Perder uma melhor amiga por causa de um homem dói muito
We’ve all sworn not to be like this. We’ve all sworn that we won’t forget our friends once we fall in love and we’ve mocked those doing so for way too long.
O tiro saiu pela culatra.
No início, quis queimar todas as nossas fotografias e apagar as que tinha na minha galeria. Queria apagar esse período da minha vida porque o futuro não reservava nada para nós os dois.
Ela encontrou a sua verdadeira alma gémea e já não havia tempo nem lugar para mim.
But the fact that we didn’t hang around as we used did couldn’t change the fact that we had so many amazing and exciting moments together. That can’t be erased.
I spent so much time thinking, “ Who else am I going to call my best friend?”.
We’ve been friends for so long and I had plenty of people around, but you know how it goes—there is this one really best friend; others are just people I hang around with.
Acho que ela esteve sempre lá. Ela estava lá para as noites selvagens. Ela estava lá para curar o meu coração partido.
She was there for Netflix and chill—the only one I let change my favorite show until she wasn’t anymore. It felt kind of empty.
As recordações estavam por todo o lado. As recordações ainda estão por todo o lado. Havia o nosso sítio preferido para comer depois de uma saída à noite.
Houve o nosso gelado especial para um coração partido e tivemos a nossa dança ao som da nossa canção favorita. Acho que passámos de amigos a estranhos com memórias.
Boohoo for me—I know I am not the only one out there to live these things. It’s just awkward when people ask me about her and why they don’t see us together any longer. It’s a little too obvious, don’t you think?
She was no longer up for wild nights out. She wasn’t always available and most of her plans contained her new boyfriend as well.
See, I felt betrayed, left alone, played and what not. We had our plan—we had our mantra that we lived until she fell in love.
And still she had me in her plan. She did, but it wasn’t the only two of us and it somehow felt awkward. So, we fell apart.
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Comecei a pensar na amizade que tínhamos e nas amizades em geral.
I realized most of our friendships are formed when we’re in our 20s and when life is scary as hell. It’s mostlyfriendships out of need.
We need someone who’ll share our deprivation. We need someone who’ll share the same feelings as we do. We need somebody who’ll understand us and we need to be taken care of.
When our whole world is falling apart, we need someone to tell us it’ll be alright—basically, we need our soulmates. Someone in whose life we’re reflected.
A segunda coisa de que me apercebi é que os nossos amigos são de facto as nossas almas gémeas, mas só por algum tempo.
Porque quando saímos, encontramos um rapaz com quem podemos passar as noites, que era o objetivo principal da nossa saída.
We might fool ourselves and think we go out to have fun, but it’s only fun if there are cute guys around us.
Love is what we’re constantly searching for. Quer gostemos de o admitir ou não, precisamos de amor para funcionar.
Precisamos de nos deitar na cama com um homem que amamos e precisamos de ter alguém em quem apoiar a cabeça. Esse tipo de intimidade é um nível totalmente novo e, após alguns anos, eu percebo.
Eu percebo que ela tenha seguido em frente e encontrado alguém especial na sua vida. Ela estava lá quando eu precisava mesmo dela e depois seguiu em frente.
That’s the way things should go. I know now if I was her, I’d do the same thing. I’d choose the love of my life over her as well. I would plan my days with him, my vacations, trips and what not.
Because he’d be mine forever, and he’d be the one I’d like to see myself with in future. I get it now.
I’m just sorry that I spent so much time angry when I should’ve been happy for her. She deserved to be loved, not to be held back by me.
It hurt like hell to lose my best friend over a guy, but I know now that’s the way things should go. I just wish I knew this earlier.
