A verdade sobre a rapariga que ama sempre mais do que é amada de volta

Sempre fui aquela rapariga que deu cento e dez por cento a alguém que me deu menos de cem por cento deles.

I’ve always been that girl who had to find a little extra love to compensate for the lack of affection I was given in return.

I’m not saying I have never been loved, nor am I saying that I can’t be loved. 

But what I’ve come to realize recently is that I always have to be the one who gives more because otherwise I fear I would get nada.

And this is a hard thing to say out loud, which I’m sure anyone who has struggled with this dreadful feeling can understand.

I would never say this to anyone face-to-face. I’m too ashamed that I feel this way.

But it’s my truth and I have to live with it.

I don’t know if there’s something wrong with me that makes me difficult to love completely and irrevocably… but it sure as hell feels that way at times.

Mesmo com o meu último namorado, senti-me exatamente assim. Eu sabia que ele se importava até certo ponto. Eu sabia que ele tinha sentimentos por mim.

But I just wasn’t enough. I wasn’t a sua prioridade. I was never the one he’d leave wherever he was in an instant and come to be by my side.

Eu era mais uma opção decente, mas se houvesse alguém com melhor aspeto e mais parecido com uma supermodelo, eu estava de certeza em segundo plano.

E doeu imenso.

Mas o meu problema era que nunca falava. Eu nunca disse nada.

Aceitei essa situação de merda como ela era, porque achei que era melhor receber amor aos bocadinhos do que estar completamente sozinha.

But the real truth about constantly being the girl who loves more than she is loved back is that she’s farto e cansado disso.

She no longer accepts only half of the attention and half of anyone’s love.

Ela quer tudo ou nada! Porque adivinha?

Os idiotas que a consideram indigna de toda a sua atenção são os que têm problemas—NÃO ela.

Those who treat the people they’re supposed to cherish as an option are the ones who are eventually going to get stung.

It’s only a matter of time.

Durante muito tempo, vivi com esta sensação de comichão dentro de mim, como se fosse defeituosa de alguma forma.

Durante muito tempo senti que não era suficientemente bonita, inteligente ou interessante.

For too long I accepted far less than I deserve and I know I’m not alone in feeling this way. 

Sei que há muitas raparigas por aí que temem a rejeição ao ponto de aceitarem qualquer amor a que consigam deitar a mão.

But the truth is that those who refuse to give you everything that you deserve and don’t treat you with the utmost respect are nothing but assholes in disguise who are not worthy of a single tear of yours!

Eles é que deviam estar a sentir-se assim, NÃO tu.

É uma mulher perfeitamente correcta, gentil, inteligente e bonita que vai encontrar o seu final feliz.

And those jerks are going to end up alone because they can’t give their whole heart to any one person.

In a way, you should feel sorry for them. So what if that idiot couldn’t give you all of his love? 

E se ele só aparecesse metade das vezes quando precisavas dele?

That doesn’t mean you’re at fault. It means he’s a no-good type of idiot who couldn’t see a good thing if it stared him right in the face!

 So don’t worry about him and all those like him.

São eles que vão acabar por mendigar migalhas do seu amor um dia. Prometo-vos isso.

Talvez não amanhã e talvez não durante alguns anos.

But when enough time has passed and he is still living that superficial single life that got him nowhere, he’ll come crawling back.

But the only difference is that this time, you’ll be the one turning your back on him.

You’ll be the one who decides that he isn’t suficientemente bom para si.

And that is going to be one of the most satisfying feelings you’ve ever felt.

Looking him straight in the eye with a short and sweet, ‘’Nope!’’ while showing him the door.

And then, you never have to think about him again. Because he’s too big of a wuss to face you ever again.

The truth is that being a girl who loves more isn’t all that bad when you really think about it. 

Porque nos ensina a ter paciência e nos mostra a nossa capacidade de resistência.

You learn to be the best and strongest version of yourself and isn’t that something to be thankful for?

If you hadn’t gone through all that, you wouldn’t be aware of what you’re capable of enduring.

If all those jerks hadn’t been such assholes, you probably wouldn’t be able to appreciate the good in your life the way you do now.

E é isso que vos torna melhores do que eles.

You learn and grow from this. And them? They stay the same immature boys who can’t appreciate a good woman if their lives depended on it.

And ultimately, you’re the only one who comes out of this a winner—em todos os aspectos que realmente importam.