Apaixonei-me por outra pessoa

Querido marido,

I fell in love with someone else. Truth is, he makes me feel like no one ever has before. For once I feel like I have actually met my soulmate, that he is my person. When I look into his eyes, I feel like I’m looking into his mind, heart and soul. And for once I feel like my feelings are being reciprocated and I feel whole. No, he doesn’t make me whole like you once did. I’m finally my own person – I don’t need someone to make me whole again and I finally found someone who compliments me.

He doesn’t question me, he doesn’t doubt me nor what we have, and he believes in me and in us. He challenges me and has opened my eyes to a world I never knew existed. I’m more open-minded than I have ever been before. I’m so sick of staying the same and being stuck in this same routine. I want to be pushed, I want to be heard, I wanted you to genuinely care like he does. He listens, he tells me when I’m wrong because ele quer fazer de mim uma pessoa melhor, he argues back with me because he cares….. and he doesn’t ignore me.

Queria que me abraçasses como ele faz, queria que me protegesses como ele faz. Queria tanto que fosses um amante apaixonado como ele é. Queria que te tivesses aberto comigo como ele faz. Pensei que já te teria conhecido, depois de todos estes anos.

But here is the truth: I know him more than I’ve ever known you. Finally, I’ve found myself, and more importantly Eu amo-me mais do que alguma vez fiz. Isto deve-se a ele; foi ele que se preocupou o suficiente para me tornar forte e independente. Ele fez-me sentir que posso fazer tudo o que quiser.

He tells me he is the luckiest man alive, he tells me how special I am to him every damn day. Did I tell you how he doesn’t ignore me? Well, he doesn’t. Even when he is at work, or out with his friends. Did I tell you how he wants to come home to me? But he can’t because I’m still with you, even though you’re not actually here. Not even close.

I’m not here to destroy you, I’m here to tell you that we weren’t made for each other. I know you will find someone and be a great lover to her, the one you couldn’t be to me. Truth is, I so badly wish he was you but you’re not him and can’t ever be him, and that is why I can’t stay one day, minute or second longer.

por Boers Kathleen