A paz que sinto agora vale tudo o que perdi quando te deixei

Sou uma nova pessoa agora que não estás na minha vida. Não voltei a ser o que era antes de ti. Estou melhor agora.

Antes de ti, eu nem sequer sabia como a minha vida podia ser confusa. Todo o amor e todo o ódio tornavam a vida insuportável. Eu era muitas coisas contigo, mas nunca pacífica.

A girl needs her peace. That’s exactly what I got by losing you.

I’m not saying everything between us was bad. Still, the way you challenged everything I thought I knew about myself, love, and relationships kept me on my toes all the time. It was exhausting.

I tried to make us work. I gave everything I had and more. Somehow, it was never enough. There was always something missing. I got tired, I’m sorry.

Leaving you was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I’ve lost so much. All the sweet ways you showed me how much you cared, all the lovely words you used to say to me.

I’ve lost spending every minute of my free time with you, just hanging out. I’ve lost all the delightful plans we had for the future.

I know that. That’s what made leaving so difficult. Still, what I have now is worth even more.

Contigo, as coisas nunca eram claras. Nunca tive a certeza absoluta de que o que dizias num dia continuaria a ser verdade no dia seguinte.

Quando estavas num dia bom, tudo era perfeito, mas eram os teus dias maus que me arruinavam.

Comecei a sentir-me só, traído, invisível. Tudo isto misturado com todo o amor que eu tinha por ti e todo o amor que eu pensava que tu tinhas por mim.

No final, tudo o que tínhamos era uma teia confusa de promessas que nunca foram cumpridas, mentiras que se estavam a acumular, silêncios que já não eram agradáveis.

Olhando para trás, parece que me perdi a mim própria, a tentar manter-nos vivos. Cada pedacinho da minha energia foi para desembaraçar aquela teia horrível que criámos.

It couldn’t be untangled. I know that now. There was nothing anyone could do. There were simply too many bad things in our past to hope for a bright, shiny future.

I loved you. I don’t blame you for anything. You helped me learn so many things about life, love, and myself.

You changed many of my perspectives and I’m grateful for that because it changed my life.

The pain from losing you has been replaced by a feeling of accomplishment. It’s been replaced by pride.

I’m so proud of myself for being strong enough to put my life in order. I’m so proud that I know when to stop trying.

You weren’t a waste of my time. Many things in our relationship will remain my most precious memories.

It would sadden me if you thought I abandoned you. I didn’t. I had to go back to finding myself, loving myself, supporting myself.

I’ll never forget you. Our kisses mixed with tears have left a deep mark on my heart. That mark will always be there to remind me of you.

É com orgulho que digo que dou mais valor ao que tenho agora do que a tudo o que tínhamos, do que a tudo o que perdi quando te perdi.

The most important life choices are never easy, and this was the hardest decision I ever had to make. I don’t regret my choice.

Há uma altura na vida em que nada é mais importante do que permitirmo-nos viver a nossa melhor vida. A minha altura chegou quando acabei contigo.

Me leaving wasn’t an act of ditching you, it was an act of finding myself again – something I desperately needed.

Instead of letting you break me to pieces, I’ve led myself to peace.