5 Coisas que acontecem quando finalmente se sai de uma relação falhada

Nem sequer se apercebe da sorte que tem por poder sair de uma relação falida. A tua felicidade está toda encoberta pela dor e pela tristeza que sentes agora. Mas isso vai passar, sabes?

It’s just the feeling of loneliness that is overwhelming you, the change that happened. You were in a relationship for some time and you didn’t even realize that you were unhappy.

Pensavas que as coisas iam mudar, mas a sua indiferença e o seu egoísmo apenas te empurravam para mais fundo na tristeza que ocupava o teu coração e a tua mente.

Estes homens tóxicos atraem-nos para a sua armadilha e prendem-nos, alimentando-se da nossa energia, até que um dia já não há mais energia em nós. Até que um dia esteja completamente seca, até que se renda e desista dele, da sua relação.

You were abused emotionally, you were yelled at, and you were told that you were incompetent and stupid. God knows how many disgusting things you heard but chose to forget. Although we both know that you will never erase those moments from your mind, you’ll try to push them deep to the back of your mind.

Um dia, afastamo-nos. Afasta-se dos seus maus tratos, gritos e intimidações e sente-se uma merda. Pensava que se ia libertar e sentir-se novamente positiva e feliz. Mas as coisas só parecem piorar e, por isso, começa a sentir a sua falta e rapidamente volta para ele, esperando que desta vez as coisas sejam diferentes.

You’re hoping that he’ll turn things around because he has realized how miserable he is without you. And indeed, you really see that new side of him in the first few days. He’s attentive, loving and caring up until the first disagreement, up until the first time you stand up for yourself.

He doesn’t like that. He doesn’t want a strong and independent woman by his side. He wants a poor and rapariga fraca who will do exactly as she is told, a girl who doesn’t fight back and that’s not you.

Then suddenly, you’ve been shifted to your abusive reality. Something woke you up from a beautiful dreamland you were in and showed you, once again, who he really is.

I know what you’re going through. I know that once again you’ve left and you feel tempted to go back because you’re scared to be alone, or you think he’s going to change, or you think you still love him so you want to give him another shot.

Stop! Nothing is going to change. He’s going to stay the same abusive and self-centered idiota and you’re still going to be his victim to lash out on whenever he feels like it.

You’ll be lost when you break it off for good. You’re going to feel unwanted and you’re going to be miserable for some time.

But you have to let those tears out otherwise you’ll choke on them. You have to scream to release all your anger and not to bottle it up inside you because it will destroy you, it will beat you to an emotional death.

Mas assim que tirares tudo o que é mau do teu sistema, assim que aceitares o teu novo estatuto e o teu novo papel na vida, as coisas vão começar a mudar à velocidade da luz. Sabes que depois de chover, o sol nasce sempre.

É preciso bater no fundo do poço para nos levantarmos e voltarmos a erguer-nos.

1. You’ll learn to love yourself

You’re not going to see yourself in the same way anymore. You’ve learned your lesson and it has changed you. Maybe not even changed you as much as it showed you which path you must never take anymore, what lies and manipulations you should never believe in again.

You’re going to learn to respect yourself because you’ve been treated like shit for such a long time. You’ll see what you’ve been missing out on, how much love you deserved and never got.

You’re going to stop underestimating yourself and embrace yourself because you are the best version of yourself, you just bumped into the wrong man for you.

2. You’ll gradually forgive yourself

It’s not going to happen so soon. You’ll resent yourself and hate yourself for being so stupid to trust him.

You’re going to be angry because you let yourself fall in love with a manipulador disfarçado e acreditaram nas suas mentiras e nas suas palavras vazias.

But sadly, love is really blind and when you love someone, even if you know deep in your heart that he is not the man for you, you refuse to believe it because you’re crazy in love and the thing between the two of you has to work, it just has to.

3. Aceita o que aconteceu

When you break free from a toxic relationship, you’re confused and you feel alone. It’s only then that you start to realize that you’ve been mistreated and emotionally abused.

Only once you get away from him, do you go over things and realize how miserable you’ve been and didn’t want to admit it. You were constantly hoping for a change, you thought it was just a ‘phase’.

But when you move away and lock him out of your life for good, you’re able to think straight and see things for what they really are. There is no one there to change the truth and manipulate you into thinking that you’re happy and that things should work this way, that you are the problem and not him. So you slowly accept it.

It’s too much to accept all of a sudden. You allow yourself to take a leap into this realization and do it step by step, so you don’t break down. When you finally understand how things happened and why, and accept everything, you will find peace and you will move on.

4. Abraçar a dor

It’s your pain, it’s a part of you. It’s a feeling that comes from your heart and even if it sucks, you have to embrace it. You have to learn to accept that you’re hurting and you will be hurting for some time.

Amaste alguém, provavelmente ainda sentes alguma coisa por ele e ele usou-te e manipulou-te. O teu coração está ferido e sangra muito.

But, in time, that wound is going to get smaller, it’s going to bleed less, until one day it finally stops. You’re never be going to feel the same again, because you’ll always have a constant reminder, a huge scar on your heart, of what happened and how it hurt.

But it’s your pain, it comes from you and you have to take it and learn to overcome it.

5. Aprende-se a apreciar as pequenas coisas

After the emotional chaos you’ve lived through, there is a period of complete and utter peace. A period where you find yourself again, where you learn to love the same things you loved before him, when you slowly return a shy but significant smile to your face, a time when you redescobrir-se.

It’s like learning to walk or talk again. It takes time but it’s somewhere deep inside you. It’s not forgotten, it’s just misplaced.

Começa-se com pequenas coisas. Vai dar um passeio num belo dia de sol, sozinho, desfruta do sol, do cheiro da relva acabada de cortar. Observa as pessoas que passam por si e provavelmente interroga-se sobre o que lhes vai na alma. Será que algumas delas passaram pelo mesmo que tu?

Are they happy? What troubles them? And then you look inside yourself once again and you feel peace, you feel that all those small, insignificant things such as the sun, a walk or a stranger’s smile, are bringing your old self back. Easily, step by step.