo. And you couldn’t even see it in my eyes, since I pretended everything was okay.

I didn’t have enough courage to tell you that things between us would never work.

Pensei que íamos discutir como sempre fiz com os outros rapazes com quem andei.

I thought there would come a day when you would yell at me, telling me that you couldn’t stand me anymore.

But that day never happened. You were always there if I needed you. If I called you in the middle of the night, you would come to my doorstep to hug me and to tell me that I shouldn’t sweat the small stuff.

Tu eras tão cheio de amor e atenção, mas eu, por outro lado, era um forreta quando se tratava de emoções.

That’s why I want to say that I am sorry. I am sorry that I suck at showing my emotions. I am sorry I suck at showing that I care.

Lamento ter-te tratado mal porque pensei que eras como os outros rapazes. Lamento que tenhas tido de te apaixonar por mim. Se eu pudesse mudar alguma coisa agora, mudaria isso.

I would never want to see you broken like you are now. If I could go back, I would do things differently. But I can’t. And I am sorry about that.

I just want you to know that none of this was planned. I am not a monster. I am just a woman who has been hurt too many times. And that’s why I am keeping my heart closed to anyone who comes near.

That’s why I look like the unlovable one. That’s why I am sad. And I hope that one day I will manage to love like you.

Espero ser capaz de abrir o meu coração e de me entregar totalmente a alguém. Mas acima de tudo, espero que encontres a força para me esqueceres e que me perdoes.

I hope that you will realize that it wasn’t my intention to hurt you and that you will forgive me for the pain I have caused you.

Também espero que encontres o amor porque és um ser humano maravilhoso. Tenho a certeza de que serás um ótimo marido e um pai fantástico.

I just hope the next woman you fall in love with will know how to cherish you. I hope she will give you everything that I couldn’t.

Espero que ela te ame como nunca amou ninguém antes. E, acima de tudo, espero que ela seja a tal.

Desejo-vos toda a sorte do mundo.

The one who couldn’t love you