Thank You For Letting Me Down When I Needed You The Most

I don’t think I ever believed that I’ll be agradecendo-lhe por bra comer-me e por ser a lição mais difícil que aprendi.

But, here I am. Thank you for doing exactly that because I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for you.

I’d probably still believe in every word you say. I’d probably still be stuck waiting for you and hoping that you’ll choose me in the end.

I’d still be waiting for your approval, for your comfort and support. Thanks heavens, I’m not anymore. And thank you for teaching me that.

Obrigado por não teres estado presente quando precisei que me abraçasses. Porque aprendi a segurar-me.

Quando os furacões da vida tentou separar-menão estava nem perto para me segurar no lugar.

I was torn apart between trusting you and hating you. I was torn apart between moving on and hoping you’ll change.

Torn apart between growing up the hard way and still naïvely believing in happy endings.

E acabei em pedaços, sem ninguém ao meu lado que me pudesse ajudar a apanhá-los. Sem ninguém ao meu lado para segurar os pedaços que recuperei enquanto procurava os que ainda estavam perdidos.

I did it on my own and for that reason, there’s no way I’ll ever let anyone take them away from me. I still believe in happy endings—it’s just that you’re no longer part of them.

Obrigado por não teres estado presente quando precisei do teu apoio. Quando eu precisava que me segurasses as costas, estavas a agarrar-te à tua tralha, exigindo a minha atenção.

Quando precisei que me empurrasses para a frente, que me mostrasses que acreditavas em mim quando eu já não acreditava em mim, estavas perdido no teu próprio universo.

Quando eu precisava que trouxesses ao de cima o melhor de mim, procuraste o pior.

I faced my first failures alone because you couldn’t bear to be surrounded with so much negativity and sadness.

I drowned in it until I learned how to swim. And now that I’m a bloody shark, I have you to thank for that.

Obrigado por me deixares ficar mal quando precisei que me confortasses.

While tears were rolling down my face, you weren’t the one to kiss them away—you were the one who caused them.

When the sound of my breaking heart deafened me, you weren’t the one holding me—you were wielding the hammer.

Obrigada por teres sido a pior coisa que me aconteceu, porque depois disso descobri como ser a melhor versão de mim.

Obrigado por nunca acreditares em mim. Isso levou-me aos meus limites. Quando foste embora, eu estava infeliz.

When you left, I believed everything you said was true—that I wasn’t good enough, smart enough and suficientemente forte.

I believed that if the one who loved me couldn’t see the best in me, how could anyone else see it?

But the truth is, you never really loved me. You couldn’t see the best in me because you couldn’t see it in yourself.

You couldn’t love me, because you never learned how to love yourself in the first place.

Obrigado por me fazeres duvidar de mim próprio, porque não tinha outra escolha senão melhorar o meu jogo. E raios, como o fiz bem.

Obrigado por nunca me teres amado quando eu precisava. Because, finally I understand that love is not about needing someone. It’s about wanting them to be there.

I don’t need you anymore because I have myself. I don’t need your support, your strength, because I have mine.

I’m stronger than I ever was and I love myself in a way I never thought I’d be able to. And funnily enough, I have you to thank for that.

Você despiu-me de tudo o que eu era. Tiraste-me o sorriso.

Tiraste-me a luz dos olhos, a minha força, a minha paixão. Eu não era nada, uma concha vazia apenas a passar pela vida de dia para dia.

Levei meses, anos para me reconstruir.

To fill up that shell with so much love, so much passion and so much fucking badassery that there’s no way anyone can take it from me anymore.

I’m no longer afraid of life, because I’m living it to the fullest. I’m no longer afraid of love because I conquered it.

I’m not afraid to let anyone in, to let down my walls, because I know better now.

I’m not afraid to love someone because I love myself more.