Carta abierta al hombre al que herí

Sabía que este momento llegaría tarde o temprano. Sabía que no era lo suficientemente fuerte como para luchar por ti, pero de alguna manera descuidé ese sentimiento.

Pensé que el hecho luchabas por mi tan duro fue suficiente.

But it wasn’t. It takes two to tango and I was the one who messed up things here. And I am sorry for that.

I am sorry that I let you go all in, without any intention to reciprocate in the same way. But just know it wasn’t because I didn’t want to, it was because I couldn’t.

You know, you can’t just tell your heart what to do. It is not a machine so you can’t turn it on and off.

The heart is a complicated thing and you need to be careful when dealing with it. Too bad I wasn’t careful with yours. I never thought that you would fall so hard for me.

Pensé que te quedarías poco tiempo y que te irías, como el resto de los chicos con los que salí.

Pero tú tenías otros planes. Decidiste quedarte conmigo, con alguien que estaba magullado, roto y totalmente jodido. Te quedaste y me esperaste para ponerme las pilas.

You held me while I was fixing myself, telling me that I could do it and that I shouldn’t give up. But too bad that I gave up on love a long time ago. I gave up on you a long time ago.

Cariño, me di por vencida con nosotros hace mucho tiempo. And you couldn’t even see it in my eyes, since I pretended everything was okay.

I didn’t have enough courage to tell you that things between us would never work.

Pensé que nos pelearíamos como siempre lo hacía con los otros chicos con los que salía.

I thought there would come a day when you would yell at me, telling me that you couldn’t stand me anymore.

But that day never happened. You were always there if I needed you. If I called you in the middle of the night, you would come to my doorstep to hug me and to tell me that I shouldn’t sweat the small stuff.

Tú estabas lleno de amor y atención, pero yo, en cambio, era un tacaño en lo que se refiere a las emociones.

That’s why I want to say that I am sorry. I am sorry that I suck at showing my emotions. I am sorry I suck at showing that I care.

Siento haberte tratado mal porque pensaba que eras como el resto de los chicos. Siento que tuvieras que enamorarte de mí. Si pudiera cambiar algo ahora mismo, cambiaría eso.

I would never want to see you broken like you are now. If I could go back, I would do things differently. But I can’t. And I am sorry about that.

I just want you to know that none of this was planned. I am not a monster. I am just a woman who has been hurt too many times. And that’s why I am keeping my heart closed to anyone who comes near.

That’s why I look like the unlovable one. That’s why I am sad. And I hope that one day I will manage to love like you.

Espero ser capaz de abrir mi corazón y entregarme por completo a alguien. Pero sobre todo, espero que encuentre la fuerza para superarme y que me perdone.

I hope that you will realize that it wasn’t my intention to hurt you and that you will forgive me for the pain I have caused you.

También espero que encuentres el amor porque eres un ser humano maravilloso. Estoy segura de que serás un gran marido y un padre increíble.

I just hope the next woman you fall in love with will know how to cherish you. I hope she will give you everything that I couldn’t.

Espero que te quiera como nunca ha querido a nadie. Y sobre todo, espero que sea la elegida.

Le deseo toda la suerte del mundo.

The one who couldn’t love you