Tu és o meu final feliz

I’ve been going through years and years of my life, never knowing what true love was. I was searching for it in everything and everyone.

Somehow, I thought that love was supposed to be this great and secret craft that not everyone was allowed to master. Sounds weird, I know. But I was convinced that love wasn’t something that was going to be in my life.

Passei por muita coisa. Eu era a rapariga abusados por narcisistaspsicopatas emocionais e até por mim próprio. Talvez se perguntem agora: como é que eu podia estar a abusar de mim próprio?

Well, it’s easy. I went all in thinking that I could change them and that with the right amount of effort they would love me as much as I loved them.

I would cry myself to sleep because I couldn’t believe that something so beautiful as love would hurt so much.

And then… there was you.

A primeira vez que te vi foi no dia em que decidi começar uma nova vida e deixar de pensar se alguém me ia amar ou não.

De alguma forma, eu queria amar-me mais do que qualquer outra pessoa alguma vez o fez. Estava sentado num café, a escrever os meus pensamentos, e foi nesse exato momento que tu entraste na minha vida.

Foste tão doce e amável. Pensei que me tinha esquecido de como era a cara de uma pessoa simpática.

There was nothing I could’ve done to make you go away because you were determined to love me and make me love you. I did. I fell for you and the crazy thing about it is that you caught me.

You didn’t let me fall for you so I could keep on falling forever, but you caught me and went together with me into a whole new life.

You hadn’t had it easy either. You didn’t learn much about love from your namorada traidora and that’s nothing you should be ashamed of. We’re learning together now.

From day one, the fire between us didn’t burn away; it kept on keeping us warm and protected.

Fazes-me sentir protegido. Fazes-me sentir seguro. Fazes-me sentir amada e apreciada. Mas não há nada que me agradeça tanto como o facto de me fazeres sentir que sou suficiente.

Eu sou suficiente. Para ti, para mim, para o mundo.

You showed me love. You showed me what love is and that it’s not hard, that it’s not suffering. Mostraste-me que o amor incondicional e genuíno nunca tem um fundo tóxico, mas sim o belo sentimento de pertença.

You showed me how to love myself the day I decided to fall in love with you. You told me that there is no one who can love me like I can love myself and you were right. But it’s nice to see that someone else has the courage to love me as well.

Thank you for everything you have done for me. For everything you are and everything you’ve taught me. Thank you for ser quem se é.

Now I have realized that endings don’t have to be sad, but they can be happy and beautiful, just because I am living my life with you and I want to spend it with you until the end of my days.

The end won’t be sad, because I know that I have will have spent my life in your hands and with my head leaned on your shoulder.

But let’s not talk about death. Let’s talk about every new morning that I spend kissing you and every evening that we spend loving each other even more than we did the night before.

It’s the most fulfilling feeling to know that out there is someone like you just waiting for every woman who has survived. It’s like knowing that everyone will have their own happy ending.

Um final feliz que nos ensinará que o amor é real e que o amor esperará sempre pelos pacientes.